I posted yeterday in the newbies and got a couple of nice messages .
Tried to install gamstop but couldnt be verified, then 4 hours later
blew £4100 of wages and bonus in 3 hours on last online casino i could find leaving direct debits paid and £543 left
fessed up to boss and got sent home from work
this is what i did today and it helped me - might help someone else
1)called bank - told them about gambling , adjusted payment dates, requested cash only card and i know what charges are due
joined here and manually gor form and returned it for gamstop , will scans docs in work tomorrow and send them
deleted all my debt and casino emails and left inboxpounds, it earns you poiunds but heavily promotes gambling sites
taken a break from facebook as seeing people splashing cash and having holidays depresses me - real people are more fun
used moneysavingforum and joined thir credit thing and got my credit report free so i can deal with my debt
credit score 289 so can only get better not worse!
a good friend whi i have helped with stuff turned up today as my boss had told him i was a mess and needed support
but not to let on he knows. he handed me £1000 and told me to get food, pay all this months bills and try and enjoy life better
no warnings , no conditions, no dont waste it and i know you will pay it when you can
i can breathe now so shopping list - i ran out of everything from milk to toilet roll and have one pair of bust work shoes and no socks or underwear without holes. i have been functioning and putting up a front drinking too much and no one clocked because like all gamblers you over compensate with cheeriness and excuses . i dont steal. i did that years ago like alot prob have and "borrowed money, then hid it as i would pay it back " luckily my employers accepted my illness , fired me and my dad lent it paid it and i gave him every penny back
so my current job is secure at mo as i have been here 5 years and never done that with them
cleaning caravan today and that always makes me feel better
bedding all thrown out - i have psoaris and the neglect , extra drinking, gambling and worry has made it worst and it was all covered in blood - i had become a tramp and i have been looking scruffy
so tomorrow i will rise from clean sheets, have a shave , a proper wash and go to work positive and not gamble
and try my hardest never to do it again - i was lucky this time , i didnt committ crime, no collect from police station becasue i was found andering about drunk and crying like before and i have money to stop baliffs and charges and money to look after myself
without this site i would be in a different place today and would maybe have chucked my job and moved home , a failure
Hello Tiree58
Welcome to the GamCare forum and thank you for your very honest post. It's good that you are looking after yourself again, that's a good sign.
It sounds like where you live might be quite remote - we do have online counselling via webcam so you are still able to get some ongoing support with your recovery. You can find out more at:
http://www.gamcare.org.uk/support-and-treatment/online-treatment
Keep posting and keep up with putting those blocks in place.
Best wishes
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