Hi world,
My name is Lee, 27 year old male from the UK. I have read many of your posts and must admit they have given me great inspration throughout time, I never thought I would be able to interact with others regarding my problem however now I feel I have to.
I have gambled for approximately 5 years where I would consider it to have spiralled, particularly within the past 2 years which led to the demise of my previous relationship. I have a very toxic relationship with horse racing, beginning in April 2015 at a race meet, unfortunately this is where the problem really begain to escalate. I have found myself since losing upwards of £1000 everyday on a single horse bet, including yesterday evening bringing me to finally sign up to the forums in order to confide in others who have the same experiences. My partner who I have been with for a year now is aware of my situation, only because I left myself completely broke after my payday and I hadn't cleared my bills. If this hadn't been the case I would have probably lied to her and kept my secret hidden - a blessing in disguise. My family too are aware of my problems although I am not sure they understand the extent of my misery. Credit card/payday loans and overdrafts have led me into a viscious debt cycle of approximately £17,000.
Within my social circle I am considered very outgoing and confident, deep down I am severely depressed and long for a happier life one day, with my partner who I truly adore. I have a reasonably well paid job compared to those around me however my spiralling interest charges and debts leave me with less each month.
I am determined to break this cycle, please help. Any advice or positive talk to share experiences through this harsh and lonely addiction would be greatly appreciated.
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Hello,
Firstly, a bit of a cliche but not one to get tired of: "well done."
Thank you for your post. You will know - having read some of the posts already, that honest communciation is a vital aspect of any recovery plan.
How other's perceive us is very often not how we perceive ourselves. To acknowledge your truth, in that you are deperessed, takes courage. I wonder, have you received a diagnosis from a health professional? Consider seeing your GP if you havent already; simply because you might not be depressed but just very low; still debilitating but best to know for sure.
There is so much to be gained from sharing and learning from the recovery strategies that we at GamCare can provide as well as strategies from your peers on this Forum.
If it is worth the having...it is worth the work, no recovery is easy; I think you know that. So, in time you will receive excellent feedback and support from the other members. You are no longer on your own.
Well done
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