Easy does it!

Hiya Smiler...just to say that im out of the woods and now climbing back up the other side..thank you for your posts along with others to keep me strong...my relationship didn't make it but hopefully others and yours will..one day at a time as they say...I have indulged in all my emotions in my diary as you know and gone into great depth..It has kept me sane through a time in my life that has been stressful..

When it comes to feelings there is not right and wrong..they just "are"...keep sharing yours,the ups and the downs...

GT is right...its all about balance...and for a long time i have been way off balance in many areas of my life...Now there is a gap left in my life i have to be careful not to fill it up with work as i could start cranking it up to 7 days as i am self employed.

Remember .We are human beings not human doings....take time to be still...its difficult if you have the washing machine brain as most of us do...sometimes you can achieve more by making a decision to "do nothing". Im trying to factor that in once a day for about an hour...its not easy but its providing some balance..xxx take care xxx ..ps still unpacking that rucksack xx

Hi smiler Thankyou for your support you talk alot of sense.

The thing with running your own business is it can take over your life if you let it believe me i know.

Dont forget your the boss you make the rules have what days you want off to a certain degree obviously otherwise you wont have a business lol .

Sorry waffling thankyou for the support.

Stay Strong.x

Managed to get through festivities without major mood swings that have blighted past years. I put it down to non gambling. Old habits die hard though as I have been carrying around a stash of cash with me for no reason. I told my wife and she said let's buy a dishwasher. The thought of that made me squirm for a while. Hopefully do it today. This real world living takes some getting used to! But I like it!!

Very tired today after family party last night, Back to work tomorrow and back in the groove. It's times like this that I start thinking crazy thoughts about what have I done with my life etc. I get carried away with mad thoughts. Not sure if I should try to relax or chase that grandiose idea! Madness really or not!!

Hope everyone is in good health and plodding along in recovery. Remember gambling will always be there so we'll never beat it. Just learn to live side by side with the neighbour from hell!

Take care

"The neighbour from hell"

Now that's one way of calling "them".

If only they were not everywhere, eh? We can only do our best to stay well, well away from them as they will not go away.

You're right, it's times like these when we have a huge amount of reflection. Especially after spending time with the family.

But as long as we don't gamble, those times of reflections will be much more positive.

GT

Thanks for your post the other day smiler,you helped bring me back to my senses. I don't know if its the time of year or the festivities catching up with me,but I was in a dark place for a couple days,all sorts of crazy thoughts goin through my head.

I was probably trying to justify a gamble because the argument,im thankfull to you for highlighting my train of thought at the time.

The storm has passed now,and as u say I will try and live with the neighbour from hell,

Thanks again. CL

All OK here matey.

Just very tired from work and got a few anxious days coming up but nothing I need to gamble on. Just one day at a time is good and keeping it simple. Looking forward to taking it easy tonight and watching footy. Hope everyone is in a good space tonight. If not hold in there and it will pass.

Hi smiler,

Just checking in. I'm still reading (but have a new name). Don't work yourself into the ground, I tried that and it led nowhere. However, a dishwasher isn't a bad idea!

A new name is not a bad idea. I have an old diary but gsve too much of me away and became worried. I have found better space to be in since I came back with new name. I'm sure I know who you were previously but that matters not. Today matters only. Take care and keep reading

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.~ Buddha.

Not happy on page 3!

Been reading and working more than posting last few days. Just giving others a chance I think. Read some interesting stuff on here some I agree with some I don't. It isn't a moan at anyone just an observation how we all do things differently. The demons just hang around and try to get us whatever way they can. As long as we all stay together and support each other any way we can I'm sure we will dtrengthen as time goes by.

Take care

Just had a great idea but not sure if I'll achieve it but will have a go. I'm going to try and get a bit more fitter and healthier for the Summer! I'm not going to beat myself up if I don't get there and not going to set goals as yet but will just see how it goes. I was in rehab years ago and the portions were carefully monitored at meal times. I questioned, and resented, this. Now I understand why as I just move addictions across from one to another. Not saying I have got gambling demons sorted but I feel I need to move on slightly with my life. I'll update how I'm doing as I really do like junk food so it will be struggle at first. Take care and here's to another gamble free weekend.

I can totally empathise with your last post.

Someone was nagging me to give up smoking at new year, my reply was which one of my addictions would take over next.

Well done for all you have atvhieved in the last year, you always talk a lot of sense and have definitely contributed in a very positive way to me staying in recovery.

For that I thank you

Dusty ( aka kaza)

I have had far more home made cooking in the past year or two than I have ever had and I feel so much better for it. One of my small treats that I give myself every now and then is to have some 'junk food'.

And to be honest, sometimes they don't taste as good as the home cooking. And they're more expensive.

So what you are trying to do is brilliant. Would you feel better eating something that you know exactly what has gone in it?

I know I do.

All the very best with your new fitness regime.

GT

Thanks for words of wisdom and encouragement! I read on tis forum quite often that people are paying off debts. I get the feeling that once the debt is paid the problem is then solved. I treat it differently. I think of the debt as just being part of me and I have learned to live with it and in no real rush to pay it off although if it wasn't there it would be nice. I am slowly but surely clearing my debts and hopefully once it is all cleared I can make another plan of which, at present, I don't know what it will be. What I'm trying to say is that if you are in debt because of gambling please except it as part of you and you might feel better about it. Sorry to bang on but just my view and want people to be wary that there is no end to beating this we just learn to accept that it is there. Take care

think your idea is great....and its true to not beat yourself up...its about enjoying the process and smelling the flowers sometimes rather than being too bound up with the outcomes isn't it.If we live right then the outcomes we desire are more likely I guess...Even as a supporter with "that thinking" I wonder what now?..think its about variety sometimes that can make up the whole and maybe not focussing on one thing but we are all different...Yesterday is history,Tomorrow a mystery....Today is the present..consider it gift "...take care .x