I actually HATE gambling but cant STOP

This was me, I would be awake all night just gambling away, no matter how hard I tried I just couldn't stop. Eventually I signed upto gamstop, got gamban, handed financial control to my partner and fought hard to get gamble free. I've now not gambled for 138 days and feel so much better for it.  I have savings and if something breaks or my kids need something, I'm able to get it. 

Have you considered telling your partner, its a huge weight of your shoulders once you do. 

I wish you the best in your recovery 

Stace

I also got to the point where I hated everything about gambling.  I hated the drive to the bingo club; I hated the environment; the noise; the fruit machines and the abject misery I felt when I arrived and left. But I couldn't stop going. 

I finally said "mo more" and am now 71 days gamble free. 

I found the book Overcoming Compulsive Gambling really helpful as well as support from Gordon Moody.  The evening chat room on here has also been a lifesaver and I look forward to sharing my thoughts and listening to others just like me.

I wish you the best and hope to see you in the rooms.

Hi

I was so filled with confusion when I walked in to the recovery program.

My hatred came from pains I could not heal.

It took me far to long to hand over my money and my finances yet even though it felt very strange it was a very healthy thing to do.

In time I was abale to trust my self with money and valued money more.

By giving my money to complete strangers I was in effect working for nothing.

By winming money was not going to make me feel succesful in my life.

By getting the money back I had lost would not heal my pains or reduce my fears.

By ending up losing every thing I was in effect causing my self adn others lots of pains and fears.

I could not reamin gambling free by attending one meeting per week, I needed more meetings but in doing so helped me abstain from gambling for longer periods of time.

Once our debts were paid off we started to go on holidays cheap ones first then took much better holidays.

If you had enough of causing your self lots of pains and fears theere is every chance you will find a healthy recovery.

It may seem to be hard but after some time you will not regret investing time adn effort in to your recovery.

I am so pleased that you are determined to stop, good for you.

I have wasted thousands of hours of working for nothing and had nothing to show for it but huge pains and great scarey fears.

Love healing peace and a healthy life to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

I spent 12 years living a secret life and to be honest it was painful.

I've gambled and entered recovery many times over with no success until now...Recovery has been great. Instead of looking at being gamble free for life I promise that "just for today I won't gamble". I set a reasonable timescale. 

I would recommend seeking support, I was at first very much against it but found talking therapy to discuss my addiction worked for me. I have blocking software on all my devices. 

I've been gamble free for around 10 months, got no intention of going back. Im finally crawling back out of debt! 

I wish you the best there are lots of options, it may feel like a long journey but its achievable...I never thought I'd get where I am now.