The Very Last Day

Hi there,

this is my first forum. Tonight must be the 30th time over the last 2 years that I’ve said never again with slots. I’ve realized it must be never again for any betting whatsoever.

I really feel the pressure now. Seeing stories on here of how bad it gets, and that people need their funds taken care of for life, is not a life I want. I told those close to me a year ago about my problem and that helped me a lot, but not for long enough. I want to prove to myself I am able to do this myself and am sure that I can. 

Posting in here as a way to keep myself accountable. It’s interesting reading other people’s issues. I blocked sites on gamstop well over a year ago, but offshore online casinos are what have a hold of me. I turn 24 in 5 days, and luckily at the moment have no debt and no one really relying on me. Having said that, I have been skint since I was 18 - gambling is a big reason for this. I want a life where the last time I ever had an issue with gambling was when I was 23 - before it has the chance to harm people around me who rely on me. And at this point I think that means never gambling again. 

The next few months are looking like they will be the best months financially of my life, and if I am unable to keep a lid on gambling from then on, then I expect to be in a real spiral. This is not a scenario I can live with. 

I beg that I can do this and hope my stance is understood. Thanks