a new way of thinking

Thanks everyone for the massive support really has lifted me.

Been back from the zoo about an hr and had a wonderful day it was just what i needed a good stamp round the zoo,fresh air and cleared my head.

Still abit teary but getting better.

Nows time to regroup get my head together and move forward.

A gentle evening dinner,movie,bed.Not doing anything tomorrow just lazing and have a read of some diaries gather inspiration.Ready to start a new week.

I will be strong i will be positive.

E xx

Thats the spirit.. "never give up giving up". Like you say the raw emotion passes soon enough. Onwards and upwards... S.A 🙂

hey hun.,....we're back....covered in sand after a top day out at the beach.

Sounds like the zoo went well and good to hear your spirits are on the up again.

Gentle daay tomorrow is a great idea..bed in,get all snug and get those dvd's out ..

As SA says..onwards and upwards lovely...xxx R n D xxx

Hey E

Sending you loads of support a blip is a blip and you know what your trying to achieve can be done as you have already proven that you can give up.

Don't look back and beat yourself up,pick yourself up dust yourself off and start again.

There is light at the end of the tunnel just sometimes takes us a while to get there.

Alisha x

Yo TW!!!

A brand new day, a brand new morning and still a TW..........

I quite often read these posts and silently will on the reader to take on board the supportive advice offered... But, alas this time I didn't , i'm hoping the ex is still intact and didn't find himself in the snake pit :-)......

A fine lesson learned these past few days, learn from this trigger, a slight dust down and head held high Top Elizabeth....

Arise Honoury Leeds United supporting TW, bestowed only to the chosen few.... Now HLUFCsupportingTW... ''Marching on Together'' 🙂

Onwards and upwards.............. exmugoo

Just echoing what everyone else has stated. Never give up giving up. Make sure to get every door closed on this horrid addiction. Make sure to take time out to make yourself feel good about yourself. Recovery ain't all doom and gloom!

Take care

A prezzie TW!

I like this

http://youtu.be/S9PBchR3Fj8

Dont worry be happy.... youtube it, smiley faces.......

A lal IT illiterate had tried to copy and paste from you tube!!!

Thankyou Thankyou Thankyou everyone your support is really needed atm and i have taken on board everything you have said.

Had a great nights sleep eldest looked after LO this morning so had a great lay in.

Now struggling to get motivated to do anything.

Still feel like hiding under my duvet for a month but i cant as i have responsibilities,which is good otherwise i probably would hide for a while.

I hate this period after a slip until financials are actually sorted i wont be able to relax.My shoulders are up by my ears again.

I worry about my rent as im in temporary housing and have arrears all ready and it terrifies me they wont rehouse me or even evict me,which asks the question why did you do it you muppet.

Just keep questioning myself in my head,dont worry everything will be ok,oh god what if x y z happens etc etc,what if i cant pay,i'll get through it always do etc etc gives me a headache and i cant stop it,and the obsessive sums got to try and get that under control,try not to do it in front of the kids eldest especially as he gets upset.As for him its a sign somethings wrong.Then he worries.

Enough waffling going to read some diaries.

Trying to be strong

E xx

So sorry to hear of your blip but a massive well done to you for being honest and sharing it with us all.

Dust yourself off and start again. You were just under 100 days gamble free, now this is the time to go for the magical three figures.

And don't forget to get those blocks in.

Stay very strong and very positive, together we will all get there.

GT

In the words of Auschwitz survivour Primo Levi

"if understanding is impossible,Knowledge is vital"

Dont know it just struck a chord.

E xx

absolutely with that quote as knowledge should stop history repeating again.....gonna keep that quote too as its brilliant.

Hiya hun...just back from walk with Doo and wondering if you are taking it easier today and letting those shoulders come down from your ears...know that one well...

Thank you for posting E...still trying to stop double posting as I get all excited posting back then realise its on my own diary!! DOH !

So you're missing that casual gene too E..lol...its good to know that i'm not alone there even in cyberland. ..like you ..am just working on being myself and liking that rather than forcing myself to be something i'm not...have got amazing friends both male and female so must be doing something right.

Keep swimming my cyberfriend...all here for you and sending you good thinks for this day....BIG MASSIVE HUGS...(((((((TW))))))))))xxxxxx Rach n Dot xxxxx

please keep reading my dairy i will give this cr** up

Cheers for the reply.

Great to see I am not the only one with swirlings numbers going around their brain.

Sure it will disappear in a day or to.

Take care

Dusty

Thankyou Rach and Dusty.

Finally got myself motivated today i'm still in my pjs but spent a couple of hrs reading diaries.

Then read through all the stuff the school have sent me concerning options and gcse for the eldest,had a breif discussion with number 1 son but he wasnt paying attention so shall try again later.

Had a tidy and play with number 2 son who decided i was a digger fun for him not so much for me :0)

No work tomorrow so taking it easy again then work all week oh joy.

Head still messy,sick feeling diminishing, shoulders still up by my ears they wont come down until everythings paid. Fighting the urge to chase but if i do im really in the poo so thats that for that particular urge.

Stay Strong

E xx

Elizabeth,

you know chasing is wrong,thats a good sign.

Relationship troubles are always vulnerable to a gamble (i should know).from my experience on here sometimes reading too many diaries and putting in all the efforts can be a cause ? At the end of the day you yourself can get back on the right tracks.

Rent arrears ?,tomorrow you are off,tomorrow is a new day,maybes negotiate with your landlord and come to some agreement about paying a wee bit extra each month to compensate.theres always a way out of a financial hole (again i should know,im still at the bottom of a massive one).

Think positive,youve had one slip since October,yes you feel down but you Couldve been gambling every day since then.

Chin up lassie,far more worse things have happened this planet, youve got many supporters all routing for you.

Best wishes

w.P