Better to Ramble than Gamble.

Hi Martin and thanks for your earlier post , it means a lot my friend ! Day 24 for you sir I believe ? Big well done on that buddy and have a great day !. Regards Alan

DAY 30

another little milestone reached 30 days. It strange I'll be reading something and think I fancy them or over 2.5 goals in that game or be watching a game and big Ray Winstone pops up trying to tempt me but I have no urge to act on these feelings so I suppose that's a good thing.

30 days in and I'm missing the day to day things with my son more and more I think a lot to do with that is last week I don't get to see him as much due to the shifts my ex works next week I get him every night and looking forward to see him tomorrow at some point.

well it's a big sporting weekend normally I'd be having a bet on the big derby but not this year I will be able to enjoy the Mighty Oldham v low life Rochdale for the game and enjoyment it was invented for.

Onto the next milestone 31 days tomorrow without a bet

well done on reaching 30 days, it is a big milestone, if you are feeling good now - wait until you get to 50, 90 days you will really notice a difference and be able to reflect upon the journey you have been on.

Keep up the good work, it is difficult but well worth it

Hi Martin , Big congrats on reaching day 30 my friend , have a great gamble free weekend ! Best wishes Alan !

Day 46

sorry it been a while since I posted but all is good no drama nothing to report just getting on with my new situation and staying gamble free. Had a normal week worked come home chilled whet for a beer at weekend and took my lad to a firework display. Just like a normal week without the gambleing

here's to another gamble free day

Day 50

well I didn't think I would get to 50 days but it's been quite easy not getting complacent I know the devil could sneak up on me any day so keep going the way I am.

Just wished I'd admitted my problem years ago and then the ret of my life might be in a better place

thabks for the support on here and at GA I wouldn't have done it with you

Hi Martin , just popped by to say a big congratulations on day 50 !. I too, wish I'd found the Ball'+ to give up earlier in life !.

But at least we got there eventually my friend ..... All best wishes , for a continued recovery !!! Alan

wish

Well done

Thanks guys nearly day 51 now one day at a time

Day 54

went to my first open meeting at GA tonight. It was great for my family to be able to go and listen to other people who have been as stupid as me and get a better understanding of the illness and hear the guys tell tales good and bad that shows how GA can work if you want it to. 3 guys who had done 1, 6 and 11 years of abstaining each life/story different with a common theme the determination to beat the gambling demon.

I know GA is not for everyone but if you never give it a go you won't know so if your struggling find a meeting and take a gamble it might help you not have that next gamble

Day 58

Had a good day and and half been round at my ex partners helping her set up an new laptop spending time with my son it was a nightmare to set up but it was nice to feel needed to sort it out I probably could of done it a lot quicker the transferring all the old stuff over and working out windows 10 and seeting up office but I can see now I was just dragging it out it felt good to be needed doing the day to day things making my lad some breakfast while the ex was out

I'm just feeling a bit sorry for myself it was refreshing to feel useful for a while I'll snap out of it going to go out for a few pints and a catch up with a few mates and watch the city game

Nearly 2 months gamble free so that's the positive I will take the test will fall into place in time I know one thing the odd down day is far better than the way I had been feeling for the last 12 months before I stopped gambling at least now I'm not putting on a brave face and running away from my problems

Hi Martin , hope your feeling a bit better today my friend , I think we all have days during this recovery of ours , where we feel sorry for ourselves , I know I certainly do !.

Were changing my friend !, getting back in touch with old feelings and emotions again , something we haven't had for many years while gambling .

Just think we have to allow things to adjust and settle down again?.

I get days where I can feel craaap one minute and on top of the world the next or start dwelling on things and then snap out of the rubbish feelings as quick as they came .

Your starting to enjoy simple important things again as am I , like spending time actually being focused on doing stuff with the family instead of giving that attention to gambling !.

Day 59 buddy ,your doing so well , keep up doing what works !

All the best for now mate !!. Alan

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Day 58

Had a good day and and half been round at my ex partners helping her set up an new laptop spending time with my son it was a nightmare to set up but it was nice to feel needed to sort it out I probably could of done it a lot quicker the transferring all the old stuff over and working out windows 10 and seeting up office but I can see now I was just dragging it out it felt good to be needed doing the day to day things making my lad some breakfast while the ex was out

I'm just feeling a bit sorry for myself it was refreshing to feel useful for a while I'll snap out of it going to go out for a few pints and a catch up with a few mates and watch the city game

Nearly 2 months gamble free so that's the positive I will take the test will fall into place in time I know one thing the odd down day is far better than the way I had been feeling for the last 12 months before I stopped gambling at least now I'm not putting on a brave face and running away from my problems

Great excuse to spend time with your son Oldham!!

Well done on the gamble free time. Keep it up

Day 66

Thanks for your comments guys been feeling a lot more positive this last week managed to get out yesterday for a few pints with my mate I went out on £20 I found on the street last Tuesday after walking home from GA it felt very weird having it in my pocket for 15 mins while I got home I had an urge to hold on to it and not say anything not to use it to gamble but to just have some money on me for a few treats through the week but I gave it to my mum when i got home and actual felt very proud because before i wouldn't of thought twice about using it there and then it was nice to keep it for the weekend and have few beers.

This week coming up is going to be a tough week I was supposed to be getting married on Friday but due to my gambling that isn't happening and the closer it has got the more I wish It was still happening. I've not got a clue what I was thinking it ludicrous when I look back.

My ex is going away on Thursday for a few days and my son is staying with his mate on Friday and it's my works Christmas night out. I can't make my mind on wether to go or not I'm going to see how I fell on the day

Thanks for reading and good look in your battle

I went on chat for the 1st time tonight and feel helpless some poor girl at a very low point. She got some tough love and went home but it didn't sit well with me I am certainly not qualified to be giving the help she needs I hope she calls someone who will be able to get her through this.