Hi everybody, Im 25 and I have gambled since I was 18. I have stolen, lost friends and family, lost a relationship and even a job due to gambling. This disease has destroyed my life. I am sick of the stealing, having no money to go out with my pals, or even buy new clothes. I am sick of lying to everyone that has tried to help me the past few years.I am sick of the countless paydays that i blow all my money within a few hours. I just want my life back.
I have had numerous last chances and 'attempts' to stop gambling but these havent worked mainly down to the fact at the time I didnt want to stop, it had a hold of me. I have hit many rock bottoms but now I feel this is my last real oppurtunity to stop before I end up on the streets or in jail. I have tried GA in the past but dropped out may times and feel too ashamed to go back. I have also tried counselling which I liked but stop going also as I was always drawn back in.
I dont think I could ever go through with suicide however it has always popped into my head. I need to change. I want to change. I have finally closed/self excluded every last account. I am going to try this time.
Hey Tierney63, you made good step comming here, I found these forum very useful, I've read a lot of stories here, surprise surprise many very similar to mine (how wrong was I thinking its only me)
You need to accept your losses if you dont you will always try to chase it. Whats done is done.
I've been GF now for 25 days.. and I still struggle with accepting the losses... but I know I cant give in again trying to chase them... I will get back to "normal" but not thru gambling...
You should try the same... Good luck!
Get yourself back to GA mate. Why feel ashamed? Your not the first and won't be the last to have a slip and not go back to GA. in the 10 months or so I have been at GA, I have seen countless come and then leave to never return. Don't be one of those people. I accept that GA isn't for everyone but at least give it a couple months before you make your decision on it.
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