fresh start

Hi mate just been reading through some of your diary. I guess you must be feeling pretty low right now but look at everything you achieved in the bigger picture to get to where you are now. Accept this as a blip and get back on with things tomorrow! tomorrow is a new day and an opportunity to embrace recovery again and move forward. I imagine you will want to chase the losses but remember how you feel now and get those barriers in place to start again!

Hi graeme .

Sorry to read you have blipped, but as Stoneroses says, look at the bigger picture, because you have come so far on your recovery.

You know what to do pick yourself up,and carry on forget what you have just lost, it's gone.

Don't let this blip ruin the bigger picture and please don't be too hard on yourself, you will be even stronger now.

Take care and stay safe. Sending you a big positive hug ((((((G))))))!!!

Suzanne xx

Its not the money lost because i have lost thousands at a time. The 225 feels like thousands because i have gambled again but i have excepted that the money has gone. If me mam and brother hadnt taken laptop off me it would have been more i had deposited another 300 pound into me online account when me brother pulled plug out of internet connection but i have now since withdrawn money and put it back into my bank account. Me mam is 64 and she cant cope with this at her age and a love her to bits but i put her through all of this s**t

Cheers suzanne and stoneroses for your support really appreciate it

Hi boro,

I understand what you are saying it's the fact you have gambled again, but you will be stronger now. Use this new wisdom, remember we are in recovery, and be kind to yourself, stay strong.

Suzannexx

Things ok £225 is not the end of the world

cheers for your continued support suzanne x

Worrying is like a rockin chair gives you something to do but gets you nowhere 🙂

Keep positive and use it as motivation to give recovery another go! I relapsed more this year than my team Liverpool have played badly this season but i'm on the road to recovery now and that's all that matters 🙂

Had a few urges to gamble today but they are things in place to stop me. Luckily i have got all the kids xmas presents but if i gamble again i will spoil my xmas plus me mams

Liverpool are s**t this season stoneroses not a hope in hell in finishing in top 4 but you are right about the rocking chair

Hi Graeme,

Good to read you are back on track,

Stay strong and stay focused.

Suzanne xx

Hey Graeme,

You have not posted for a while, I hope you are staying strong and safe.

Just want to wish you and your family a very merry Xmas

Take care

Suzanne xx

Yeah not posted for a while, had nothing to say really. Still come on here most days and read which helps a lot but not gambled since the last time.

Happy christmas to you and your family suzanne x

Hi Graeme

Been over a week since you posted, I hope you had a good new year, and this year will be sooo much better than last year as long as we don't gamble.

Take care

Suzanne xx

Yeah im fine suzanne things are pretty good. Got a letter off hsbc bank saying because they worded my loan wrong they will pay 2 years interest back to me which was 1175 which has put my overdraft down to only 200 this letter was a great xmas box. Somebody looking down on me saying he deserve another chance.I wont be posting as much suzanne

Hi Graeme,

Thanks for getting back, and am pleased about interest being returned, yes someone was looking down on you lol.

A good start to a new year.

I understand you not updating your diary much now, but every so often I will push you to the front lol, to see how you are doing.

Take care,

Suzanne xx

Debt has come down to £4000 plus im out me overdraft. I am having the odd bet on horses but not touched roulette for a longtime plus i have a new woman in my life who keeping me occupied so don,t think about gambling as much. But things going really well at the minute.

Well had a bad day playing roulette today just totally got out of hand lost a grand in no time. Feel angry with myself because life really good at the moment. I got a loan from the bank for £1000 could not take being in my overdraft again after it taken so long to get out of it. Learned my lesson blocks in place to stop me playing roulette cant lose the no girlfriend in my life. I just don,t understand why im so addicted to roulette its caused me more heartache than anything but i still get random urges to play it.