Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

duncan

absolutely fantastic post.

everytime i feel the urge to bet i read your posts. they make.so much sense. i thankyou for it. this is my 6th day without a bet now. at work today again. earning real money to spend on the things we need as a family. not in the bookies. have a good day

bring on the rest of our lives

Gazza

Morning diary

well thirteen minutes until I leave for work,another long day in the offing,bring it on!!

so the world cup is just around the corner,my Joe bought a football magazine yesterday which i will read up on over the next few days,read up on my second team the mighty Honduros are fixed up to do lol !!

And the world cup of darts to enjoy next week too.

Sport today offers me the gift of unconditional enjoyment

Something gambling robbed me of for too many years.

A quick read around the forum today offered my resolve to keep making the right choice in life in all I do.

Sad to see Stu back after more loss,I hope he finds a new 'buzz' through recovery rather than the short lived at best buzz gambling offers then the beating it finishes with financially and emotionally.

Milkman raised the biggest smile,recovery has made many folk quite frugle,watching those pennies,rather than throwing away the pounds.

Gifting the ability to use every penny to it's best purpose,I love nothing more than a bargain today,beats robbing dinner any day of the week.

Gambling,my compulsion led me down a path where I would steal food to feed my family,not something to be proud of,it brought great shame,as an active gambler I lived under a f*****g big cloud of shame.

That is what it offers

Delusion

The random act you have no control over the outcome of

In short a waste of time(thanks robbybox)

recovery gifts my mind,soul,bank account and cost's

f**k all!!!!!!!!

My name is Duncs I am a compulsive gambler No bet today

Stepping forward never back

Hi Duncs

Just want you to know I read your posts every day and what an inspiration you have been to me the more I read from your posts the more determined I am and I am understanding your posts more each day

Which is very positive for me

Thank you

Suzanne x

Hi i failed really bad came back here to be honest with many people. Day one

hi duncs,

just popping by for a quick read as your posts are always so positive. Hope you sarah and your family are all well

shellyb

Hi Duncan,

Glad to read you are still doing well, and I can safely say that I can now start to share your enjoyment of sport for the sake of it. Historically, I'd have watched the Froch v Groves fight on an illegal online stream, telling myself that I couldn't afford the PPV while pumping hundreds into a gambling session just a few minutes later.

I actually think that recovery has gifted me the opportunity to not be so frugal anymore. I'm not right on the breadline, and a few quid that would have been lost in around 45 seconds online bought me a great night's viewing with a mate, watching one of my favourite sports. That's a winner in my book, even more than if I'd have picked the winner and put a fiver on it.

Glad you had a nice weekend, though working on a Sunday was tough for me with a bit of a rough head.

Hope the week's started off well,

Ryan

Evening diary

thanks for all the kind words,they really do truly humble me,the gift of recovery never ceases to amaze me,the empowerment it gifts the person who want's a better life.

Yes there is sh##it to deal with,there always was,always will be,but not running to a bet to fix or hide from them is a great way to start any day.

I am a compulsive gambler,I always will be,that is something I need to remind myself,the other option to kick that fact under the carpet is simply not an option.

I gifted the sh#it I reaped from gambling to that treatment for twenty years,lifted the carpet and sweeping the bad under it,editing what I thought was the good gambling gifting and living off it.

Today I see that elephant in the room,it is all boll##ocks there is simply no good from a punt,the buzz?? what f*****g buzz!!

The excitement?? what f*****g excitement!!

The act of gambling is for me the compulsive gambler purely something which is selfish,self centered and at best foolish,at worst and without doubt destructive and not just to me but many others.

Again today I read Shelly b's thread and it sobered my thoughts,instilled more power into the word 'RECOVERY'

For that I thank you shelly b

You are the very reason a compulsive gambler should not place a bet,because you are one of to many faceless victims.

You are the reason why gambling cannot and will not be tollerated,glamourized or accepted in my life.

Gambling for the compulsive gambler

A WASTE OF TIME

Today the choice came easy on the back of reading such a thread

My name is Duncan I am a compulsive gambler no bet today

Stepping forward never back

Hi Duncs,

Thanks for your very kind words on my thread. And, thanks again for your unconditional support over the last couple of years. It means the world to me especially on those darker days. I believe P and I are slowly getting there. And, where exactly is this "There"? That place you speak of so eloquently on your thread -- the land of Sober Living. You are absolutely right that in choosing Recovery one chooses Life. If there was one thing that Ed's passing taught me it was: there is no bottom so, don't wait for it. Grab hold of the rope today. Keep spreading those good... good... good.. good vibrations Duncs! -joanxxx

Morning diary

well up with the larks today off to work shortly,a very long day in the offing,my resolve to do the best I can tested over the past few days,my brain working well my body all out of sorts, I have felt kind of disjointed,like something is a miss,went to see my GP yesterday before work,my blood pressure is off the chart again,more blood tests tomorrow and back to see the doctor again,happy days, he said I am like a kettle that got filled up and switched on,it boils and doesn't turn off!! just boils dry.

So I will make sure I top it up with water and march on.

Our daughter bless her is going through her a levels with the agony that is wisdom teeth cutting through,bless she has been rocking back and forth in her bed all night,I even fed her some of my pain killers,still she is off to the dentist at 11 this morning,hopefully he will abate the pain some how.

I would take all that pain if I could,I hate the feeling of helplessness that is brought on when your kids are ill.

Still like me she has sort help,that is the answer to many things is it not??

Funny I have gambled with so many things in life,tried to shoulder all life's woes along the way myself,thinking that I was protecting those I profess to love,when in fact to take help,share the sh##it alongside the good is all part of living life.

Always in life I today can find a positive result,no problem cannot be beaten.

f**k I was beaten up badly for twenty years,sad irony is I dished out that beating to myself

All in the belief that a random outcome of the for me futile act of a punt would gift me something other than misery.

Today I see it for the Elephant in the room it is,today I again am buoyed by fact my brain today has been gifted the knowledge that

GAMBLING IS A WASTE OF TIME

Which raises a huge smile,whilst I high five LIFE.

the result of arresting the punt

Above all else,no matter how battered I feel,however big the storm I currently am riding through,it won't be made worse by the selfish act that holds the same shi##t filled result,today I will not wage a single penny on any form of gambling.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

second positive post ive read today, and feeling good for it

Morning diary

Well took a half day yesterday,I was worn out from my recent efforts at work.

I need to remember to put my needs in the melting pot too.

so today I will keep it simple.

Today is my 12th wedding anniversary,we have been together for twenty two years this year,but today is a special day,a day 12 years ago I did not gamble upon.

Sarah did I know,I hope that bet is paying off today.

My Sarah I love you with all my heart.

I salute the fallen soldiers who 70 years ago today gave there lives to make this possible.

Today I will not be wasting a single penny in any form of a punt.

Or the time it would take either.

My name is Duncs I am a compulsive gambler No bet today stepping forward never back

Wishing both you and Sarah a very happy wedding anniversary

May you both have many more years of happiness and honesty together

With love

Shelly

I wish you all the best and what an inspiration you are to me. You have posted a few times in my diary and thank you for the posts i read them and try to adapt and adopt everything you say.

Great on you on the anniversary may you have 100 more.

CasinoRoyaloser

Hi Dunc,

Congratulations to you and Sarah.

cheers,

gazza

DMac,

Quick flyby just to say hello and keep up the good work. You are a real ambassador for the forum and give so much in return. The people who receive your support appreciate it greatly.

Keep up the good work and good luck to your daughter with he upcoming exams.

Tomso.