Diary of boo radley

Nice post to read.

Happy healthy life

Keep it up 🙂

S.A 🙂

Hello.ssturday evening. 

Had a good day. 6 mile run with remitted friends. Lovely weather too. 

TV later. Netflix maybe. May even have a vino. 

Hope all have a peaceful Easter. 

Boo ????

Good Morning Boo,

Nice to see you’re doing well and connecting with friends and getting some runs in.

Keep up the good work and have a fabulous weekend.

RR

Morning. 

Terrible sleep. Made 2 cuppas but still puffing the pillows.. And why ?

Im not overly concerned about anything. Wish people would go steady on re. Entering post lockdown life but what can I do about that one. 

Work is steady. Home life too. 

I do think I'm missing certain spontaneous aspects of life still.. Like booking a holiday. A pub meal. The cinema. And it's all about dipping your big toe in the water and getting out there again. 

I'm going to feed the pigs who live a mile away. Heavy pregnant two of them are  too. Then shop then bike ride. 

No gambling although did watch the syndicate on BBC last night which was casino based at times so  for me was thought provoking. 

We have a new addition to garden birds too. A jackdaw. He looks menacing. 

Looks to be a nice day. Pale blue sky. Thin frost.  So best get a wiggle on 

Bye for now 

Boo ?

Hi boo I don’t know but I suspect the pumping the pillows and bad night sleep could you may be thinking of your little Scottie I kwon last week one of my scotties was in the vets for two nights and I could not sleep she ok now but was so worrying  and the birds come in my garden for two days without any worry’s of being chased away as  my two gang up on them my little molly mae has just come on heat and got Decide if we’re going to breed or not mrs Scotty not too keen so will Have to decide soon take care boo                 
   Scotty 

Good Morning Boo,

I hope you are ok and having a super weekend.

I resonate with your previous post but pub lunches, cinema and holidays are just around the corner. We’ve waited so long and now its just about here. Happier times are upon us.

You can be very proud of your ability to navigate lockdown during extremely difficult personal circumstances. You are a woman of great resilience. I hope you get to enjoy life to the max in the next few months ahead.

Take care.

RR

Hi though id pop by and say hi,  hope youre well , lots of love hope the pigs were fed well....

All the best adam

Ps see you on chat somewhen xxx

Morning. 

Breezy today. Dental appt fell through as dentist stuck in heavy traffic on motorway.. 

So bit  of cleaning.... Then stroll to nature reserve via feed the pigs too.

Feel tired today but then had two heavy work shifts plus not sleeping too well again. 

All part of this grief process logically and general life worries re. Covid etc. 

No gambling although the thrill of winning something or a surprise of something nice at the moment would feel a tonic if thst makes sense. 

Coffee time is calling... 

Bye for now.. Boo 

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Dear @boo-radley,

Go gently on yourself, it's not been an easy time, it's important that you give yourself time to heal. 

And why not get yourself a little surprise? Treat yourself to something that would cheer you up and that you can afford and will make you feel good about yourself. A win won't cheer you up, it will just escalate. I know you know this, but it is important to really remember this. But a little treat that you can buy yourself with money you've earned can be special. You are worth it.

Wishing you all the very best,

Eva

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Thank you Eva. I took a stroll then I went to feed the pigs and stopped and had a cappuccino...

I do feel easier and settled now.. And truly know theres never a win only loss and misery.

Thank you for caring everyone

Boo ?

Send you a ?☕️Enjoy ❤️
  Scotty?

Evening. 

Had a good day. 

Ran 10 miles with 2 friends. Post coffee oatcake stop sealed the joy. 

Been to feed pigs. Then relaxed. Now about to start on tea and I do believe as it's Sunday its call the midwife. 

Take care  boo ?

Another week goes by. 

Not so bad. Kept busy. 3 mile run today with friend. Bike ride yesterday. 

Lazy night in front of TV. And curry. 

Work tomorrow. 

Mood is lifting. Sleep getting better. 

Have a good weekend all 

Boo ?

Just read  a diary extract from R R. 

How true his words echo. How so easy to get tangled in the snares of gambling.. It draws us as does a shiny object to a bird. 

I never realised how debilitating gambling could be. Remove the 'fun' factor and it leaves us battle weary, owned, lonely, anxious and both hyper and hypo.

But no we are never addicts we keep saying. Trying to convince ourselves. I'll be truthful the, feeling of thrill following a  "win" still has to be replaced. And for me using a land casino it was escapism away from everyone. But in thst lay the deceit too.. Of where I had spent my time.. It was my secret world..

All nonsense thst former existence. Simple things give me pleasure now. 

I'm not going back to gambling.tne stronger magnet in my head pulls me to the side of reason and logic. I'll never be cured as such but I feel easier than the early days of stopping. Less guilty and less emotional about it too. It was a learning curve. Costly one but nothings for free in life.

All for now.. 

Boo ?

Hi Boo,

I’ve not popped into say hi in a while so, hi. I hope you are well.

I’m glad you took something from my previous post. Nowadays on here its not something that is done as often as a few years ago. I need to have some more posts like that. It can be quite therapeutic.

I agree to an extent about the “thrill”. Winning at roulette in a casino was exciting but it comes with heavy baggage. Its unhealthy and it causes problems. In life, some people seek thrills every day. When I was younger I knew someone who lived for his car and racing at high speeds through country lanes. He’s dead now. He lost control and crashed into a tree. True story. It was plain dangerous but the thrill of it consumed him. Others seek thrills in danger. What I was doing was dangerous. Who knows how much I could have been capable of losing. Back then I cared for myself so little I didn’t care.

Today, things are better. Yesterday, I went to a Nike outlet store where there was an incredible sale and I bought loads because I could. That made me happy. Today, I was the best looking runner out on the trails - kitted out to the max ?

Take care.

RR