Wow 250 days! 🙂 checking in
Hadnt even realised, till I read the update...
First off, congrats to Del, awesome achievement. One we all long to aim for. Your right about time being a great healer. Continue to choose the right path my friend.
Mr B, thanks again for the update. You know I work with numbers, but even your jargon gets my mind working 🙂 Alot of effort has been put in and it shows. Great work and thanksagain.
I dont think we have had a more stable and determined army than at any other time this year and I love reading this thread recently. The support is outstanding! Well done troops.
Lastly, Sorry about your loss Wolfgang... I cant say too much that hasnt been said already. I'm sure everybody here is ready to listen should you need it, dont shut yourself away. I know from personal experiance that urges are even easier to give in too, so stay strong soldier.
Scambling
Hi all, sorry I have neglected the site - been away in Africa. I am still gamble free but realise I have kept missing my 'checking in'
Steve
Day 77 - 11 weeks so proud of myself and checking in
Sorry forgot to check in last week ! Hope it's ok
Checking in on my 17th day free from gambling. feeling positive and good to read people doing well too
Checking in on Day 101!!! Woo hoo!!!!! Mr B, a bit of a heads up that i may not be able to check in next week, or at best it will either be a late Saturday night / sunday morning check in. I will be away on holiday from tomorrow, and wont be back in the land of the living until next Saturday evening. Enjoy the start of the new premier league season people and stay strong. Remember what a t****r Ray Winston is 🙂
Checking in day 5.
The post above me made me smile so no apologies for stealing it's punchline,
Ray Winston - What a t****r!
Wolf57 Checking in on Day 71 of being gamble free and facing a gamble free future one day at a time abstaining by choice!
A big well done for Del on Tuesday for reaching one whole year of being GF ~ sorry I missed the big Tuesday call out, but hey, 1 year and 3 days is still a great shout out!
I hope everyone else is not bothered by the 1st Saturday of a new season - I'm not as I never gambled that way myself, but I hope those who march alongside Mr B et al here can stay strong and just enjoy the beautiful game without any sidetracks.
March strong and face forward knowing whatever happens, no bookie or web demon has your hard earned :)!
Kind regards, Cliff
Checking in after another gamble free week but only just! Lots of stress at work and a few pints too many and I was frantically trying to get past my blocking software luckily I didn't manage it and even luckier I'd left my phone at a friends house. Very worrying few days thought I was past this kind of crazy night - if I'd got on god only knows what would have happened. Still I didn't that's the main thing but I feel I've let everybody down for trying. Hope for a better week next week. Daz.
Checking in day 5.
The post above me made me smile so no apologies for stealing it's punchline,
Ray Winston - What a t****r!
Checking in day 33. Tough week at work as gambling has shattered my self confidence and the football has brought old urges and feelings back. I think I really need to get through a whole season clean because having bet solidly on football forbas long as I can remember I associate every week of the season with a particular bet - if I can clear a season hopefully I can put those urges to bed.
Well done to all on this journey.
Hate to do this to the numbers but posting to let you know I gambled tonight. Night out, hit casino. Ironically, had a really good night, caught up with mates, felt like a normal member of the group for the first time in a long while. Lost a bit, fell into the trap of upping stakes but stopped before spending stupid amounts of cash. Frustration is that I know the rest of the guys can gamble socially and won't give the costs of the night a second thought. I'd so love to be able to do a casino night once a month or so with no lasting dysfunctional repercussions. If I wasn't obsessive about gambling losses I would be quite content at this point but I know that there is a real danger of it starting me on the spiral of chasing and losing and getting in a real mess. So it is a little after midnight making this day one and I am restarting the count. Posting to you all tonight gives me the best chance of not doing something stupid over the weekend.
Hope we can all stay strong. Have a good weekend folks.
Hey Everyone checking in for today, though like Nocrises i have a small confession..i slipped up 3 days ago..felt alot of pressure for money and stupid me thinking maybe my luck would change i hit some online slots..spent 50 quid on three different sites(not 50 quid each just 50 quid all together) i was lucky i managed to stop before i would have deposited my whole d**n overdraft. i didnt wanna lie and say im gamble free but it was a small lesson learned and im grateful
The lessons we learn on this journey are sometimes peculiar. I'm feeling better today having gambled that I did a few weeks back having exhibited every compulsive, withdrawing aspect of my personality yet managing to abstain. I have been working on my behaviour and the way I react to the situations life throws at me. Since admitting I have a gambling problem (I do, I really do) I have been shocked and saddened by the other ways my compulsive behaviour manifests itself. I find I am looking back at other episodes such as withdrawing from family, obsessing for days over details or tasks with more regret than last night's blip.
That is not to say that abstaining from gambling is not the right course.
As much as I enjoyed last night, I admit it was a stupid thing to do. Knowing my track record with gambling there was a good chance I wouldn't have left with my friends at the end of the night, gone straight home and opened an online account, had an obsessive sleepless night and/or withdrawn completely from the family this morning. I also know that if I do not commit to day one no gambling, there is a good chance I will start to dwell on last night's losses and get back into the so familiar lose, lose cycle.
Hope you'll forgive the rambling (and the blip) but trying to get my feelings straight and don't have real life people to talk to about this stuff.
For now, feeling strong. I'll need to be as I'm heading out for a full day out at the Edinburgh festival; me and half the world dodging jugglers and unicycles. Have a great day everyone.
Check in Day 161, not allowing myself to give in, for now. Cheers all!
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