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Thanks for your post. I don't think you were a b****h (not to me anyway)...you are absolutely right to say if something isn't sitting with you well....or if my "wise words" didn't feel so wise or were actually a bit annoying. It's good to say how you feel 🙂

I suppose there's just something about you... I don't know what it is...something that makes me feel we've walked similar paths. I don't know your full story, but snippets here and there make me think "yeah, I've felt that too". And so, when I feel so much better than I did... and when I see some of the things you say...I want to shout and say "do this, do that..blah, blah,blah"...because I know it works. I've walked that path and I've got to a much better place and I know it can be done but I do come over a bit religious fundamentalist about it and I have to learn to back off 😉

I am happy that you've recognised ( or maybe you've always known) what you need to do. I'm hoping that the kicks up the jacksy have worked (i'm guessing your dear Seuso has had a major part in that) and I'll be here cheering you on from the sidelines 🙂

LB x

Just got home and read your post on my diary. My bed is calling ( I'm not getting any younger...I need my sleep!) but wanted to say I'll reply tomorrow.

Bath a pony...lol...don't think that would go too well 🙂

LB x

Great to see you are still winning at gambling Suzanne - by not gambling.

Paul

Thanks Paul, i shall pass it on to S ☺

Dear diary!

Work missed me 😀 ..ballons, fireworks and welcome bk posters all over the place ☺...wow...only when i smiled & waved at top boss and got the most evil look in return i had to blink twice and see all the faces around me...angry, fed up, tired and so on..no ballons or fireworks just the massive engines of machinery being heard outside the place :-/
Head down and fill form in, head upstairs, show my presence and a promising look to boot lol..i am fit for work so that's the start 😉

Oh well... at least I'm here and as guessed - nightmare continues! Witches laugh whhoooaaaaa

But ya know what - no gambling, no booze...just my lovely co workers & 8 hrs to go lol lol

Signing out, all is cool in my little world ☺

Tipu tapu

Hai S,

I'm going to tell you a little secret. 8hrs is really only 480 mins. So if you break that down to -

A few chats to work mates @ 6mins a chat Г— 6 peeps = 36 min
3 toilet breaks @ 7 mins = 21 min.
2 Г— tea breaks @ 16 min = 32 min
1Г— lunch break @ 31 min = 31min
2Г— smokoes @ 11 min = 22 min
1Г— telling boss there good @ 21 min.

So you've really only got 319 minutes. Easy peasy.

Our little secret right...

☺ V...

3...2...1... and now - just chill :-)..it's Friday

https://youtu.be/K-qFyinrniI

Hi, Sandra,

Thanks very much for your post. My daughter has a major case of flu, poor girl, she hasn't moved all week and she passed the same virus to my husband, who now has man flu. And possibly flu. She's stressed because the exam dates won't change, even though she's lost a week.

Other than that, things aren't too bad, his therapy sessions are less frequent than mine so it's slow, no lightbulbs yet but his behaviour is ok.

Glad to see you're fit for work, better than not but sorry that you're work is a nightmare for you. Can you look again at your work life? Not changing a situation is also an effective decision.

I saw a few of your other posts, including last night's ... I really admire you, you knew exactly what to say. Just follow your own advice and stick with the spirituality and you'll be fine!!!

Take care of yourself,

CW

Thanks CW, responded in the other side of the fence ☺

Dear diary,

Not happy!!! (Grumpy face). Done my job, done my volunteering and bam...mr A appears out of nowhere! (Grumpy/angry face)..w*f..i can go sober a week and then that's it?..bloody alci!!!
Not happy at all :-(((..safely home and was amazed that didn't get my fix while getting cat food at local shop cause was close.
HP working well, but i guess i expect "calmness" every day which is not gonna be the case! I know i will have my ups and downs...and just maybe, if i think clearly...cmon Sandra...think clearly...i had busy shift last night, i only clapped my eyelids this morning, i didn't eat, i rushed out to do good deed for society & just maybe it all is hitting me back in the face? :-/...maybe...i also aknowledge that it's my weekend off and fully agree with one soul who mentioned that my need for alcohol is the sense of "relaxation/winding down after stressful work. I agree. I see alcohol as calm escape, reward for myself...but i MUST remember a day after my "party"...i feel S***e, i feel angry, sick and world's enemy! I cannot drink responsibly because a glass is not enough! I feel the need to drink till i drop down!

