New gambling addiction

hi everyone, I know In the big scheme of things my issue is fairly minuscule compared to some other gambling issues I’ve read on here. And without trying to sound awful/selfish, reading some actually makes me feel better to an extent in knowing that other people are going through a worse than me. I’m 20 years old and probably started gambling a year ago, I’ve had some decent wins. However lately I lost my job and even though before I did it i knew it was a bad idea I some how thought gambling the remaining money would some how solve my issues. How wrong I was haha, I’m now £600 down. I’m jobless, in debt and have no income now. I don’t know what possesses me to keep putting money on because every night I argue with my self and can’t sleep because of it. I’ve convinced myself I’m done with it but I feel like I’m just saying this because I’ve got no money. It’s a constant battle with myself. The money just doesn’t feel real when I’m online with it. I really hope I stick to my word and don’t go back to it, I’ve banned myself off most sights. The biggest upset for me is that my mum and partner struggle financially and I’m supposed to be helping, instead I’m going to have to lend money off them that they hardly have, just to pay off my debts that I already had covered but was too stupid and spent it. I’m not asking for anyone to solve my problems because I know it’s down to me only at the end of the day. I guess I’m just writing this in the hope someone else might be able to relate and let off abit of steam on the subject with me.

thanks for reading guys