Diary of boo radley

Hello boo....just a drop by really... you're doing great!

Lil B wanted to send woofs to scottie boo also...and says " loosing teeth is not all that bad...mummy will at least feed you soft and yummy stuff  because she will take care of you no matter what".

Hugs to you both from both of us ((((boo & Scotty boo)))))

S&B xx

Night. 

Well got through another day. 

Enjoyed chat today both times.. Tenders stories and life stories too. 

Good to talk with those old and new on chat. You take  it for granted that people continually come to chat. The support has been amazing. But at the same time it is always good to know that there journeys have moved forward.. Whst is a good time to stay or go.... Well as long as I'm not gambling its as long as it takes for me..

I'm not trusting enough of myself yet to cut loose just yet 

Thoughts on gambling today.. Just the aggravating ones about adverts and stuff.. Doubt that will change though so best not let it use my positive energy.. 

I've got a 12 hour shift tomorrow so must be thinking about sleep soon.. 

Take care all. 

Night and bless 

Boo ???

Nite n bless boo. Look after those feet tomorrow ?

Boo,

thank you so much as always. You are right, I haven’t lost the plot but is a new script. Thank you for helping me see it that way. There will be a solution, I just need to be clear about my priorities. I love you little gem. I hope work is kind to you xx

Morning... Dark outside... Never mind.. 

This off  to work I go.. 

Travel safe. Stay safe all..

Talk later 

Boo ???

I'm jiggered.. 

Can't think straight enough to write anything of importance.. So its just simply goodnight all.. Sleep well 

Boo ???

Hello.. Happy pancake day... Respectfully shrove Tuesday

So an honest account of how I feel today..

5th payday today gf.. And I felt, noticed past tense there, I wanted to gamble.. Real strong feel. I had a trigger last night. Something someone said on chat about a lucrative win had they only done something that would have guaranteed this. But they didn't.. So along comes the ?? mmm what if..

SO..

I sat here. And I thought about russ getting his two little heartbeats ready for school and nursery. 

Murlo.. Trying to get her writing inspiration. 

Drama. Organising her always busy hectic day.. 

Slow and Barney boo.. 

Adam... Organising his food today 

And everyone  else on here  who I am getting to know more along the way and read diaries.. You are in my thoughts.. 

And I thought. I don't want to read or have anyone to read in my diary I gambled today. And to read there supportive replies which I know I would get.. Because that's the way we share love here.. 

So today I'm not going to gamble because I have a miss Haversham style house. Got to meet the girls for walk. Chat. Coffee. 

Nip to marks n Spencer. 

Circuit training. 

Pub  for friends birthday 

Squeeze in two chats. 

Find time to breath... 

Need to focus on jigsaw Canada are way ahead.. 

Sat having a brew.. Feeling sensible. Have sorted my accounts.. Just this little bear pit I call my Palace to sort now.. 

Have a good day all.. Thanks for reading and caring.. 

Boo ???

Thanks russ.. Its just not an option going back...

Hope to make chat 

?Boo 

Morning Boo,

We’ve got this. Have a wonderful day little gem ?

Think Adam will be a healthy salad today murlo.. ?

Enjoy and take your day at the pace it suggests murlo 

??? Boo

Now where are those marigolds 

Good Morning Boo!

Thank you for writing on my diary... You absolutely have “got this”

you’re heading to a tranquil place that consists of living a good and full life without the demon of gambling constantly destroying everything..

and I’m right behind you 

Em x

Well a wobble at the start of the day doesn't mean it's going to be a bad day at all.. 

Had a run. 

Shop. Circuit trained 

And birthday drink 

Achieved the full days plans and gf.. Attended both chats.. 

Anyway TV time.. 

Night and bless all 

Boo 

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Boo,

that is lovely to read ?You had your plan for the day and it all turned out as per..

if you haven’t caught up on it yet I can recommend the latest Endeavour.

nite n bless Boo ?  

Thank you murlo.. Do take care.. 

Mind you set some me time for you 

Boo ???

Wednesday... 

Hello diary. Cold. Blowy. Flurries of snow. 

So let's get going... 

Feeling OK.. A bit excited.. I'm going have my payday rest today.. It won't be much maybe a brand new bin for kitchen and I need a new bed over.. Rewards don't have to be massive but I find in recovery it supports.. 

Just read a couple diaries as I do.. Some tenderness out there. I didn't think I could break the vicious cycle but seem so far to be adapting to a usual routine.. I get upset when I read about the debt and despair..

I was reading last  week about the notion that since the lottery began which gives a dream of something big happening gambling seems to have accelerated. Could be I suppose.. I for one seem to think that gambling is being promoted as 'fun', start of sociable and in event form.. That is to say types of bingo, hen/stag do,s at the racing,.just my slant on it...  Certainly noticeable is the position of scratch card etc. Stalls on entry or exit from stores.. Or is it me just waking up and at last smelling the coffee.. I don't like the hurt and struggle it causes. 

Plans today are minimal.. Because that's what I want them to be.. After shopping day about the house... Oh hot someone going to possibly come today or tomorrow about new back door.. 

Think I am in thoughtful, people watching mode today.. 

Hope everyone has a decent day. If the weather is harsh where you live then stay warm and safe... 

Till later 

Boo 

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