Going to keep this thread now!

thanks wp and Jas,

Im ok. Was a bit fraught yesterday - i can get a bit flustered and het up, but bit better today.

Married life is lovely, but not much different to living in sin if im honest! (sorry Jesus).

Today is day 12. Today I wont gamble.

I am thinking of trying a GA meeting tomorrow night, but am going to see how I am then. I still get bad days with depression and anxiety, so I just have to do my best each day. Hopefully I will feel up to going.

Im off to my meditation class tonight. I hope our regular teacher is back, he is very inspirational and uplifting. Last week was good, but I haven't seen our teacher for weeks and weeks.

Hi Freda,thank you for your message,pleased to read that your feeling better today.....,interesting that you are thinking about going to GA (not sure if you have been before) i would certainly think carefully about going if your not feeling on top of your game Freda,it can be very nerveracking at first.Good luck if you do go :).

Seano.

Thanks Seano,

I know what you mean. Its not because I am not taking my recovery seriously that I have never been to GA, Im just aware that Im still not well, with my depression and anxiety. Other self help groups in the past have been very stressful and not helpful at all. It does not make me feel better to trade war stories!

Anyway, I will see. Today is day 13, today I will not gamble.

Hi Freda,i have been to GA in the past,and while i use lots of strategies they advise,which i find invaluable....,not managing my own money,having very limited access to cash,etc...i found the meetings extremely stressful aqnd i'm ashamed to say that i actually came to blows with a really nasty bloke two weeks running when i last went!!!.....,i guess each group is "dynamic" and the atmosphere in the room revolves very much around the personalities in the room.I know for sure i wouldn't cope at present.Getting hold of some of the GA lterature can though be very helpful.I'm not trying to discourageyou Freda,it's more a case of me suffering pretty much the same mental condition to you gives me a good insight into how you may react.:).

Seano.

Thanks Seano,

I know what you mean. I didn't go. I think I may try a few meetings in the summer when I don't have work on as well. Then if I get stressed and need a duvet day, it wont affect my job.

I do love my job sometimes! I got a high five off a 5 year old this afternoon. So cute!

I have got a relapse prevention chart off my counsellor, and that is helpful. It shows common triggers.

I did an exercise DVD this morning, and cooked a healthy tea for me and mr f this evening. Feeling good, and full of energy. Friday tomorrow, then 5 more weeks til my 6 week holiday from work.

I know I just work part time, at an easy job, but I am so very proud of myself and how well I have coped with everything that has come up this year. Its been full of change, and therefore fear, but Im still in one piece!

Today was day 14 - and I didn't gamble 🙂

Hi Freda

Thanks as always for posting on my diary, congrats on the 2 weeks, keep it going!

Nice last post, dont remind me about the 6 weeks hol, trying to find childminder, lol!

Anyway Freda almost known you a year now on this forum, so i take this opportunity to thank you for all your kindness and high fives, lol!

I stand by what i said a long time ago, your a sweety! Keep battling and i hope you have good weekend (gamble free of course)!

take care, ands xx

Thanks ands,

Takes one to know one 😉

Today is day 16, and I will not gamble today! Hell no!

Thanks for your support freda....ive never been into book reading usually my mind wanders lol...i may check it out though at the library...16 days and counting....keep going we can do this 🙂

Today is day 17, today I will not gamble.

Payday tomorrow though, so I shall be on my guard.

Cant post on diaries today as hubby has his mates round and PC is in living room. I will have to have a catch up session in the morning!

Day 18 - today I will not gamble.

Feeling a bit upset today. Its my irrational thinking patterns! Family party that I wasn't invited to. Of course I wasn't invited, it was by the people who were not welcome at my wedding - so even though it is illogical, feeling hurt. Just an upsetting situation.

No reason to gamble though is it?

Will catch up diaries later, and see what is happening in your worlds.

Hi Freda,thanks for the message,sorry your feeling a bit upset.....,nothing to really worry about though is it?...,as you say we have daft thought patterns and things get hugely out of perspective....,put it in a mental box and park it in the bin!!!.

Seano.

Hi f,

Thanks for your post on my diary. Had a little giggle at your post on Jeff's diary too. I've now developed a great plan for you when you're feeling a bit rubbish. David Beckhams b*m!!

I hope you can appreciate, that having Beckham's b*m typed into my search engine is a very dangerous game for a very straight man lol.

Chin up and Stay Strong

Steve

Cor! that got me pulse racing Steve! ;-P

today is day 19, I will not gamble today. Feels good being back on the wagon!

Yeeeeeeeeeeee haaaaaaaaaaaaa

you stay on the wagon girl !!!!!!

Take it easy (with a cadbury caramel if you like )

Kim xx

STAY STRONG

Hi f,

Yup... irrational thinking patterns are no reason to gamble.. but when in bad headpsace we make them reasons to gamble. Well done for not gambling... keep it up. Hope your having a good week. S.A 🙂