29 and out

Hi 29

Well done on 26 days of winning every day it certainly beats losing every day by gambling

Keep positive and strong

Suzanne x

I lied last week. I had done very well and did gamble and won a few hundred. I was too embarrased to admit it.

Then last night put a little football bet on and lost an extra 250 on the roulette.

I am very annoyed with myself but not depressed about it as I had a good run and will just get back on the horse and go again. Thankfully I don't have the desire to chase that money today.

Hi 29

Well done for admitting your blip this journey is a road to recovery being honest to yourself is such a positive to move forwArd

We cannot win because we cannot stop

Get back on the roller coaster and win today because you know better today

Stay strong

Suzanne x

Well I had done another 9 days without even thinking about playing. Went back in yesterday with 2 from somewhere I banned myself! Lost that so took 100 and did win. Not a lot, but I didn't lose money but I am worried I will lose as I don;t want to try and go back in as this is how I usually go. A good break away, win, then lose a fortune. WIll stick to this sit elike a hawk for a few days so I dno't get the urge to make my debt even more depressing!!!

Keep at it, the most important thing is that you don't give up on giving up.

Someone raised a point in your diary about a debt management plan. I done that ages ago and that helped no end as the interest was frozen.

hello mr29

I laughed when someone told me the worst thing i could do gambling is win but the more i think about it the more its true

keep going tri

1 step forward, 2 big ones back. On the brink again. Will be on later to depress myself more!

Well went a while without playing, not sure how many days and then the last couple of weeks played a lot. Won a grand, lost a grand, won 500, list a few hundred then bang lies 1500 today. Back to the cards transferring around and up to 33.5k in debt. I don't even know if I am up or down these last couple of weeks.

I have no more online accounts and am barred from most all the local towns, just a problem when I ho further a field.

I am sorted for the next 2 months, but worried after that as work has slowed right down.

Another few months of this hole I'm in to add to the debt free plan. Seems like I will be in this vicious circle my whole life.

My credit score is excellent but I think I'm going to have to lose that soon if I don't pick up because I won't be able to survive the 1800 a month bills and debt I pay. I actually thought briefly today that if it wasn't for my family I would go s**t or bust then probably just lose the will yo carry on...

Hi Dean

Thank you for posting on my diary, we haven't spoke for a while. Good to here from you.

I hadn't realised until recently you'd changed your username (I was looking for you every few days too see if you'd posted). Well done for coming back. The road to recovery isn't easy. I'd been clean for a while and then bang, something in me just made me go back.

I'm no expert mate, all I can say is if your still here, then you still want to stop, and that's the most important thing.

The only other thing I will say is;

Debt is a symptom of gambling. I know you are constantly racked with guilt for the debt your in, but it won't go away mate. Draw a scale. Start at 33.5k and go up 1k every month and on the other side go down 500. Fast forward a year and see where you are. It's not an impossible habit to kick Dean.

Dean

Fella for a compulsive gambler in action there will only ever be one winner

The bookmaker

My advice get some passport photo's and take them wherever you go,each new town go straight into the bookies and self exclude

My friend that way you will consistently win.

I have to ask would work pick up too if you had that to solely focus upon??

Fella the only person who can stop that debt growing is you

You have to want to stop gambling more than you want to gamble.

The credit score will one day go to rat sh#it if you keep going at it,that is a fact.

My wish is you stop before the house of cards come tumbling down.

Keep posting fella the penny will drop one day.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Great advice guys. Went to bed a bit positive, then bang it just hit me and I feel sick, shaking and feel horrific. How has my life got to this. I'm in a never ending pit of debt and depression!

well done on the new steps to help yourself

keep them up

keep reading great posts by duncs and others

well done tri

Analyse what you've just said.

Your depressed because your in debt. Your in debt becuase your gambling. It's staring you in the face Dean.

You will never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever win back a big amount (and keep it) to pay off your debt. It's not how our brains work i'm afraid. You will add to your debt over time, that is a certainty.

Actually felt a bit positive this morning, but end up losing more. That's under 3k in 24 hours.

Nearly wrapped my car around a lamp post, been in tears and not gone into work.

Might have to go see my parents and come clean as will lose my family and life soon....