Fresh start........new approach........a u turn as it were for me.......ive spotted im on wrong road......Lets change

Hi Adam

I was wondering about the alcohol mate but didn't say anything. I'm glad you've knocked it on the head. I guess the question is, do you really need it ? Is it potential danger ? Then presumably it's not worth the risk ? Glad you've told yourself that. 

Not sure about the Lego. Finding a good balance that makes you happy is something you've always managed to do. Leave that one to you to decide as always. 

Food makes you happy and you talk about it a lot on here. I know you also like being spend thrifty but treat yourself to some food treats mate. I know you enjoy cooking it and eating it so it's a double whammy 

Evening dear diary....... a positive start to my fresh approach......no spending today........woke late in afternon as was up late.......need to get to sleep ealrier today so i can wake earlier tomo...... to get back into routine.....  Ive spent nothing today.....Woke went to folks for dinner and then been on gamcare and you tube this evening....

One more day of holiday and i feel fully recharged now ready to go back..... to get into the swing of things again......  

Thought about taking back one of the lego sets..... but to be honest spending that final argos voucher and closing the account was a good move where by i can write a line in the sand and approach buying things differently........ill aim to not look at deals as much online.....ill aim to not spend money on gaming this year.......soo far technically i havent as i bought the vouchers back in december and havent spent any more on it yet......

Sooo many people are struggling these days and im thankfull for what i have...... so ill focus on the basics..... for this month and see where it goes.....

The basics for me are:

Work hard (get as much done for the hospital as i can to feel that im useful.....

Dont over indulge (basic food spending this month, no more looking at deals on gaming etc......no more spending......

Exercise right amount (not overdo it....not underdo it.....the right amount 70k steps a week average over the month.....

Watch one film and box set a week....... to get most of that service........and spend an average time gaming not too much not too little..... get the most of of everything....

My mum allways says a little bit of everything....

Lets strive to do a good April.

Adam

Again thansk for input stuart mate.....lets have a great april

Another cracking day grommit. 

Love the way you look at life mate. Still put every effort into your recovery alongside enjoying it to the full mate 

Hey Stuart..... missed u on chat tonight.....

Alll good here..... woke up 2pm.....managed to get a coffee voucher at 7am this morning and a friend sent me another..... so along with the free waitrose coffee each day im set up for my caffiene this week for free....

went to waitrose for some milk today and thought id check the meat counter....... there was 1.5 rump steaks half price....... the one steakwas massive so i got them to cut into three (making four steak portions for me)...... £9.17 plus the milk..... so £2.29 per steak...... love it......

Then came back and sat in the sun for a few hours with a friend.....

Then cooked a steak and had a bath......

Then went to sainsburys and argos and took one of my lego sets back......

then spent 20 pounds to get 5x nectar points....and got lots of food for the month plus some essentials like bin bags and sweetex........

Im going to go with mum this week to stock up on soup for lunches..... plus some marg..... and milk and bread....

but ive now got 6 sausages, 6 pies, 6 steaks, 1 pizza, 6 pasta bakes, 6 eggs, ALL THE SIXES IT SEEMS LOL

so im all set up for the month..... nd have only spent 40 pounds......

60 left on the sainsburys card.....

Im determined again to make this a successful month...... so ill just buy some milk and bread this week and move onto the next......

Id also like to do a bbq for friends this motnh ........ ill save that till the end to see how i get on and see how the weather goes....

All the best

Adam

Hi Adam

Sorry mate but GA tonight. Hopefully if they make the chatrooms and extra hour to finish at 10 then I can get on Tuesdays and on Thursdays. Three great GA meetings.

Always love reading your diary. The passion you put into your life and the enjoyment you get is immense. I hope one day I can get to that point of recovery as you inspire me, every day, every hour, every minute, one day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time mate

You are a beacon of hope on this site and keep turning up 

Thanks stuart for popping by........ that cheered me up no end......

Last night as i was stuck in the holiday night owl routine i didnt get to sleep till 5am..... then woke at nine for work.......  Work was good got a lot done......  Had a slepp early this eve after work...... also sat in the sun for an hour after work outside my flat.......also bought all my family an easter egg on way home......

Had sausage and chips today....then took out two sausages for tomo too.......

Got my injection tomo after work..... also will prob go get some soup on way back home tomo..... stock up for next few months of lunches......... potato and leek soup tomo.....

Paid for tnt sports today for aprill.......  must get the most out of my subscriptions....... and make sure i limit my spending on everytihing this month.....

Onwards i go..... feel like ive hit a stumbling block in life......bit of a platou...... so will strive this week to do a bit more to get more out of life...... will strive to do more steps tomo as only done 9k today and really down on the week again......

No holiday days unti lmay bank holidays now....... but the weather is lovely and i only work five hours a day so cant grumble.....

Another day done....... tow productive days at work........ Cleaned the recycling bins at work today along with daily tasks.......Then came home......after getting my injection......then sat in the sun..... was a lovely day...... then went to waitrose....... got milk bread crisps and a sausage.......also got a sandwich.....then a bit of a nap....and a bath.....  All in all a good day..... trying to be productive at work each day....tomo ill do gas audit..... and friday ill clean balconies for weeds......

also today i almost bought some alcohol....... thought i could have at weekend....... even tho i came to the conclusion that i wouldnt drink again....... goes to show how addictive it is......

If it makes you happy and you don't do it to excess then why not mate. Just make sure it's only one or two, once in a blue moon 

Been debating the alcohol for Friday night but think I'll stick with the teme of this thread ... Stick to what's got me to this point ....it isnt broke ....so no fixing it I guess.....

Went to work and grafted again.....felt a bit down but got thru it .....then a long nap and going to bed now for full night's sleep...

Short update

Hi Adam

What's troubling you mate to make you feel down or is it just one of life's small slumps. I know you are a long way down your road in recovery but I guess it's still easy to hit a rut in the road which slows you don't for a short period 

Just remember you have deep roots and as a tree you have grown high and keep growing 

Hi Adam

I'm a numbers guy and I've always had a special affiliation with the number 7. It's one of the most difficult numbers in maths being a nasty prime number but of course is 7 days per week as well.

So this is topic post 777. I can't post another entry lol until you read it as the count will change lol

I just wanted to say thank you for all the advice and help you have given me. Without you I wouldn't have got to where I am now. Knowing where you have come from and got to after so many years without gambling is inspiring. The fact that you have been honest about transparency is also helpful as it reminds me about complacency

Stuart 

Here u go mate......told u I read straight away haha