Right I have a problem... Man it feels strange to say that...
I have not told anyone my story, it is my horrible secret, my huge weight I carry around all day every day.
For the past 2 years or so it has creeped up on me. About 5 years ago I was debt free and I got about ВЈ17k of inheritance. I had plans and I told my long term partner all about them. "Gonna spend a bit enjoying myself but keep about ВЈ10k in savings and add to it for a deposit on a property". Anyway 3 years after that it started... I found online slots. Started as most people probably; a bit here, a bit there. Soon enough I was spending all my spare cash on it, then what? Dip into my savings "I'll put it back in when I win" I would fool myself saying. Needless to say all of this was without my girlfriend knowing a thing... she did get a warning a few months in but I assured her it was under control and I had stopped. Anyway about 18 months after that and I have eaten away all my savings, have a ВЈ10k loan, ВЈ2.5k on a credit card and ВЈ200 overdrawn (that is all my debts)... it may not sound much to some in comparison to other people on here but as I sit here writing this I have no idea how I have gone from debt free with ВЈ10k in the bank to the situation I am in right now. I am ashamed and I don't know what to do, other than STOP. TODAY. NOW. I now need to find a way to get out of ВЈ12k of debt and save £10k without my partner catching on, I just can't tell her what I have done but at the same time I feel so lost, helpless and alone and I guess that is what has lead me to here... Anyway thanks for taking the time to read this. Not really sure what to do now but knowing that I'm not the only one makes it a little better.
One of the best things to do is read your own post again.
You cant tell your partner? why not? Is she not entitled to know the truth of whats going on?
You cannot beat this alone, you will need support. I would get to your neaerst GA meeting and open up to people there about what has gone on (there will be plenty of people there who will know exactly what your going through). The money you had is gone, the only way to improve is to tackle this addiction. As long as you are gambling the hole your in will only get bigger.
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