Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

afternoon diary.

Well just spent the afternoon putting together the autumn menu a time of year I love, the food suits my style of cooking more robust dishes and move over peashoots bring on the roots and hrs in a slow oven!!!

Today also I would have without doubt before been sat next to the radio or tv wishing todays accumulator to come in, why?? for tomorrows stake at best, at worst to try and cover up yet more damage caused by the cycle of life for a compulsive gambler at it!!

Today I will watch match of the day later, enjoy it for the sport it is, probally laugh at it were before I would blame all else except me!!

No more if only, no more angst about todays results or any other days.

the serenity this brings outways any stake I ever won and for today just for today the only steak I will worry about is the fillet steak for the new menu with its foraged mushrooms and home smoked mussels!!!!!!

duncs compulsive gambler NO BET TODAY

stepping forward never back.

Hi Duncs, thanks for continuing to share your diary and thoughts; yours, and other's diaries, are the reason I believe I can beat this. Have a good one.

Evening diary.

Just on my way home after another successful days work why ???? Because today I made a choice, to enjoy another gamble free day, cooking, football on the radio for the team to enjoy and all because today, my life counted more than a coupon which used to dominate my day, the outcome tomorrow I will have slept well, no nightmare, the cycle broken tomorrow will be another day to enjoy warts and all.a , choice brought on for making the choice today no bet, just for today.

And boy it feels good!!!!!

Duncs stepping forward never back, come rain or shine.

Dunc.

Wise words again my friend.

We must "break the cycle" for the recovery to work.

Thanks again for your posts.

Enjoy what is left of the weekend.

gazza

Morning diary.

No post yesterday as busy at work and then home to sort supper as sarah is still struggling with the back. On route to work (if you are reading my beautiful wife please today follow the program stretch!!!!!!! ) going via my butcher to return the beef I had for yesterday nearly £400 and awful !! Size 9 coming your way!!!!!! Then today and lunch tomorrow then 4 days of!!!!! Look out the great dorset steam fair here we come, joe and I (hovis staying home) won't be beaten by the weather loads of shorts and t-shirts packed, cider and wellies lol , going to enjoy every minute and two nights of real ale and dr buskers steam fair chior " it's f*****g raining I want to home home home" and my personal favourite "more beer" not to be missed.so today I will give work my all "abstain and maintain" for me, smiler I doff my cap to you my friend.in your lights trail I step.

Duncs compulsive gambler NO BET today.

Stepping forward never back.

Duncan,

Sounds like quite some plan! Hopefully you will enjoy every moment of it( maybe not the sore heads! 🙂 )

Have a great one

Steay strong

Steve

Yo,

Just a quickly , to say if you were doing an inventory of your recovery it would go something like this .........

It appeares that you are going full steam head , staying on track,doing a first class job , and that seams to be just the ticket for you and yours !

Hope I made you chuckle , today I doff my cap right back at ya .

Enjoy !

Shiny xxxxxxx

Hi Dunc,

Good to see you doing so well and enjoying recovery. Have a fab time this week, weather don't look too bad after today and don't be too harsh on that butcher!!! Speak soon mate and thanks for your support 🙂

Just wanna say Duncs......Enjoy your days off now.....If anyone deserves some chill time you do!

On another note...bet you kicked that butchers ar** right into touch!

Suex

Evening diary.

Just waiting for a bus with my eldest, to see an old man weathered by life going through the bins to find food, heckled by some youths, they would have more respect for a fox, me I did not gamble today so I gave him money for whatever will get him by, so did joe, walking back to the bus stop a youth said how much did you give him , my reply "I would have give the fella my wallet if I thought it would make a difference, that could have been me " I am not here to judge, I wish the old fella peace, nothing more.

Duncs stepping forward humbled never back.

My son he said if he could give one thing to life it would be to end homelessness.

Hi Duncan,

That was a really nice post 2 read, I like reading ur diary it is full of positivity. U r a real inspiration 🙂

Have a gr8 day 🙂

Dunc,

Well done.

Respect.

gazza

hey Dunc....

Hope you are out and about now and enjoying the steamers..minus birthday wuff 4 legs....tipping it down here off and on so Hovis best with Sarah...

Glad to give you a chuckle about my new living status...it is pretty funny ...and I do play up to the character..

My mum passed away prior to days of "Hyacinth" but she would have been called Hyacinth today (but she looked and acted like Noel Gordon from Crossroads

....when I was a kid she would be so embarrassed that my brother hadn't mown his front garden and it was about 6 foot high with weeds that she would drive past his house and walk back so no one would see her car outside...!!

As her daughter..I think I may have absorbed some Margot and Hyacinth type traits...but I definately did break the mould...and I do have a laugh at myself..

what more can I say Dunc except to echo your previous postee......RESPECT!

R and D xxx

Hi Dunc,

Thanks for your message. Great to read that you are continuing to do so well in your recovery.

Stay strong.

Best wishes

Dave

Evening diary.

Well heading to salisbury to meet my joe then off to the great dorset steam fair, joe went to bristol today to record some of his poetry for a piece on recorded word, he phoned to say he has news when we meet, I will report later, today for me could not bring more change, I ordered joe a mac laptop as reward for his a levels and lily got ablackberry for her gcse results all out of my bonus for the last 6 weeks profit margins at work, me I have a few pink notes in my wallet to enjoy the fair left from it. the bills are getting paid, sarah smiles alot and all seems well.a year ago today I went missing guess were ?? Bookies trying to fund the fair ended up going on a shoe string, bill money done!!! Today I went to the shop on route to my train, scratchcards no thanx, liquid refreshments yes please lol.

The next few days I plan on enjoying the fair for all it has only thing missing apart from my hovis (one today!!!!) Is my sarah but the steam fair, boys toys, cider no ice no fizz and the camping really!!! No chance lol, but this was a .goal I set and made, next a break just us and all the pampering she can get !!!!!!!

Just for today I made a choice to take my addiction, Abstain and maintain (smiler thanx) tomorrow through a cider, rain bound haze is sure to benefit!!!!

Thanks for all your support keep on keeping on

Duncs compulsive gambler NO BET today

(note to self check out the vintage caravans for hire maybe there is a way my pulse, my love my life xxx)