Well, well I have gone and done it again. Lost £2750 on the fobt this morning. £700 or £800 was money I had won. But about £2000 of my money which I work for gone in an hour. How stupid is that? Feeling low as you always do after a blowout like that. I just never learn. The only positives is I’m not in debt because I’d done so well saving up. What a fuucking idiot I am the woman behind counter must ha e sought I was round the bend keep going back to the counter putting £500 on a time. Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!
My addiction to fobt has been going on for a long time aln. I have lost pretty much everything because of it. The only way signalman will save he relationship is honesty I have been in his shoes. But yeah I suffer all the things you have said. I have had counselling didn’t work been to doctors pretty much useless. I don’t have hold of my cash card but can easily get it off my mam tbh. My mam 68 years old I’m 37 how sad that when I have no control. As for gambling yeah it’s never really stopped for quite a few years. I’m self excluded but it doesn’t work
Total madness from me today I not be able to set foot in there again with embarrassment which is a good thing.Not rock bottom but my emotional state is not good because I keep doing the same thing time and time again. I worry about about everything. I never beat it. It’s about managing it because it will always be inside me to lose control
Mate I hear you - the madness is always in there and when we don't feel it it's still in there hiding.
I'm only on day 3 so emotionally a wreck still but every time I come on here I'm buoyed by the support and courage shown by people trying to free themselves from this ****
Strength in numbers. I need to speak to my wife like you say... I'm just so ashamed and gutless I guess. I'm 35 and everything in my life was cruising until 3 days ago. Absolute mad one from me. They say oh here that every day you'll become stronger so tomorrow when you wake up you'll be that little bit stronger. Keep going. Don't give up. When you feel good - capitalise on that and do positive things. When you feel bad, come on here and seek support.
Cheers for your support signalman.
Heads still all over the place. I did yesterday what I always do after a massive loss I tried to get a loan to cover the loss because I can’t take losing that type of money. I did manage to get a loan at a low apr 7.9. But me getting a loan is not a solution to my problem and I’m thinking about just paying it back I have 14 days before I get charge interest on it.
Listen mate do what you think is right LONG TERM. You may have a loan come now but if payments are not realistic over time you'll only screw yourself over and create heartache later on. Look after yourself... Take care of yourself - only take on the loan if you really need it due to not being able to financially uphold the loss you had. If you can survive the loss without the loan... Don't take it mate. Do what's best for you... Don't punish yourself more through self-loathing.
We will all try and work through this altogether boss... Don't forget that.
I can afford loan no problem do I need it the answer is no. Cheers signalman
Back to work today after a week off. Really can’t be bothered with it after losing all that money last week
Good luck at work mate. Put a face on and just go for it. Every day you work and don't gamble you are the victor. Keep fighting. Last week is done now - this week is there for you to make the best of - you can shape your future - not your past. Forget last week now - or at least try to (not easy I know)
This week you're thinking "Gosh last week was ****" I hope this time next week you're thinking "ok! Last week was good - got my head down - worked - remained GF - great week!" Then build on that week by week Boro. Sounds hard to comprehend now but keep on a positive path and you'll leave last week way behind you. Good luck.
I’m thinking signalman last week started off well and then I screwed up on Friday which has knocked me back a bit. Work was not to bad it took me mind off things I have no intention of gambling the money gone I’m only going to lose more by gambling. Cheers for your continued support though signalman
Another day at work done. Gambling couldn’t be any further away from my mind. It’s just the £2500 lost that’s killing me. Been on here a long time now and nothing really changed apart from not in any debt which I was when I first came on here. I have seen a lot of people come and go. But a lot relapse and come back. You just hope the people that don’t come back have soughted there life’s out. In my opinion gambling addiction is one of the worst because you can only take a certain amount of drugs or alcohol before your body won’t take anymore where as gambling you rarely stop till every penny has gone. Never taken an illegal drug in my life don’t drink much but I’m saddled with a horrible gambling addiction which up to now has ruined my life.
Day off today. Relax
Paid loan back of £7000 today got it after losing the money on Friday. Didn’t need it I was just trying to cover for money I’d lost. Life could be worse
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