Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

All sounds good especially the onion marmalade - what's the difference between that and chutney.

Had a lousy week but back on track now and in a different mindset at last but finding it difficult to write in my diary or anyone else's for that matter at the moment. Not sure why and wondering if you get times like that.

xxx

Hi Duncan,

Glad you're still enjoying the darts....looks like the kid gave Phil Taylor a 'power' cut!

Bad joke I know.

Anyhow, glad you still know what you need to be doing in order to stay on the right path, and I tend to agree with you that for me personally, a simple sports bet isn't just that. It is the first step along the slippery slope, and for me, that is always how I start. Over several Christmases I've been following the Boxing Day ties with interest, and looking forward to the third round of the FA Cup in January.

Hope you have a great Christmas (Canada sounds nice to me too!)

All the best

Ryan

Hey Duncs ..

I also know what you mean about being vigilant and keeping rational , it's a delicate balance but can be done with routine.

Not sure I can watch Darts other than "look at what you cudda won" ..Bully Bullseye... "iiiiiiiiiiin one "

But I am a bit of a flukey player.

Can't believe how much weight Eric lost? ...typical woman statement .lol

Off to grab some onion Marmalade now to go with my cheese and crackers..:-))) xxx

Morning diary.

Thanks for the kind words all, df marmalade is a much more concentrated mix, lots of balsamic, sugar red wine and port all reduced right down. Delicious! Lol yes with cheese rach! ! And yes i stowed a jar away for just that. Chefs perks! And as for the not wanting to post df i do find it difficult to sometimes, my advice keep posting on your own, for me it helps massively. To gift the forum twenty minutes a day for the reward of abstinence, something you cant put a price on.

Up early this morning, my the wind is still howling and my toes still tapping from last night. I was taken out for the evening by my joe, we saw 'chas and dave' absolutely fantastic! They still entertain a crowd, everyone on their feet, it was called the xmas knees up and it certainly was. Great to enjoy a couple of beers with joe too, and a great chat, i am truly proud of him, at 19 he carries a very mature outlook, to which i am very proud.

So i will catch up with last nights darts this morning before starting to prepare lunch for the outlaws lol. Hopefully the rain will stop long enough to drop off the marmalade too!

No gambling for me today, why would i?

My name is duncs i am a compulsive gambler no bet today. Stepping forward never back.

This morning with ' more rabbit than sains#burys' lol.

Morning diary.

Thanks for the kind words all, df marmalade is a much more concentrated mix, lots of balsamic, sugar red wine and port all reduced right down. Delicious! Lol yes with cheese rach! ! And yes i stowed a jar away for just that. Chefs perks! And as for the not wanting to post df i do find it difficult to sometimes, my advice keep posting on your own, for me it helps massively. To gift the forum twenty minutes a day for the reward of abstinence, something you cant put a price on.

Up early this morning, my the wind is still howling and my toes still tapping from last night. I was taken out for the evening by my joe, we saw 'chas and dave' absolutely fantastic! They still entertain a crowd, everyone on their feet, it was called the xmas knees up and it certainly was. Great to enjoy a couple of beers with joe too, and a great chat, i am truly proud of him, at 19 he carries a very mature outlook, to which i am very proud.

So i will catch up with last nights darts this morning before starting to prepare lunch for the outlaws lol. Hopefully the rain will stop long enough to drop off the marmalade too!

No gambling for me today, why would i?

My name is duncs i am a compulsive gambler no bet today. Stepping forward never back.

This morning with ' more rabbit than sains#burys' lol.

Hi Dunc's... it was pouring down here to when I went out for a run. I got soaked and blown off my feet lol... loved it!

Like you I cannot bet on anything however small or insignificant it may seem. Once the first bet is done my gambling cogs start turning and it makes it easier to have another bet.. and so the slippery slope to personal misery starts again. The only solution for me is not to place that first bet.

I might sound like a talking G.A leaflet but that has been my lived experience.. so I accept the G.A wisdom as fact.