Well...f**k you mr A! Not today! AGGRRRRR!!!! ...gonna fix a sandwich, cup of tea (green ...calming) and put my feet up for a while! Later watch a movie or so and hopefully have a sound sleep ☺...

Bahh...ranting...ohhhhh..

No gambling to report (angel face)

Over and out grumpy cow lol

Don't beat yourself because you had a drink.

Do you have the withdrawal shakes or a bottle next to your bed? I think not. Just make sure that you eat well and drink plenty of other good fluids.

I can't speak for you but I think it's dangerous ground when we get paranoid because we haven't been holier than thou! We are but simple humans getting by in the 21st century.....

Hi diary!

Well well well...another day is here & so far so good ☺
Went shopping and even can proudly call myself big spender 😀 bought new bed sheets and pillows and all what goes with it lol...wrestled an idea about mattress but thought against it...too small car to carry it on the roof besides it's raining ha! (Yep Suzanne, i guess your purchase was catching lol)

Visited sister, planned tommorow! So yep...tommorow i am spending the day with lil man...his bday & we will have an awesome time no doubt about it! Bowling and pizza Hut to boot!

Buzzing and on the way to the beach! Yup...i hope peace will follow me!

Was thinking of stepping out on that dance floor tonight lol..still not sure! Been a while and not sure i can walk on high heels anymore lol..we shall see !

That's me! No gambling no drink! Buzz of real normal life - yay!!! Keep it coming ☺

https://youtu.be/5yXQJBU8A28

Well done Suzanne ☺

Before I lost my hand, I use to be one of the best dancers in the UK.

Yep, I still lie.

Proud of you Sis! Thanks for your help last night. We can do this! xxx joan

Hi...just a quick stop by . Seems like you're going great guns...good on ya! Tipu Tapu seems to be working well for you (although every time I read it, I think of T'pau and end up with " China In Your Hand" going around in my head all day...so thanks for that )

Daughter's ok again now, thanks. Back to school (yay!). Bit of a worry...and she may have similar problem again...but for now, we've got to wait and see.

LB x

hopeful soul wrote: Hi diary! Well well well...another day is here & so far so good ☺ Went shopping and even can proudly call myself big spender 😀 bought new bed sheets and pillows and all what goes with it lol...wrestled an idea about mattress but thought against it...too small car to carry it on the roof besides it's raining ha! (Yep Suzanne, i guess your purchase was catching lol) Visited sister, planned tommorow! So yep...tommorow i am spending the day with lil man...his bday & we will have an awesome time no doubt about it! Bowling and pizza Hut to boot! Buzzing and on the way to the beach! Yup...i hope peace will follow me! Was thinking of stepping out on that dance floor tonight lol..still not sure! Been a while and not sure i can walk on high heels anymore lol..we shall see ! That's me! No gambling no drink! Buzz of real normal life - yay!!! Keep it coming ☺ https://youtu.be/5yXQJBU8A28

Simple progress too hopeful soul. Keep it up and thanks for the visit on my diary. Its very much appreciated. tri

Thanks peeps

Dear diary,

Deep breath...moon is bright and that lil star is there next to it. Weirdly watched it following the moon all evening ....huh...Earth is turning around & time is not gonna stop ticking so i can get my sh ite together and get ready for the day ahead lol

1. Patience
2. Belief
3. Kindness
4. Determination
5. Steady breaths..... (should b 1st but i shall tk it 😉 )

No gambling, no drink....looooaaddsssss of urges! I will get over it

Thanks diary.