Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

Duncs ... positively inspiring 🙂

Hi Duncs,

Just to say thank you my friend as always I know you have my back.

Im off to the doctors tomorrow to see what he thinks it may be, see what happens.

Thanks again duncs.

Blondie x

Evening diary.

Just on route home, as i have attended a GA meeting about ten miles from home. Why??

Because just for today i wanted to give something back.

Unlike my GA this meeting took on a somewhat spiritual approach.

It was good to share my thoughts with some like minded people. Something i enjoy and take great heart from.

Also good to be able to spread the gamcare message, to which one fella gave some good feedback.

So a good night had.

Keep up the great work one and all.

No bet today no time for it.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Wow Mr Duncs this is such hard work. Feels like ten rounds with Tyson every day and then can't sleep. I guess it's the poison escaping from my system a la detox.

Just highlights for me what a brill job you are doing maintaining for so long and the importance of your diary in motivating me to continue. It will get better I know but for now grateful for the ongoing support.

A bit serious but its been a tough day.

xxx

Evening diary

just got in from an eleven hrs day, a day where i was on auto pilot. A day to reflect on my ga meeting last night. A night where i felt comfortable walking into the room. A far cry from the night 54 weeks ago a broken man. My life has changed immeasurably, today i feel i can face anything life throws my way. Why?? Because i am not running the wrong way from life. Had a good chat today with a lad who works on the potwash, tonight he is off to the casino to celebrate a friends 18th birthday a place which seems popular with the young folk i work with, i explained freely about my addiction and he could not believe that gambling had been so damaging to a large part of my life. He did say most families are the victims of one addiction and the results are always so destructive. He said i should be proud of my achievement and he had learned that gambling can be a dangerous thing in the wrong hands.

That today is the key to my thinking. Gambling Will always exist for many it Will be a thing of pleasure, they Will risk what they can afford and enjoy it.

For me i fully understand that i am not one of those folk.

Me i am a compulsive gambler and gambling beat me, took all i am prepared to stake.

I Will not flip a coin to see who buys the first round, or a cup of tea, i Will just be happy to buy that first round or the teas.

It is simple. I did win because i did stop.

I take so much from the room at ga and for that i Will never forget. I am truthfully one bet away from destruction.

But just for today i Will make a choice.

My name is Duncan i am a compulsive gambler No bet today. No odds to tempt me.

Stepping forward never back.

Duncs you have inspirational words in abundance. I can soooo relate to that post.

G

Thanks for the wise words duncs,its good to read your uplifting posts,i wana be were you are at,hopefully i can get there,a day at a time.thanks again.

Is it a year since you've been posting? Blimey, that went quickly! Sorry I missed it. Well done !

Thanks all.

Yes milkman it has been a year, blink and you missed it.

Fella i like you am one day, one bet from destruction.

Evening diary.

Day off today i had a nice relaxed day, got up late but then so did Sarah lol, our callum woke her after his paper round. A good nights sleep. Another result of abstinence. No waking up through the night, formulating,freting or living through another nightmare delivered through my gambling.

So i topped up my resolve here then walked the dogs,well i walked they hunted rabbit, i can't wait till they actually find one, i believe they Will run away!!! Lol.

Then home, breakfast for the hounds and eggy bread for me and an episode of heartbeat. So glad we don't live there lol!!

I like the music the most.

Then popped out to grab the veggies to accompany tonights roast chook.

I thought as i meandered up and down dale this morning, whilst at it i missed all this. All to chase what?? A pipe dream, the debts of those pipedreams !!

So a good days rest, ready for the weekend.

Bring it on!!

Oh and nice to have a dry day off, no rain!!!

For that i thankyou.

Rumour has it snow may re appear!!!

Please no!!

Duncs stepping forward never back

No Bet today.

Hiya Duncs am just parachuting in to your diary to thank you for your recent support. You make a great deal of sense in what you have to say, so much so that ive got absolutely nothing to add. Keep up the excellent work that man! .. regards... S.A 🙂

Evening diary.

Wound in a great days graft, all set for the weekend,just waiting for supper, curry tonight, and a night on the couch well if the dogs give up any of it! Lol.

Had a great chat with my eldest regarding gambling tonight, he enjoys a 50p accumulater on Saturdays football, which i condone wholeheartedly. He shows no signs of the compulsion to gamble, so i advocate his enjoying a bet. It doesn't evoke any thoughts of chasing any pipedreams for me. Why would it??

My name is Duncan i am a compulsive gambler. No Bet today.

I am relaxed and enjoying the harmony i strive for, the rewards of believe of prolonged abstinence.

Just for today i choose to continue my streak.

I did win because i did stop.

Stepping forward never back.

Hi Duncs

That sounds like a fantastic plan for your evening off........enjoy!

Take care

Irene

x

Hi Dunc

It's great to read how well you are doing. Have a great gamble free evening and weekend.

....and don't be having any rabbit stew anytime soon or we'll know your dogs are braver (and maybe faster) than what you give them credit for....!!!

Speak soon

LA

Glad to hear all is well with you, family and doggies.

Don't know about rabbit curry, think I might need a duck curry recipe. It is spring and the ducks are obviously feeling 'springlike' as they have been chasing each other round and round my boat all day making the most awful racket. If they carry on into the night as last night I might be tempted to get in touch with farmer Giles and his shotgun.

Just joking, have been soo grumpy today, roll on tomorrow. Might even treat myself to a curry.

xxx

Evening diary.

Well today sees an influx of new diaries. A sad thing in many ways but a greater thing in more ways.

Why??

Because more folk who are blighted by an addiction,a silent lonely existence, an all consuming waste of life has led more folk to search for there lights guide.

To abstain from this addiction does offer us the compulsive gambler a way to live a better life.

One day at a time our lives will without doubt improve.

Ok the sh#t will still be there, but without doubt gamble free we all afford ourselves an opportunity to face them, to lift our heads from the sand. Not worsen our troubles and the troubles of those around us, chasing pipedreams.

Today i cooked my heart out, made a dining room glow.

Why??

Because today i focus upon life, the here and now.

No it won't be bettered by taking a punt, no matter how tempting the odds.

Me, like all compulsive gamblers today just for today bettered my tomorrow.

By my blocks, my resolve and my zest for life i made a choice .

No bet today.

Its there take it, better your tomorrow, I did.

Duncs stepping forward never back.