fresh start

Well life not to good but no more gambling but ex is not letting me see my daughter all because I didn't want to get back with her. Well will all this shiit ever end

Can't seem to leave roulette alone not lost a lot this time but it has ruined the night I had planned. Don't know what comes over me but it has to stop because even if I won it would not be enough

Hi Graeme,

Nothing changes if nothing changes, You can change and turn your life around,

Good to see you back because it means you have not given up on giving up.

Sending you strong and positive thoughts as always.

Suzanne xxx

Never been away Suzanne just I don't comment on my diary. I read the forum most days and it surprises me how so few have succeeded in beating this addiction in the 5 and half years

Meant writing on your diary:))

I don't think anyone will ever beat this addiction, but it can be contained, with changes and a different mindset my friend.

You will get there and you have progressed more than you realise at the moment.

Keep trying and trying,you will find your own way

Take care.

Suzanne xxx

I know what you ment Suzanne. People can go years but it's always they ready to strike

It sure is Graeme, don't be too hard on yourself, it's a horrible addiction to have and it's such a secretive one, no knows unless we open up, and that is one of this addictions big card, it has so many hidden cards, we just have to work them out, by working ourselves out, one day at a time, if that makes sense.

Suzanne xxx

It is a horrible addiction Suzanne can't believe I'm still putting love ones through all this shiit.

Still playing the roulette in betting shop. But they are a waste of time. Went in with a £5 today got up to £45 but instead of collecting it I carried on and lost the lot plus another £100 not a lot when you consider what I have lost in the past. Even when I win I give it back straight away. You just can't win on them must keep telling myself that

Well gambling cost me another relationship. I have not lost a great amount of money just an odd £5 with a lad at work on football. But my girlfriend mam has taken great pleasure in telling her I'm a compulsive gambler and concerned about me gambling ,not good enough for her, I do nothing to help her. So it's all kicked off with her mam. I am a compulsive gambler but I have not lost a lot of money for a long time. Plus girlfriend 3 month pregnant

Hi boro , sorry to hear things are not good but without trying to sound harsh what do really expect , You are a compulsive gambler the amounts don't matter and your girlfriends mum is only doing what most mums would do and that's looking out for her daughter .

Looking back through your most recent posts and they all tell the same story , gambling and relationship problems because of it and the old saying of " nothing changes if nothing changes" comes to mind and if you keep doing the same thing how do you expect a different outcome ? .

Sorry mate I;m sounding as though I'm having a right go but you know what I'm saying , there's ever only one way to beat this and that's by stopping , it all boils down to how much you really want too .

Stay safe buddy and I hope things change for you .

I understand where you are coming from Alan. Her mam new about me gambling before we got together I have alway been open and honest but it doesn't excuse the fact I do have moment of madness been 1 bad moment of £1800 which her mother doesn't even know about 6 month ago. Her mother is a b***h but still no excuse for my gambling and I can't keep giving people excuses to say im acompulsive gambler get rid of him. Yes I am but I can't keep giving people excuses to use it against me.

Well got to say in the 5 months I have not posted I have gambled. But no where near to what I used to do. I don't have me cash card or any large amounts of money me mam keeps that because I would just go and lose it. If you don't want to lose large amounts of money you must give your cash card to somebody you trust. My debt now stands at £1000 which feels great considing it used to be nearly £15000

Well I have one payment on my debt left to go which comes out next Monday. Totally debt free considing the place I was in years ago it feels great. I still gamble can't stop don't want to stop. But it is very limited because I don't have me cash card otherwise I think I would go mad with it. But this is what I have to deal with I never beat it. I just have to manage it

Well gone and lost £280 on roulette in the betting shop. Feel as sick as anything thoughtthem days of me chasing a loss we're pretty much over.i have lost pretty much everything because of these fobt and I'm still doing it. Even my family don't know what to do anymore because they are sick of it. Life's s**t even though I don't have any debt anymore