Years of Torture

You need to talk to a cbt counsellor. They are very good at sorting out sh.t that goes on inside of us. It may not help you now but if you get in touch with yourself a bit more you will start to turn things around. The fundamentals is that we can all be masters of our own emotions isf we understand how to control those emotions better.

For things to get better. You will need to make them better. For things to change you will need to change. Direction determines destination.

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Try going to the bank pal. They can put restraints on where you can use your card and set limits on what you can withdraw a day. I've put limits of £100 a day from a cashpoint and have had my card blocked for any gambling activity. I have also blocked gambling sites on my phone (although that was never my forte, roulette machines in the bookies were my game). The woman I spoke to was really friendly and helpful at the bank. I think they have to help you these days. I still cannot be trusted with cash and almost get a shudder everytime I walk past a bookmaker

Hi... Years of torture is pretty much what it is. Iv'e had 25 years of it and iv'e done it to myself !!

I tell ya what is true. When you do stop, which am sure you will... life will stop getting worse and with time and patience it will start to get better. That's the way its always been with me.

Like others have said, fill ya time with other stuff and put some practical barriers in place so when the urge does strike (which it will at some point)... it will be harder for you to act upon it.

All the best

Ive joined gamcare so I cant get on any gambling sites which is a start. Today has been a good day where I feel it's the start of sorting my life out. Like they say one day at a time. Think I'll feel alot better in a few week when I have some of the money back in my bank and I can push on and become a better person. The next 2 weeks will be hell but I just need to stay strong.