a new way of thinking

Thanks guys and gals,

I know your all right .

Have just spoken to my housing officer and shes said as long as i pay the main rent tomorrow which i can (just)she will give me till next friday to pay the arrears part of it,which gives me abit of breathing space.

I will get through this i know i will and can today is just one of those days where everytime i think its sorted something else comes up.

Trying to stay Strong.

E xx

Hey Elizabeth..just checking in before my meeting .

Go easy on yourself...You're sorting it out coming up the other side .....take that breathing space to actually breathe and get those shoulders down.Just re reading back on your thread. ...you know the trigger...you wrote it on your post.Promise if you ever get the build up of those feelings of anger or self loathing that you log on, bash those keys and get it all out..good bad and ugly..no one has power over you to make you feel bad about your self. Your a STW!!!(keep Strong Top Woman) (((((((E))))))))) xxxxx big hugs.

Hiya Liz

Hope your back up on your feet sending you loads of support take care .

Alisha x

Hiya Elizabeth,

Sorry to hear that you are having a tough day but look at it as a day full of reflections. You will not feel like it right now, but time really is a good healer.

Get through today and start again tomorrow. Be very strong and please keep coming on here to get all of our support.

Together, we will help you beat this.

GT

x

just popping in to say night night and here for you 24/7 lovely xxxx..(((((E))))))..unconditional ..hugs...Rach n Dotty xxx

Thankyou,Lishmac,Dotty and GT.

Taken advice and had a time out this afternoon LO had a nap eldest squirreled away in his bedroom had an hour and half peace and quiet and just sat trying to get my head in the right place.

I've been snappy and not very nice to be around which then makes me feel guilty because my two wonderful boys dont deserve to put up with it.

Well feeling slightly better now everyone was right i needed to take the time to just stop think things through and move on.Still feeling down and abit panicky but tomorrow is another day and as Del said cant go round it cant go over it so i will have to go threw it,which is what i shall do.I've fought through worse and got to the end this is just a blip not a major relapse dig deep for the inner strength i know is there and do what i do best ....fight

I deserve better and those two sweet hearts of mine definitely do.

Staying Strong

E xx

ps as soon as i can afford another phone i will get rid of smart phone.

Yo HLUFCTW, am going to bestow on you the privalige (sp) and all rights to honour your little uns the grand titles of HjLUFCs :- ( junior supporters )

Have a goodie TW

ps, made sense in my head.....:-)

Hi Elizabeth

You got it in one! Go through it but make sure you come out the other side a stronger person. Don't dwell on it just live through it. You are going to be an even better mum once you get recovery back on track and stop dwelling in the past. Today will bring it's own rewards no matter how little. Look for them and they will avail themselves to you. Take care

Thanks guys.

Rent paid so feeling a bit more relaxed now bt next then childcare.

Just had a massive row with my eldest over school work etc hes got important exams coming up and he just wont try, makes me so mad coz hes an intelligent kid and could do anythng he wants with just a bit of effort.Although my mum has just pointed out i was no different Thanks for the back up mum.:0)

Feeling a lot better today and feel my head is coming back to the right place.Had a good nights sleep last night and going to have early night to night,sleep makes things a lot clearer.

Have been reading ands diary and that really has put a few things in perspective for me.

Stay Strong

E xx

Teens eh?! You never know what will come next, just try and be prepared for the unexpected.

Yes, ands' diary really is a heartening read. I strive to be like him one day.

GT

hiya E........just back home now and snugged up...good to see your coming back up..your posts sound lighter every day and even though you had a bit of a spat with your eldest you seem to have handled it ok....

Thanks for your post hun..and yes very true...AA has served its purpose at the moment but I was heading towards it becoming a problem if I had still been with him.

At least I know where to go if it should become an issue..they say "if your drinkiing is costing you more than money..then its a problem.....

Sleep tight hun and will keep popping by...nearly the weekend xxxx ((((((TW))))))) xxxx...wuffski "

Yo TW and Good morning...

Have been on a extensive Reiki healing class these past few days. Passed with flying colours so duly repaying you and sending every best vibe I know your way.....

The fantastic future ahead of us...

T/C HLUFCTW and the 2 HjLUFC supporters...

Have a good un & out

Thankyou Rach and Exmug,

All good vibes and hugs much appreciated.

Quick pop in as i have to go to parents evening for the eldest with a miserable 3 year old so that should be fun.

Feeling alot better today the dark cloud is lifting slowly but surely.

Another pjs weekend as having to catch up with bills will be skint after payday tomorrow.

LO got a bike for his bday so will take him out and try to teach him how to ride it.Free and fun.

Stay Strong

E xx

Teaching a LO how to ride a bike is the best entertainment I can think of!

Enjoy!

GT

thanks for your post elizabeth as you say each day without gambling is a milestone and an achievement in itself

Keep Strong Denis