18TH JAN 2013 - Time to let go.

Thanks Chicago guy and csmum for your kind words. Keep up the good work both of you too.

Feb.

Hi Feb Just popping in to thank you for your kind comments on my diary. Reading your diary your positivity shines through, good luck on your journey.

Hi Feb

5 weeks.......well done x

Sorry Feb, I've just read back your past few posts properly. I have also become hypervigilant about gambling adverts/promos. I am continually getting e-mails texts about "free" gambling! From bitter experience we know that there's no such thing and it's a clever marketing strategy to get folk to spend money- Gamble free's the only way to win 🙂

Your soup recipe worked a treat! Didn't have garlic so bunged in an extra stock cube- delicious! I think I may get you do me a weekly food plan lol.

Keep up the great work- I hope the back pain resolves soon

Irene

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Good job on the 5 weeks bet free. I knew you'd do well, but you're doing fantastic now. Keep it up and stay strong.

All the best

Alex

Thanks Irene and Alex for your kind and encouraging words.

Take care both of you.

Feb.x

WEEK 6 -DAY ONE "it's another day, it's another definite "NO" (to GAMBLING)

Nice and simple for today - just how I like it!!

My back is feeling much better today which is good - the wonders of ibuprofen!!

Feb - Power walking down "The Bright Side of the Road"

Stay strong and focused everyone.

Feb.

Congratulations Feb - you seem to be as positive as ever...

Good luck for the rest of the week and enjoy your walk down the bright side of the road!

WEEK 6, DAY 36

Thanks Samorgo for your kind comments.

For the first time in my life, I had a dream about gambling last night!! Not only was it a dream about gambling but also, I was dreaming that I was playing on the slot machines!! Now as you readers will know, I have never gambled on slot machines!! The dream ended in me winning £550.00 and then my youngest brother's arm reaching over my sholder and saying "your'e not having that as you will only lose it anyway"!! I remember saying in my dream "Oh yeah I will won't I" and that was that, I left it there and then AND THEN WOKE UP - THANK GOD!!!

Now my conclusion to this is that over the past couple of weeks, I have been reading, wondering, seeing on tv, so much to do with "spins" and slot machines, so much so, that this has caused me to have such a dream. That's my take on it and I am just going to leave it at that - "SIMPLE AS" - you know me!! Have no inclination to use one anyway.

Getting back to my back.... Now I thought I was on the mend but today it's not feeling so good again. It's funny, if I am sitting or lying still, it really hurts, yet, If i'm walking around, it's ok!! Now I know I like power walking, but I do not intend to walk up and down that "Bright Side of the Road" for 24 hours!! PLEASE WORK SOON IBUPROFEN! Prety please!!!

Feb - Feeling very frustrated!!!

Hey buddy, GREAT work on 36 gamble free days!!

Keep going, we are all rooting for you!

It's so depressing looking back at all the relapses...we've all been there. And it is scary as you really do think 'will I ever quit this??' But we will..we have to. It's the only way

Have a nice Sunday, I'm hanging !! PK

Hi FEB

Thank you for your message of support.

Its strange how minds work alike, we are basically at the same stage of recovery and I can relate to alot of things you have said in your diary at around the same time. I only mentioned to my wife about whether to continue counting in gamble free days or change to weeks when you posted about that, and I have very recently had a few dreams about gambling!.

Its great that you express your true feelings in your diary that others can relate to, and I am sure its helping many of us in our persual of a gamble free life.

Have a fab day.

Hey Feb,

I was almost done with my message to you and the power went out, that was weird. Ok, Did you read my last post today on my diary? Were we at the same place last nite, lol. My therapist told me this is part of withdrawls, from the addiction. I was glad also when I woke up, I actually remember feeling guilty when I was gambling, even though it was a dream. Crazy isn't it. Well we know were getting stronger and as each day and week that goes by, we are winning in this battle against addiction. Have a great day, stay strong, you're doing great.

Chicagoguy

WEEK 6. DAY 36

DECISIONS, DECISIONS???

Well then, just thought I would share this little thought with all my Gamcare friends and readers.

I have just been on Asda George.com deciding for well over an hour, whether to purchase a pair of skinny jeans and a pair of wedges totalling £27.00 (with 10% discount)!! I find this hysterical when in the past, I have spent as much as £500. on gambling in a fraction of this time!!!

So what did I decide readers??

Well prior to my gambling days almost 3 years ago, I would have thought nothing of purchasing shoes for £100 or more (being a shoe lover that is)! After much hmmmin and arrrrrin, I have decided to purchase both and see them as my treat to myself for this week (and next)!! Blondie, I am officially going to blame you for this, as you said I must treat myself and be kind to myself Ha ha!!

Take care everyone.

Feb - soon to be STOMPING down the "Bright Side of the Road" - IN RED WEDGES!!!!

Buy em Feb, you deserve it, I think we need to treat oursleves to some things we really neglected ourselves from in the past. I also would shove lots of money into a machine, but wore an old pair of sneakers around, time for that to stop. Reward yourself, I recently bought some tires for my truck, and it really makes you feel good knowing the money your spending now is for a better cause for yourself.

Chicagoguy

Howdy Feb 🙂 Still doing good i see! Great stuff! Treating yourself to some nice things as well... Nice!

Keep it up and will chat with you soon 🙂

Thanks Chicargoguy and Stubbsy for your encouragement.

Feb.