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Hey girl, so ya buzzed through that hedger cord ya did. Was it one of the electric models? Cause yeah that's why them handles on them are made of plastic. LOL happens quite often with them cords getting chompped threw like that and keeps the company in business. LOL Lol Lol yeah wanna say I've done it myself once and makes ya pay better attention to where that cords at next time.

So It's the weekend for you and up and enjoying it ya are. Good for you. Hell still got another night to get through over here but at least got in maybe 6 or 7 hours of sleep so shouldn't be to bad.

Yeah all is quiet in the bird house for now and the rest of the flock flew home. LOL seems they got their car up and running and out burning up that disability check she got yesterday. So yeah probably the only reason I got some decent sleep in today. LOL Lol Lol boy that was quite the show yesterday and more than likely would of been rolling on the floor laughing but Hell only got like 3 to 4 hours of sleep in. LOL only one more week of 3rd shift left so yeah hoping the sleep pattern improves.

Was gonna get at some house cleaning when I got home this morning and yeah little to none got done there. To fricken tired to be dealing with that and called it quits a few minutes into it. LOL so yeah that will be waiting for me when i get home tomorrow.

Hope your enjoying your time off.

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Day 0..I need to snap out...

f**k f**k f**k

Hey Sis,

I know the feeling all too well. You know what to do soldier. Gambling has done nothing for any of us. It was designed to make money for the gambling machine. If there was a chance for us to make money off of it they would have gone out of business a long time ago. It's a no win proposition for anybody let alone gambling addicts. The way WE win is by putting two fingers up WAY UP in their general direction. Let me join you today in wishing the gambling establishment a speedy trip back to hell! (((((((((S))))))))) -joanxxx

Hi Sandra

Totally agree

Thinking of you

Suzanne xx

I must of been feeling it too girl cause yeah I went in the radar and just got back. Didn't get picked up by it and quit at $135. But day 0 for me too.

Hi Sandra just thought I drop in and say I'm thinking of you as you and Julie posted to me at the start of my journey with such kind words and advice which I actually listened to and am now soldering on forever grateful hitthefanx

Thanx all,

Can I please ask a favour of u? Can u leave this tread for now plz? I'm done for a while and will not post in a near future. This habit beat me big time and I need t look for some coping mechanisms. I feel the need t post bk straight away, but I want t get selfish and bring it on my chin myself. It is a f****r...I am a f****r cause I let it happen.

Will deal wiv it one way or the other. Thanx for ur understanding but I don't want any support. Thank you all

KEEP UP THE FIGHT ONE DAY AT A TIME

S x

Dear diary,

As a day draws to a close I'm coming back to my senses. Can't put a lot, only want to say that no money is worth what a person goes through after stumbling and hitting the floor full force. It is ok, it is a slip, normal in recovery...not too costly financially. Gifted my precious 2 hfs to devil, looked into it's eyes while getting beaten with no sympathy. .heartless beast indeed..I shall put this chapter behind and get bk up fighting. Hurt, beaten but not defeated... once again thank you all and this site is just heavenly place, if not all of you I wouldn't of pulled through today ((((All))))

Soul - keep it going my friend, it is not going back to square one, it is another learning curve in this journey. None of us will ever be cured but we hav a full right t stick not even one but two fingers up to this disgusting b astard lol..hope u fired that bbq instead of leaving the main road for some crazy a** side road..and really hope the birds keeps a peace to ur ears, cause that can do ur head in if you trying to sleep lol

Joan - Sis..what I witnessed reading ur tread today is something unbelievable. In the best way possible. I'm a softie so yea, I admit I had a tear rolling down my face. Keep up good work soldier, and be so so proud of yourself. I am proud of you and someone above is high fiving you for your strength and determination 🙂

Dragonfly - d**n girl, I can see that colourful journal of yours. It is amazing to read it and I thank you for sharing. Your light blinds the world, helping people to see the way forward in a dark..thank you x

Suzanne - every penny counts 🙂 never let this evil habit to lure you bk in with a fake promises. I'm not the one to tell you that lol, but you are surely on a right track. Keep it up, there is better life out there 🙂 you deserve bit..just grab your life and hold on tight

SA - man, what a great achievement!!! Do not overthink work worries, make the best decision for yourself. Yea, think of yourself and what is best for you 🙂 you r doing rather well my friend, keep it up and enjoy your new found life

....and all of you behind the scenes..or not as active on here anymore...yes, you know who you are. You made a difference in this little heart today and I thank you so much..

Life is a huge lesson, we wouldn't pass the test without making mistakes on a way.

Bless you all and keep it up soldiers!!!! Battle only has begun, let's do it 🙂 All the way!!!

S x

Hi Sandra

always here for you as you were for me

Together we unite we will not be beaten

Castle2

Hiya Sis,

I'm thinking it's safe to drop you a note on your thread? Just watching the sun go down over hear and not hatching any real heavy thoughts. I wish I could give you a ginormous hug. I would if I could. (((((((((((((Sis)))))))))))))))) -joanxxx

Hey Sandra

Good to see you straight back with the determination and strength needed to better you days. Well done.

Take care.

Feb.

Hi Sandra hope your doing ok. I am in a lot pain too want to chat about it?

CL

Hi Sandra

Picking yourself up dusting yourself off and carrying on

The fight

What a lady you are

very well done we all fall down but it's when we can't get back up the ///// hits the fan

That's not going to happen to you today determination and strength to get through each day you know it's the only way out of the nightmare you must do it for yourself

Hey You did not sink you swam back up and that is so positive

Suzanne xx

Awe Sh-it girl and somethings never change and that's me getting the replies to your page. LOL new day and better ones awaiting so yeah don't look back at the cr-ap ones. Hope all is better today.

Hope you have a good day sandra.

Bring it on!

Gazza