Day 3. I am starting to have to deal with the consequences of my compulsive gambling. My heads on me projecting forward in how im going to make ends meet to the end of the month. Need to keep it in the day.
Giving up smoking for the last 2 days hasnt made it any easier. I am not even thinking of gambling as i have no access to money ( due to having spent it all).
One of my main fears is being found out and losing my job. I hate the fact i am going to have to lie to people if they notice i do not have any money. The secrets i have to keep, i have shared with the people who are close to me as i have had no choice. They have been understanding and supporting. Fortunately they have some understanding of addiction and can identify.
Telling others who cannot identify is scarey as i feel they will descriminate. I am very grateful i have found this site and have the opportunity to communicate with others who have faced similar problems. Its definately helping me.
Back to work tomorrow, have to work till Saturday night fortunately all i have to worry about is my travel there. Oh and of course not smoking whilst trying to be patient, tolerant and show empathy with others. Going to be a test.
Thank for the responses to my last post. Much appreciated.
Hi jon t,
well done for starting a diary, and well done on three days gambling free. Keep posting, even if it is just to track how you are feeling, it will help you.
And of course, if you feel you'd benefit from additional support also feel free to call the Netline or the Helpline on 0808 8020 133.
Keep posting, keep working.
All the best,
Eva
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