I shall be going Somerset as well... must practice by Somerset twang.. I sound more home counties in reality lol All the best mate... S.A 🙂

Hiya Duncan

Hope you and your family have a great xmas and another fantastic year ahead, thanks for all your support this year

Castle2

Hi Duncs,

As always lovely to read your positive posts 🙂

Wishing you a very Merry Xmas and sure you will spend it with the people who matters the most 🙂

You had huge inpact on my recovery and i am very happy to have a chace to share my journey with you. Thank you for all the advice and support i received.

Be proud my friend!! Let Xmas spirit stay with you for the whole next year!! Magic which you and ur loved ones deserve 🙂

Sandra x

Duncs have. A great Christmas and all the best for 2014 x

Morning diary

So we made it to somerset, the wind really was blowing a hooligan all night, Mum has lost her summer house roof in the process!!! I think we may be using our combined muscle to help put it right!!

So today we are off to a carol service, weather permitting, this is a carol service in a pub!!

I believe the results of the pastor saying ' if I cant beat you then I will join you' a captive audience lol.

Been thinking a great deal about the folk who are in far less favourable positions than me this morning, those homeless, familyless folk who will spend another day surviving rather than celebrating.

I find it humbling and a sobering fact there are so many, for me a reason to celebrate what I have even more so. We can all find fault in everything, but I believe if we look had enough there is always good too, and that will for me always outweight the bad.

So I will enjoy the celebration of being together with my lovely family and the love they unconditionally give.

I hope you all get to enjoy a gamble free xmas and the benefits it gifts.

Abstinence the gift that keeps giving.

My name is Duncan I am a compulsive gambler No bet today stepping forward never back.

Cheers Duncan for your words of wisdom. I hope you and your family have a lovely Christmas in Somerset, along with a great new year.

All the best

Steve

morning diary

It's christmas!!!!!

a very merry xmas to anyone who reads this thread, I have had a fantastic year so far, ok I f****d up for three hours on the 31/10/2013 I gave into my addiction, for the want of a few hundred quid I went back at it, the usual outcome, the fobt taunted me, never gave me the win to leave me satisfied,it took and I kept giving until my funds ran dry. That was my life for so long, for twenty years in fact, I set out to gift myself a modest win and left with nothing. On those rare occasions when I did win, the winnings only fueled bigger gambling dreams and the losses grew.

Truth is it was never the money, it was trying to buy myself a life I let my addiction was to be found at the end of a bet, So 21 months into recovery why did I gift my recovery back to my addiction for those few hours, the results were always going to be the same??

A cry for help?? Did I believe gambling owed me something?? worst of all did I let myself believe I was cured??

Truth is it was a combination of all of those things, and from it I have learnt a great deal, I have to give recovery my all every day, for the rest of my life the most important thing in my life is making a choice to face up to my addiction and through the knowledge I have Say NO BET TODAY

without this my life is hollow, the words I say carry no conviction, my drive to live leaves me, I have no desire.

With the choice to face my addiction I am blessed with all those things and more.

I want to live, learn something new each day and better myself in every way.

I have a great deal to be thankful for and a lot of folk who I owe a great debt of gratitude to.

I share this journey warts and all with the one person whom means the world to me my Sarah, without her life would have no purpose, the sh#it I have put her through is the stuff you would only dream of putting your arch enemies through, let alone your wife.

So today I plan on cooking my heart out to produce a very memorable meal on a special day in which I will be blessed to have some magical company.

My wife, my kids and My Ma and Ed today you will never know the pride I hold in having you in my corner.

To all my fellow gamcarers I salute you all, each day we do have a choice to make, I hope yours comes through the want to LIVE too.

My name is Duncan I am a compulsive gambler No bet today, stepping forward never back.

Merry Christmas Dunc. Take care and have a wonderful day. I too will be spending it with my lovely family - we are both lucky!!

Feb.

Merry Xmas Duncs!!! Great post, and i wish you to have amazing day with your loved ones. you keep giving and should be proud 🙂

Sandra x

Hope the Christmas dinner was one to remember - were you going for a full turkey with trimmings or an alternative Christmas dinner? We took the bold step of swapping a Christmas pud for sticky toffee puddings this year, definitely a good choice in my view.

Good luck with the summer house roof.

Ryan