Gems diary

Hi Freda

Thankyou for your positive words i think i need them today

Gemgem

Hi Gem,

Im in the same boat as you, this is my first time on gamcare. I've overlooked it and been complacent as I've slid back into slot machines so many times. But the commitment of a diary cannot be beaten. It generally feels like a repellent as well, as you put so much time and effort into a diary it would feel like such a big waste to break it. As time passes you will notice a change in yourself and your money situation.

I cant say what its like to completely beat it as I haven't but I really hope this is the one time you get through it forever!

Sam

I haven't been ignoring my commitment to my diary in the past week but have been keeping myself more focussed and occupied. At times I have had real battles with myself against my feelings of guilt, trying and thankfully succeeding up until now my urges to slip back to the old me. My euphoria moment has long gone and my reality of what I've done now is hitting me hard but I know its all part of the process

C

Gemgem

Hi Gem

Welcome to this forum and a huge well done on what you have done so far. I too, work with addicts of substance and so could relate to your story.

I would say the best thing to have helped me to abstain from gambling for almost 2 years now, are the blocks on my laptop and mobile. I got my sister to put in the passwords too.

Good luck with your new journey and stay strong.

Feb.

Hi Gem,

Well done on staying gamble free.

The aftermath of what gambling has done to our lives, is a very sobering lesson to take on board, but by staying gamble free, we can move forwards to a better healthier happier and saner life.

There is no quick fix but everyday we abstain we do win, because we are slowly but surely getting our life back.

Stay strong and keep going

Suzanne xx

Thanks for all your support

Does it get better, I feel more vulnerable and stressed about everything this week, I have lost that 'high' feeling I seemed to accquire last week and a more low mood looms over me at times. I cant imagine never betting again although I keep saying to myself I had that feeling when I stopped smoking 8 months ago and although this seems very much harder

Even though I have blocks n place I feel uneasy around the computer and at times I feel its trying to pull me in.

I must keep strong.

Hi gemgem

I think its a bit of a rollercoaster really with its highs and lows. You have done great so far, and you are moving in the right direction. You can do it.

Stux

Hi Gem

Keep going through the good and hard of the journey, love yourself and remember with gambling we have so much more to lose. The time spent gambling took a large part of your time I suspect and I know with me that was when I had time to reflect on my actions and so don't be hard on yourself. Keep focused on the end goal

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

Hi Gem,

There are highs and Lows on this journey of recovery, embrace the highs and push through the lows, they don't last long.

You are doing great, keep going and stay strong and positive.

Suzanne xx