Relapsed again, enough is enough

Hi fresh I know what your going through because I've been there , I've lost houses and a wife and so much more, but it is possible to take control . I've been gf now for about 8 months and things are changing I've still got debt but I'm dealing with that and starting to live my life without this constant weight around my neck ! . I've started to see what gambling really is and it's nothing more than these companies trying to get your money and get you hooked . You can stop you can change your life you have got to change the way you think and that's not easy after a lifetime of thinking in one particular way but you can do it . I've relapsed a lot of times but I kept on going and now I feel I am final beating this terrible disease . Just take one day at a time at first don't look to far ahead , each day is a little battle won and the more battles won the stronger you will get !! . I hope it works out for you , I know you can do this , if I can you can . Stay strong . Loz .

@ loz

Thank you so much for sharing your story, it gives me another drive to fight this head on and how far this disease can destroy us, it's Amazing you have been gambling free for 8 months what an inspiration and it can be done!!! I hope you have peace and life is better for you, I can't remember the last time I was gambling free longer than four weeks, really hope I can do it and like you say each day is a baffle but a battle won! That will stick with me thanks Loz, keep strong together!

Hey love...well done for coming back and starting the fight again. Get that triangle broken...ring the helpline again..it's up to you to change things love. .....and as the old saying goes...nothing will change. ...untill you change it...
The buzz I get now from being gamble free for over two years...
Debts paid. ..bills up to date...and money in the bank is amazing...
Actually....it's not a buzz...it's a peacfull feeling. ..a secure feeling...
A feeling I craved and yearned for everyday that I ran to those online slots. ....a feeling I thought a big win would have given me....but..as we all know. ..that never happened. .
I never thought id get to where I am now....but i did....by making changes....
You can do this love....
Make those changes xx

@loxxie

Thank you so much for your inspiring post its motivating me to go on and keep up this strength! Can't believe you have two years gamble free wow!!! Amazing!!! And to hear you say you have that peaceful feeling is all I have ever wanted and like you I hope I get that one day, my head today is splitting probably withdrawal effects from stopping and trying to break this dreadful habit but together we can help each other and I am going to tune into my recovery diary every night and help other people. I can't wait for next Christmas gamble free and debt free hopefully xx

In the early days of figting my addiction. ..I use to say to myself..
"Would I be happy spending so much time and obviuosly money with a "friend" who manipulated me into such a selfish...dishonest..and withdrawn person. ..a "friend" who just kept sucking the life out of me in evey possible way ...no..of coarse I wouldn't give that type of "friend" the time of day ....but to me. .in the grip of addiction...online slots was my best friend...the answer to all my problems....the friend who was going to provide me with a rosey future !
Crazy when you look at it like that...but that's how worped my brain was ....
So...for me...when an urge came from nowhere...id tell that "friend" to jog on !. ..
Often not as polite as that ! lol
Taking it daily was all that mattered....
Debts will eventually get cleard love...dont make unrealistic re payments....
There's no rush. ..you're just another customer to you're creditors...get small offers set up...leaving yourself short is ..in my opinion a possible trigger to gamble. ...you have to been able to have some wiggle room...
Keep fighting that horrible "old friend" xx

7 days gambling free and I can see the light through the dark tunnel, I joined gym and went to a class tonight, totally anxious but need a new focus and whilst I was gambling I was eating badly too another addiction I suppose! My worry is if I feel stressed what can I do to cope but think gym or class could help me take the over th me focus. I still look at my debt and feel S****y but when I get paid next week I am going to pay off a massive chunk which I have never done before because every pay day the money is gone within days. I am scared when I think of payday and for some strange reason I feel uncomfortable having money in my bank? It is like I'm more familiar been poor and to do otherwise is a strange feeling and a temptation to gamble? Does anyone else experience this? Would be grateful if share your story maybe help me identify some blocks

Thanks guys

I am a smoker...as well as a compulsive gambler! And I just read somewhere recently...that when a friend dies...you bury them..you mourn them every day but over time that pain and feeling of grief and mourning gets less. But no matter how much you miss them...how much you morun them...they are never ever coming back. Realise that you will never ever see them again....no matter how much you want to. That "friend" who Ive known for 25 years...been my constant companion is my cigarettes...and once buried...I can never see them again. I thought this was a brilliant way of looking at quitting smoking...once you have buried them...they can never come back...and now I am thinking the same way of gambling. Mourn the loss of our friend who found escapism in...but bury the b***h coz shes no longer your friend...shes dead!!