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Hey Sis,

Nothing I can say that hasn't already been said. Willing you the strength to push through. A minute at a time til you find the strength to slap that urge back where it belongs. xxx

Take care all & stay safe.

No there isn't any happy go clappy recovery, least not that i've found so far. I am keeping an eye out still 🙂

thanks for everything you are doing on here Sandra. We all need a bit of a helping hand sometimes, so i'm offering you mine. Could be for a hug or just a hand of friendship. Stay safe tri 🙂

Hi S

Soz I haven't replied a while, I'm struggling a little..took my wife to work this morning, came home and returned to bed 🙁 ...only just resurfaced from under the duvet ..depressive state brought on by my self destruction ...only time can help me heal these wounds..you're so right Coo Coo this is so irrational ..all I crave is normality ...something I had a while back before gambling it all away.. like you say "never give up giving up"...haven't moved much along my recovery road of late:-(( ..but thankfully haven't gone backwards ...I'm sorry I'm not much support to others but I will bounce back ..with time (my greatest healer)

Oh some good news, the dentist didn't pull all my teeth out ;-))) ...infact she said no need for six monthly's, once a year from now on for Ginge.

Thanks for everything Coo Coo...like you I'm working hard at never going backwards ..Ginger.

Hi Sandra, thanks for your support, you're always there for a helpful comment at the right time continue taking your own advise you will walk this recovery lark and i for one will be delighted to be following your journey, never give up on giving up.

KTF

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Hey S x x

I'm reading that you are doing f*****g GREAT!!!!! but that there are a lot of pressures on you right now and some days these feel overwhelming. I know it is easier said than done but put yourself first if you can. People pleasing means you say "Yes" to them but "No" to yourself. I believe you are under a lot of pressure and it is 100% good for you to put yourself first and make sure that heart does not get overwhelmed.

I can relate to your feelings of vulnerability following the referendum result. I, of course, voted to remain. I'm not an immigrant to this country but have felt vulnerable and lack of security or predictability of the future due to depression and anxiety. It's a feeling of not having control, that the rug might be whipped away from under you at any time. It's a big fear. Don't belittle it for yourself.

It's such a happy time looking to buy your own place. Please don't feel guilty because others are unable to do so. This is your happy exciting moment and you deserve it. It gives a feeling of more security and control in another way and can give you more financial stability which is huge in today's world.

Keep taking care of you, everyone else can take care of themselves, they're adults 🙂

f x

hopeful soul wrote: Diary, Ranting mood. Selfishness in people. Yup, if you can find a balance in that, it's ok. You have to be selfish to the extent...However when one crosses mountains and seas just to make someone else happier or felt appreciated and respected it goes back in your face like tonne of bricks. How does that works out? Some people doesn't understand how much it takes to person to do things they might feel uncomfortable with or has to go through toughest times so they get there. Selfishness and being self centred is damaging for society. World is cruel and doubt it will change any time soon. People living in glass houses huh... Anyway, rant over - HALT. No more explanation needed. No gambling, that's good stuff. Drink? Maybe will have few today, selfish act but it's ok to be like that sometimes huh..I'll be the judge of that. 2 weeks and jetting off bk home. Sadly got two way ticket lol..cannot get rid of me this easy ☺ Stay safe all - one day at a time. S x

Thanks for being a nicer part of society Sandra, SIR Tri

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Reflect & learn Sesuo...Only you can do this & you can - ODAAT

Sorry to be harsh, Sandra, but you know the phrase about a head full of thought and a belly full of beer? Or actions speaking louder than words? Or nothing changes if nothing changes?

The "it's not worth the effort" thoughts are, as you well know, merely the addiction talking, why listen? Maybe reread your diary when you were sober, you sounded so much happier. Not problem free because no one is problem free but happier.

You are worth it. How about not gambling and not drinking, just for today? For you?

Take care,

CW

Hi S
I have commented before on the facr that your alcohol abuse should probably be your initial focus. If you wont commit to AA meetings, then consider contacting Turning Point. They have been treating substance abuse for 50 years & are quite holistic in their methods. They have offices spread around the country, maybe worth investigating

Hiya S , Thank you for dropping by and your kind words and thoughts :)).

Really sorry to hear of your struggles , good news about the gambling but not so with the other eh ? :((.

I guess we all still have our demons somewhere around , mine seem to be working too much of late , my body can't keep up with the hours my mind wants to work sometimes and really need to take more time out occasionally and not feel guilty because I shut the shop too often .

I think our addictions are sometimes like the pokemon the kids are chasing around , we shuffle along in recovery slowly moving forward but when we look up or turn a corner , there it is lying in wait ? But no points for us eh S and no prizes.

All we can do is keep moving forward one day at a time and hope we learn to dodge the monsters that lay in our path or better still work out the way around from our map of recovery ?.

Sending you some good and positive thoughts that you'll push through that stiff door thats blocking your way :)).

Take care S , xx

Thanks Sandra for the thoughts. Soldiers in recovery Tri

Thank you for your kind words on my diary , they made me smile also 🙂 ... You are so right in what you said about past memories ( the bad ones )

It's so nice to have people that understand and don't judge