Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

Evening diary

just entertained the outlaws for our xmas celebrations with them,made a few curries and had a more than pleasant evening.

Day off tomorrow and going to hit the sales!!!

340 days into recovery 25days from a year gamble free and what better reward could a fella have, money in the pot and the thoughts of treating my loved ones rather than stood hunched over the fobt telling myself the next spins the one,then regardless of the outcome, go on just one more.

Until the walk of shame.

Well not for me.

No bet today and although the rain falls

Duncs forecast looks bright.

Just for today

stepping forward never back

Duncan thanks for the kind words on my thread. You are truly inspirational. I'm sure your words have encouraged and motivated many many people on this site.

I just started a new thread asking for some music suggestions that motivate people or help them stay grounded. If you have time and have ever been moved by a song since giving up gambling maybe you can find the time to post it on the thread for others to be inspired. Thanks again. I will cheer you all the way to your 1 year gamble free day. So happy for you.

G

Loving your punchline - stepping forward never back.

My next project is to create my own mantra for 2013.

xxx

Hi Dunc... doing might fine my friend... excellent work! No more walks of shame eh. Stepping forward never back.. warm regards.. S.A 🙂

Hi Duncan,

Thank u 4 ur continued support 🙂

Ur posts r gr8 2 read... U have done brilliant and u r also an inspiration 2 a lot of ppl here!

U give me hope, thank u 🙂

Have a gr8 nite xx

Hi duncs,

Fantastic poem what a talented son you have you and Sarah must be so proud. Thank you for your posts duncs I have always followed your diary from the day I joined this site your posts always make me feel so inspired and motivated to keep going. I take such pride in walking alongside you all in this recovery road that we tread. I look forward to a continued journey in 2013". Thank you from the bottom of my Herat for everything . Have a great new year to you and yours . Blondie x

Evening diary

great day off. We got the kids a little something, our Joe topped up his wardrobe for a song, well a few shifts on the pots lol"!he did me proud over the last few weeks. Not only a great poet, a grafter to boot.

Sarah found a few bits and it was a joy to be there.

We grabbed a bite of lunch and smiles all round.

No gambling, my abstinence granted this opportunity.

Something i take with both hands.

Thanks again for all the support.

Tomorrow my last days work,then five days off.

I am going away with my beloved for a few days.

Just the two of us.

Will catch up with everyone shortly.

Duncs 24 days till the year gamble free.

Stepping forward never back

Duncs, what can I say... you are sounding terrific. Off with your lovely partner for a few days sounds sooo perfect. YOU deserve to be happy Duncan. I am smiling from ear to ear as I write.. 😀 -joan

Evening diary

23 days until my first year gamble free.

Today worked hard as lost a man to the sick bug.

All done now till the end of next week.

Going to enjoy every minute of it.

All packed to leave, on the train in the morning.

Tonight i will enjoy the darts semi finals with my eldest Joe and a few pints of the black stuff.

The results unimportant.

The pleasure immense.i love darts !!!!!!

No bet today. Why would i,i am a recovering compulsive gambler.

I am one bet away from destruction. I always will be.

Today i won't be destructing anything.

The odds s**t !!!!!!

I did win because i Did stop.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hi Duncan,

Thank u 4 ur continued support on my diary. It means a lot 🙂

Ur last post was another gr8 post 2 read , enjoy ur nite and ur time of work it is soooo deserved 🙂

U r doing brilliant , thanks 4 being an inspiration 🙂

Take care 🙂

22 days until a year gamble free is an amazing achievement. Really impressed! Well done!

Hopefully in the future ou will be saying "22 days until 5 years gamble free"

Fingers crossed

Morning diary.

Today i feel robbed, like the life got knocked out of me.

Why??because a day that should be one of celebrations a day where we unite as one family and enjoy what we are here for recovery!!!

Today shiny should be able to post a proud post about where this journey has taken her, to harmony!! Instead she walks away with a bitter taste.

I give this forum my full efforts to which should help my recovery and hopefully show folk my lights guide.

Instead today i feel angry and sad.

These feelings are not good for a compulsive gambler,in the wrong frame of mind the addiction kicks in.

Go on f**k em !! Its going to hell in a hand cart you May swell live those gambling dreams!!!!

For me i stand strong, i ride a train with my beloved wife who hates to see me saddened,angry.

My words today are simple

we all make waves in life some cause huge destructive ones ,others lap at your feet, they sooth and don't destruct.

I know after many years of causing giant waves the ones i crave to make.for me we should all look to do the same.

I would have loved to have received a post from shiny in 22days as she has been such a huge part of my recovery,Today i feel sad for that.

I would like to wish you all a good happy and measured 2013.

A bitter pill to swallow today.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

My diary is a 100% warts and all journal of my recovery.

That I won't concede to anyone.

Sir,

Thank you for the poem.........I smiled when I read it and felt a rush of emotion........I think you are right to be so proud of your family Duncs!

I hope you and Sarah have a lovely time together.......If any couple deserved it you two do.

Thank you for giving me the strength to fight this addiction!

Happy new year to all your family.

Sue xxxxx

not sure why shinys off the forum but guessing its on account of me...not being able to sort my s**t out in double quick time....sorry you feel this way too duncs...am also going so you chaps can recover in peace x

To the people that post irresponsibly.

Do you see what happened when you posted irresponsible immature rants upon this forum.

You create tidal waves!!!!

In doing so you achieve nothing accept destruction.

People need help and support not this s**t!!!!!

Be proud today collectively you caused destruction.

Duncs stepping forward never back.