Wish the daylight would break through. Looks so bleak out there
Still cosy tosed in here..
Got tesco on the to do list to do today as well as making some soup as seem to have lots of veggies in stock this week. Tea will probably be cottage pie.. Feel like some comfort food today..
Going get on with my banking now. Got a healthy little pot building up. All spoken for but nice to know where it isn't going.
Chat later if time allows
Boo x
So went into chat today.. I have a trigger going on hence chat became a tad tearful for me..
I've been plodding along these last6 weeks. Up and down. More ups. But today's bugging me. I feel fatigued now so am going take a shower and just stay indoors all day now relaxing with home stuff.. Mainly finishing the jigsaw.
I have tried many times to stop gambling. I have tried to reduce my gambling saying to myself just go the casino special occasions or for a treat... Filling myself with false hopes and improbable goals. I'm sure thats what's wrong with me today. Special occasions zooming and Christmas time. I'm not sorry I won't be gambling this coming season.. I am sorry I spent so much wasted time and energy even imagining these bonkers ideas would work ?
I'm not going sit here sad all day though. That would be a waste. Gambling taken so many emotions from me that I've been left feeling blunted..time to sharpen the edge again now though.
I'll be fine. Its just going to have to work itself out of my system today.
For every bad day there is always a good one.
Chat later. Boo x
Hi Boo, I am glad you came into chat today. Every day that you work through the more difficult moments will make you stronger. Be kind to yourself, you deserve to be.
Thank you.. Yes. Wise words. I've just sat here thinking of those that will struggle at Christmas because of gambling. I hope they find help and peace soon..
Yes today a tad Low mood but not a bad price to have to pay for the good ones ahead. Thanks murlo
Boo ?
Happy birthday for tomorrow boo ??
Thank you. That was the trigger. Birthday?
A year older. Less time to recoup lost funds.
I would in the past have gone casino tomorrow. Birthday buzz.
BUT
No.. Lessons learned.
I feel better for chat. For the cry. For the reflection
Pressies and cards await me in the morning... Life is good... ?
Thank you murlo and all on chat today..
Nite and bless.
Boo xxx
Once you said it was your birthday I thought it might have been the trigger. P.s Remember you will only technically be a day older ?
Sleep well and have a lovely day x
Well happy birthday to me. ?
Today is special. Today is mine. Yes I have been selfish over the last few years but am going to be today by seizing it all for me.
Lots cards and pressies received. Very spoilt indeed. Lovely messages on fb...... I wonder if people knew the last several years. But my friends have their flaws too so I'm not going to make myself feel like I am the worst person in the world.
Hope to chat later.. Its black Friday so shops are going be a squeeze. But Im sure I can manage a bargain somewhere.
Today will not upset my routine with my bank and money. My savings.. My new little world.
Today feels good. Today is mine. Today is my birthday. Today is 48 days gf..
Hope to chat later..
Boo x
Happy birthday boo, treat yourself today ?
I will. Xx why not.. Chat later ?
Thank you boo x
Happy Birthday Angel! Well done on your GF time. That is awesome!!! I hope you have a great day. ?
Drama xxx
Thank you all... Feeling emotional but a good emotional.. Boo xxx
Today is a magical day believe me it is true
For on this day the Earth was blessed with the birth of dear sweet Boo
This jolly soul with heart of gold is gamble free and proud
Walking under clear blue skies where once there was dark cloud
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOO
From Stephen x
Thank you. Boo x
Had a fabulous curry with sis and bro. In. Law. Excellent venue. Food delicious and plentiful. Good chatter all the way through.. Laughter in abundance.
Not only am I proud owner of one original scottie dog. Radley trademark. But now because of sis birthday present one Radley bag. Its gorgeous. Complete boo radley not only in name now.
We didn't stay late bro in law tired. Long hours at work so will see them nxt Friday for show at theatre.
All in all a wonderful day..
So cuppa in hand.. Dirty Harry on TV.
Feeling content
Good nite all. Thanks for support.. Boo x
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