Fighting my way out of hell

Welcome!

I have been looking at your post and wonder if I am addressing the gambler or the person? This "hiding stuff" from the missus I recognize that. Everyone around you is co-addicted as family members. Your parents and your wife. You need to first think how far you want them to be involved because every decision you do now will have an impact on how they feel and act towards you in the future.

You are chasing losses and lost another thousand in the hole. How much have you lost in all? Try and write it all down. There is no reason to face the devil with one eye closed. If you want help, this place is a good place to start with all the counsellors and other people in the forum who can help. Reach out and make the first

phone call and let someone direct you to the resources you have where you live. I would start by talking to someone outside the family who can give you some neutral advice. That helps you in your decision process and you will have an easier time taking the next step and then another one. Before long you will be in full recovery but it is about reclaiming the responsibility and owning your own decisions. If you own your decisions you will

always find a way to keep your head high regardless of the problems you may find yourself in.

I wish you well in your recovery.

C

Hi Smurf and welcome.

You should associate those feelings with chucking that amount of money away. Thats the scary part...chucking your money into the wind based on a drug addiction. The scary part is not having control over your own mind!

All the rest of it is to help you. You need to tell people...you need help. There is no shame in admitting that.

The reality is playing on your mind now as you come down off the drug. Of course your loved ones will be shocked and worried. I suggest you break the news with plans of what you are going to do to let them control your money.

Its no good in your pocket and you have a lot of healing to do. You need reality checks and you have some cold turkey to do.

This will go on if you dont make this your rock bottom moment and start a recovery journey.

You are confused, addicted and rattling! We understand..we have been there.

There is hope and when you see the light you can make this history.

You can never be complacent again. Do you want your self respect. dignity and your life back?

Best wishes from everyone on the forum

Day 2/3! 

day 2 was hard..... I struggled like mad!! The urges were so strong i thought i was onto a loss, but i dug my heals in and kept at it! So now this my 3rd day without gambling!! 
i had alot of support from the missus, and she didnt kick off one but which was great!! We are sorting out a strategy for money wise, hopeful this will help!! 

Well... its been over 2 weeks now!! The urges are still there and im still fighting them! I have self excluded on all sites i was signed upto! Found another site today which i had forgotten about so instantly self excluded so no temptation was there! Heres to a straight path forward! 

Hello Smurf84

It is good to see you on the Forum reaching out to others who are in Recovery from problem gambling.

It appears that you need to put in place some further blocking.  Please contact one of our Advisers on the Helpline who will talk you through Blocking Software which will exclude all gambling sites along with blocking any adverts/emails coming through to you, which can be very triggering.

We have Advisers available 24/7 to help; you can contact an Adviser by calling on 0800 8020 133 or using our LiveChat option. I encourage you to make contact to discuss the best way forward.

Keep connecting with your peers in the Forum - remember that problem gambling wants to 'isolate' you!

Easy Does It

Best 

Amanda

Forum Admin