First day of the rest of my life...

Morning Myles,

I know it really concerns me that these company's do such things, but suppose they don't want to lose customers. I have finally realised this morning I could of never won, cos I just kept playing at higher stakes. It's like I'm starting to see sense of my past. Oh that sounds interesting, I am sure training to be a teacher is going to take up loads of your time, which is good to keep you distracted.

Hope your day goes well x

Well... It's been well over 72 hours & nearly end of day 3 and I'm feeling good, very little urge today. Looking at the transactions on my bank statement didn't feel so good but I'm looking forward, what's done is done, things can only get better from here on in.

Hi Mrs Me,

You are doing great!

I don't play cards or monopoly or anything that would remind me of gambling.

The early days are awful tough but it does get better and you will turn your back on gambling for ever.

Keep posting and take care of yourself ,

Suzy

Day 3 complete! Feeling quite accomplished and looking forward to the end of day 4. And my bank balance has stayed the same, very very pleased. That's some great advice there suzy, I hadn't really thought of other things that could make my mind wonder so that's really helpful. Thank you x

Hi MM

3 wins in a row. Rarely did I ever have such a sequence of successful bets or roulette spins. Funny what you said about the bank statements as I saw them showing today online and felt equally embarrassed. Mine looks really desperate! Need to remember that it's done and is finished - if we dwell too much the thought of recovering losses might manifest. Money is lost but it's only by surrendering to the addiction that people like us can ever win the battle. My way of thinking about the transactions is that if I am determined that will be the last time it will ever look like that.

Myles x

Hi MM.

Well done on 4 days today.

We cannot win because we cannot stop, so there is no point in playing.

We do win every day we don't play, and that is sooo positive for us.

Stay strong and keep winning,

Best wishes

Suzanne x

Hi Myles,

My thoughts exactly. I keep thinking that will be the last time I ever see those transactions on my account, from now on it will only be purchases etc. I feel like I have saved loads of money already just since Saturday. Hope your day has been well, day 4 nearly over! X

Hi Suzanne,

I keep thinking that over and over, I can't win because I never could stop, didn't matter what my balance was if play it all away then feel absolutely awful at myself so I'm trying to remember that terrible feeling which I don't want to feel again. I can't believe I've nearly made it to end of day 4! Thank you. X

Day 4 done! Little urge today, maybe one urge all day. I'm feeling ok at this point, I've all of a sudden started realising areas in my life I am not truely happy with and getting mixed feelings about other areas, maybe they were always there I was too busy gambling to pay any attention to them. I feel this is good cos I can now start to sort out these areas accordingly. I'm looking forward to the end of day 5! I must remember I can not win because I can not stop!

Day 5 thoughts - I am feeling strong this morning and can see a week in sight! I will do this!!

Hi MM

Five whole days of winning, how good is that.

Well done.

Stay strong and focused and keep winning.

Suzanne xx

Thank you Suzanne, I am willing this day to be over! Getting some urges the last hour but I have decided to write on here rather than gamble! I feel like I am writing here loads but it helps me I think. I can not win because I can not stop, must keep going. Xx

Hi MM,

Hope you have pushed through those urges it is the only way you can win, and have a happier healthier and saner life.

Use every barrier you have do anything scream, get drunk, do something totally different, keep busy, but don't let that addiction take your money, it will just lead to more misery, stress, and self loathing, stay strong, the urges will pass and having got through them it will make you stronger. And that will be a big positive for you.

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne,

I did indeed push through them, kept busy with housework and now doing course work and the urge is forgotten. Feeling glad that nearly at the end of day 5! Hope your day has been well. Xx

Hi Suzanne,

I did indeed push through them, kept busy with housework and now doing course work and the urge is forgotten. Feeling glad that nearly at the end of day 5! Hope your day has been well. Xx

I have done it! Laid in bed and day 5 is over ! Looking through others diaries and seeing how far they have come makes me realise I too can do this. Here's to day 6 and then dare I say it, a full week! Never would I have imagined a couple of weeks ago I could go a day without gambling and here I am 5 days on, feels such an achievement but keeping that disappointing feeling when I'd lost loads in my mind to stop me from going there again. Feeling strong again. Xx