I am now two weeks on from my last gamble.
I am broke but that's fine, I feel so much better and can actually see life at the end of the tunnel. I get paid on Monday and am determined not to give one more penny to those b*****d gambling companies.
I have also been doing a fair amount of self reflecting at the moment and for the first time actually taking steps to try and understand why I gamble. I am now booking myself into the counselling offerred by Breakeven and very tempted to go GA although slightly nervous at the stigma of it and that somehow friends and others will find out. My one gripe at the moment is I am so annoyed at myself for taking this long to realise that simply telling myself that I had a problem and that I could stop would be good enough. It feel's like I have had to get to rock bottom to start my way back again.
May we all fine that happy gambling free place together 🙂
Hi SVesper,
You are taking so many good steps at present and I hope that Monday went well. It doesn´t matter when you reaslised that you wanted to change the way its going. It matters that you did and that you keep focusing on this.
We are all here for you!
Kind wishes
Gabriele
Two weeks is a great achievement. I am only on day 3, but I already feel a calmness inside which i haven't felt in ages. I am also broke (spend my months wages in 2 days) keep thinking how good you feel now, and try to remember that awful feeling of when your at your lowest. When you are payed will be the hardest. I am ok when I have no money in my account, but I struggle with my urges the most when I have just been payed. If you have anyone close you can hand over your bank card to to take control then do it, or I have opened up a basic bank account which I now have my wages payed into. Determined not to spend Augusts pay like I have done every month for the last 3 years! You can do it believe in yourself and keep reflecting on you addiction and what fuels it. Your doing great well done
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