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Hi Sandra,

Hope things improve soon, you are in my thoughts.

Just wondered, is there anybody that you can talk to about your relapse away from this forum? Maybe a friend or relative that you can just talk it all through with.......

Hope your Dad is going to be ok.

Keep strong hun

Ade xx

Hey Julie,

Thanks for the offer and kind wishes. I'm afraid i have deleted your details and address also...as you know this decision been reached for recovery reasons and i for one really don't wonna give ya more mindfook on the way lol..serious here.

Keep looking after yourself and thanx for touching the base..hope your recovery is as strong as always.

Take care.

....now...dear diary,

All is as good as it can possibly be.. no gambling planned so just get home some time tomorrow, hav a kip, visit councellor, back to work...very similar to work, eat, Smile - repeat :-))))))))) HD

Would love to sit and chat but duties are calling..
Will not let gmbling to take more away as it already took ( a stone lighter lol)....bas***d!

S

Ps. Gonna do my best and update my diary daily...made a promise (more less been threatened by Rach (Dotty girl) to come and hunt me down if i don't keep connected....and trust me, none of you would want that crazy driver coming on your driveway 😉 )..love yaaaaaaa really 🙂 and thanx for the support from the sidelines x

Thanks for the reply to my question Sandra.

Feel free to contact gamcare for my e-mail address if you ever need to talk. Don't suffer on your own, when it's a struggle....

Keep strong

Ade x

Progress not perfection indeedy!

No probs, just keep strong hun......you know you can do it.

Ade x

Thank you Ade, ya never know when little email will pop on your computer screen...and then you're in trouble lol

Dear diary,

Very little sleep but manageable. Stressful night at work but defo not as stressful as last few days. Still raw, still smiling through tears but taking on the fight and keeping belief intact.
i know it will get better and i will push through the dark times. No more escapes..no more pain.

Off to see councellor in a bit (do feel sorry for her already..tired, ranty Sandra on the way lol..but hope i can have my little let out and come bk fighting as always)

Another day of abstaining and maintaining..pushing through - choosing life.

Keep up good work all, don't leave any gaps for this sneaky addiction to get through..it will only hurt and we don't need pain anymore..we all been there, time for a change. Keep winning one day at a time

S x

Ha ha! Well the offer is always there. All way good to ramble rather than gamble eh!!

Good luck with the councillor..... ;0)

Ade

Hi Sandra
Keep pushing forward girl, you know you can do this and I am right beside you
Cheryl xx

Hi S,

Hope seeing the counsellor goes well, sure it will for you(not so sure about her lol) xx

Keep pushing through, as long as you think recovery, progress is definitely going on.Rome was not built in a day and nor were we.

Small steps girl, even if it's 2 forward and 1 back it's still 1 forward,

Must be having dippy blonde day (again lol) because have not decipherd the 2 "00"s, ??? HD

Might have to ask our dear friend ginger, Oh HD

Take care, stay safe and look after YOU,

Sxxxxxx

OOOOOh S,

What are we like HD,

It sure has turned out nice again OOO Happy Days.

Take care my little friend

Suzannnneeee xxx

PS I keep replying on my own diary HD Oooh dippy blonde am I, xxxx

Sandra

glad my post yesterday helped you to seek control again.

Life will improve without the self gifting our souls to addiction.

You know where to find me 24/7

unconditionally my friend.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hey up crazy gal 🙂

I didn't realise the pact was 8 hours fixed...Will set my alarm for tomorrow 😉 Sat with one of the regulars on the train this morning (being polite) & then I try to avoid looking @ it when I'm @ work as I keep wanting to sneak off to the toilet to post :-0

But I am here now & I will put you out of your misery...Touching my thumb & my middle finger on my left hand makes me smile! If this works, & it will coz it's all in the mind, you owe me £200 yeah 😉

Good to see you fulfilled your punishment (even if it wasn't quite in the way you were supposed to), your blip is forgiven & forgotten!

Have you tried making sand Angels on the beach? That could be your happy place! Hope the counselling went well & you've come out fighting rather than going in like that 😉

Welcome back to recovery you - Juuuuuune

Just checking in after my 8 hours - don't want you telling me off 😉 I was thinking I should ease off but I won't take a break without an explanation, I promise!

Good to see the weather man was right...It turned out nice again - HD! Back to sleep now...Zzzzzz

Never underestimate the power of a sand angel my friend! Next time come rain or shine, give it a go, I bet it makes you feel amazing!

Lovely to hear you in a better place & even better that you owe me 200 quid 😉

I'm not sure how you have the cheek to call me bonkers but I'll let you off since you make me laugh so 🙂

Never give up on you! Smile, smile, smile OMAAT - Juuuuuune

Hi S,

Thanks for your message, sending you a big fat POSITIVE today, because we do want it to turn out nice again HD

Sxxxxxxx

Hi Golf ball,

Just checking all is good with you today....

Keep strong

Ade x