7 months of not gambling only to return.

Hi Dave,  I've not been on much due to personal reasons. Sorry you've slipped. I've personally never been to ga meetings but know quite a few on here that do and find it so helpful. 

I hope you get back on track and find ga helpful in your recovery. Your not alone. Wishing you well. 

Stace

Well because no one has messaged or posted on the forum I will be stopping my thread from here on out. This site is not adequate to help recovering compulsive gamblers due to its interaction and notification system in which I don’t see replies from other threads I have commented on and have to check each thread individually to see if anyone has replied.

I have been going back to physical GA meetings now in which I have had more help being face to face with people rather than having the cure and gambling problem literally at my finger tips.

I hope this site spends some of the money it receives from casinos and book makers to update it so people who need long term support can actually read replies from other users and support people in desperate need. 

I have been on this site for a while and can understand it being a snake biting it’s tail scenario.

best of luck to everyone on the site and hope it improves in the future to help people.

just for today I will not gamble

David Butler 

Thank you for replying Stace.

Hi Dave,

Hope your ok, ive not been on much myself recently due to finding myself busy with every day life now I no longer gamble. 

Keep strong, keep gamble free ? 

Hope you keep on posting Dave. Admittedly, there is not much interaction on the recovery diaries but your gamcare friends do follow your recovery and send positive vibes in return.

Attending GA meetings along with its support network is well regarded by many. Respect to you for engaging with them and doing everything in your power to overcome the gambling addiction.

D... Don't let yourself be confused and intimidated by addiction.

A... Ask your higher power what needs to be done and follow your dreams with confidence and a renewed sense of hope.

V... Victory does lie ahead. Respect who you are and go forward with hand on your heart plus a longing to be free.

E... Enjoy your time on Mother Earth. It is your one appearance throughout the multi billion year life span of the universe so please stand up proud, embrace all that is good and do not let yourself be led astray by those who mean you harm.

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Dear Dave101,

Thank you for updating your diary so far. We're sorry that you're finding the forum quiet. I will pass your feedback on to GamCare management. We do hope you choose to stay with the forum but whatever you decide we wish you well with your recovery. If you feel you need immediate support at any time, please do contact us on 0808 8020 133 or by Livechat to get support from one of our advisers. We're here 24/7 for you. 

Take care

Deirdre
Forum Admin

@aum thanks for the positive vibes Aum, it’s been well over 450 days since I last gambled and today I recently went to a ga meeting. Which showed me in person the pain many people are going through and trying to avoid the insanity of gambling. I myself wonder if I am in my own sense in denial about things but the main thing is I am not chasing that win or constantly thinking of gambling.

thanks for those who posted and shared there thoughts also, I will try again and try and help people on here where I can, some times I feel I am out of my depth in terms of some people’s journeys or problems but it’s truely I pleasure to see the more experienced members share there thoughts and potential help others.

I truely have a mountain to climb in the months ahead with things I would like to keep private for now, I just hope I can do it and be the best person I can be.

dave101

Hello Dave101

It's good to have you back on the Forum and well done on your achievement of over 450 days gamble free!  

Please continue sharing your experience, strength and hope with others, which not only reminds you of how far you have come, it also gives HOPE to those still suffering! 

All the best - One Day At A Time

Amanda

Forum Admin

500 days of not gambling so far, it feels more like 500 miles in a sense. The freedom I have gained mentally has been good but I still have some major character defects and maybe some I can't change due to my bipolar disorder 

I have a lot of responsibility on my shoulders and all I can do is promise to folk I ll do my best and be the best person I can be to my little one who is due in 4 days time.

I have actually enjoyed savings for the first time in my life which has been fun having small pots for different things. I kind of wish I earned more but the reality is I am in my own financial position and I have to own it regardless if it's favourable or not in what ever perception I have when I think about it.

 This has to be key and for me to keep calm so I don't go back to gambling. I am trying my hardest to not be interested in old projects which are gambling related but a part of me hopes they do well as I would benefit. Anyways enough of that. 

Main focus is my little one and of course my partner who I haven't treated very well and I have been feeling awful not being good to her.

I guess all in all I am a bag of emotions and I just got to work things out.. try to get a better job and keep it all together and stay away from gambling and associated things 

Thanks for reading 

Dave101

"I walk the mile"

"I walk with a smile"

"The miles behind me"

"Keep me on straight type rope narrowly"

"I keep my head balanced and level"

"All I can do is but care"