I’m done now. Been doing this for over 10 years now and the numbers are just getting larger. Done 2k in a day and I’m unable to stop myself.
I found the girl I want to marry and spend the rest of my life with and I know I’ll end up f’ing all of that up if I don’t stop. We want to buy a house and save money together. She knows I gamble but not as much as I do.
Whenever I win it’s only temporary as I’ll never quit when I’m ahead, it’s just tokens for another day. It’s never enough. If I won 10k now I’d be back tomorrow and the next day.
It’s only when I blow it all that I get this sense of calm that I can’t do it anymore. Then the shame and guilt follows after. Eventually after a day or two I’m back ready to go at it again and this has to stop.
I know I’ll lose everything and I’m terrified at the thought of it. I’ve started doing the payday loan things and building up debt on credit cards.
The positive thing is if I stop now there’s no way I can lose anymore. There’s no point in trying to win it back now as it won’t stop u TIL I’ve done it in again. Now the next 3 weeks of work are for free effectively.
This needs to be the end of it here.
Hi I’ve just posted something similar. I feel your pain and share your emotions. Even when I’ve won money I’ve never had that feeling of joy I’ve just put it all back on and never felt okay until I’ve lost the lot then I too feel calm until I get home and total up what I’ve spent/lost. I’m worried my partner will find out I own over £40k in debt with no chance of paying it back.
Do you think you can stop gambling? I’m going to try going cold turkey as I literally don’t have any money from anywhere to even buy petrol or food so certainly can’t gamble. Do you know why you started gambling? I still can’t pinpoint the exact reason I did but I hate myself for it and now I’ve risked and lost everything.
XI think if I fill this void with a ton of positives it should definitely be easier anyway to stop. Whenever I have free time or I’m bored is when I’m most vulnerable. Once I distract myself with other things it should be better. As to the reason why I started gambling, I’m a very impulsive person in general, I get tunnel visioned into things I enjoy. I can’t seem to do anything moderately it has to be in excess. This is good when it comes to some things like playing a musical instrument or learning a game or hobby. But becomes damaging when applied to things like gambling, not even damaging, it becomes devistating. I really have to remind myself this often. And it’s a shame that I seem to need reminding every time. Nothing will ever change I’m not going to wake up and be one of those people who can do a tenner bet and walk take it or leave it. That’s not me it’s not built into my system. I’m just praying I can redeem myself and stop before I lose everything and everyone.
I feel eel slightly at peace that my parents have found out about this now as there’s no more secrets I’m keeping except from my partner. She knows my problem but not to the extent. I’m fgoing to try and see the money lost as money forgotten and work on building up again for a future. This has to be the only way.
Min terms of the blocks which sites should I visit to do this and how does it work. I need to put in place everything I can to prevent me from doing this again.
Mall the bestSo I work abroad overseas for part of the year and I woke up to messages from my parents with a picture of the payday loan overdue letter that came through the door. Something I’d tried to hide from them. I spent the whole year working last year and have nothing atall to show for it. I work onboard a cruise ship and found out I’m allowed to use the casino. So the past week I’ve been in there everyday open until close.
Hi Lewis, well done with your decision!! You just need to aim for small steps now... one day at at a time...
Online go for gamstop, not sure about international sites though - others can help I’m sure! Can you exclude yourself from the ship casino? Will they do that for you to reduce temptation? Or could you limit your access to money whilst your away?
Good luck with it all, I find browsing success stories on here really inspirational.
Thanks lil, first day was today. We were at sea all day and it took every bit of willpower to stay away. I had to stay in my cabin the whole day. I think you’re right and I’ll talk to the casino manager and ask him to not let me play. My girlfriend arrives tomorrow so will be a big help. I do need to do something about accessing my money. I’ve tried it in the past with opening a savings account but it was too easy to transfer to my debit account to withdraw. I might try and see if I can send it to a family member or my girlfriend and put limits on my withdrawal
Hi Lewis,
If you want to self-exclude from a casino or several casinos the Sense scheme is an excellent way forward:
http://www.playingsafe.org.uk/
Wishing you all the best,
Eva
Forum Admin
So I just blew 1850 in the ships casino. I’m on board until may. Started off with 50 bucks then spiralled out of control, again.
Just went and and blocked my account so I can’t play atall. The whole time I’m here. I feel slightly more at peace that I’m not going to lose any more money.
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