Hi, I think this is where I stand up and say my name, and I am a gamleing addict.
I think it all started like most people I deposited 100 and won 200. The feeling and rush that I had earned a days wage in under 5 minutes felt amazin, a few hours later I list it all but at that point I thought it's only 200 it's fine accept the loss and move on.
The 100 deposits soon turned into 300, 400, 1000 deposits and the feelings when I won was best high knowing I had won all this money but in reality I was still down and that little voice inside said you can win it back!!
Soon it got to the point where I was 20k up and in 10min it was gone, the feeling I felt after this was something I had never felt before, I was not myself for weeks l, it was like I was in a comma state, I was there but I was not all there.
This week I have taken steps to stop this evil habit I have deleted all apps, internet links and got to the point as asking my bank to issue me new bank cards so I could not be tempted to make another deposit on them.
I suppose I can call myself a little luck and have only managed to rack up a little debt which can be cleared within the next year, but for me I knew there was a problem where I was borrowing money to feed this addiction, I am three days now no gambling and it is the toughest 3 days of my life as all I can think of is place another bet but everytime I feel the urge I put on some music and day No!!!
Just wanted to share my story and say it is tough but hang on it there, life is for living don't gamble it away
Hi AF
Welcome to this great site and you made first steps forward in ur recovery. Admitting having a compulsive behaviour is not easy, but we all been there and made that step for the better. This site will offer you so much support and wisdom. Read other diaries, write on your own. We are all in the same boat and fighting this good fight for the freedom.
Recovery is bespoke, find your own way which suits you the best. Keeping busy helps a lot, esp on weak moments where urges comes too close. I've been in recovery for over a year and actually took up jogging. Loving it and find it the best way to ride the storms out, plus keeps me energetic.
It is not easy road, there will be some challenging days, but anything is possible and all you need to do is to take it day at a time. Today is what matters the most. Keep making the right choice
All the best in your journey and keep up good work
Sandra
Your story sound very familiar to mine apart from iv been gambling for 18 years and I'm only 31. It got bad in the last 7 months and my debt went for 3k to 15k. Iv not gambled since 9th of June and like you I feel lucky because I knew it could of took everything, money, family, friends and ultimately my life....iv read a lot of story and it's good to read that someone else feels lucky that they still have life and can get past it.....I'm at a stage where I am responsible for my actions and willing to accept it. Good luck with stopping.
ur spot on life is for the living and so we should not gamble it away , i to in the past have felt in a coma state , but remember that state my friend as this will deter you from gambling again , hope you doing well
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