Well gone and blown 1700 on roulette in betting shop which I'm bared from. Confessed to girlfriend just feel so guilty when will it ever end.
Hi Boro,
Sorry to hear that. I lost £1700 last week on fobt and virtual racing. I know how that feels. I just read your diary. You can stop again. You were doing so well.
Stay positive mate.
Toad.
Yeah mate don't feel good at all. Losing £1700 means I'm £1700 into me overdraft I have a sharesave which I have had to cancel which had £400 in. Plus girlfriend going to give me £500 just to bring it down a bit. But just feel like I can't keep doing this. It's like history repeating itself over and over again. I'm sick of it and letting people down over and over again.
Boro
​fella every time I accepted loss through taking money from another source other than earning it through pure graft I believe I was enabling addiction to continue dominating my life.today I recognise that gambling in any form will produce loss.my advice hand over your finances to your girlfriend, break the triangle, ree self exclude, do everything in your power to take control if not the cycle will repeat itself.having control for me doesn't mean you have to be inn control because we are powerless in addictions presence.nothing changes if nothing changes my friend.duncs stepping forward never back.
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The thing is Duncan I have had relapse after relapse. I have worked every hour possible to get myself above water and when I do I always end up blowing it. I'm tired of doing the same thing working all the time to clear gambling debts. I am bared out of the betting shop I went in plus my girlfriend does have control of my finances but when we went to petrol station she forgot to ask me for card back. The rest you know I went on a gambling binge. But onwards and upwards
Still struggling to come to terms with what I have done again. But them fobt should not be aloud in betting shops and the staff behind the counter should stop you from gambling after putting £500 in. When somebody is going backwards and forwards to the counter putting more and more on machine. It's not right people being aloud to go stupid on these machines.
Well a start of a new week just hope I don't put myself threw what I did last week again. Don't think I can take it again. Roulette is just a waste of time
It sure is a waste of time Graeme, I know you will do this, because you keep coming back:)))
Sending you strong and positive thoughts as always.
Suzanne xxx
Starting to feel a bit better. One things for certain I can't play roulette ever ever again. A mugs game
Good to see you feeling better
OAUs my friend
Suzanne xxx
Cheers Suzanne I appreciate it x
Life is pretty s**t ex girlfriend causing me trouble plus got to deal with what I did last Wednesday. Things can only get better. But can never play roulette ever again!!!!!!!!
Things will surely get better as long as you don't play roulette:) and as your days build up, you will be able to deal with your ex's issues in a stronger and calmer way, you have got there before and I know you can do this my friend.
Suzanne xxx
Well another day goes by and yea I have gambled but not on roulette. Was winning £12.50 but went from that to losing £7.50. I can live with losing that but it still hurts because I have gone from winning to losing. I like having a bet on horses or dogs and I don't think I ever be able to give it up totally.
Today I have lost about £50 on horse. I have come to the realisation I can not gamble on anything. Nothing at all because it just sets off the compulsive gambler in me. I have a lot to lose and I can't lose everything again.
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