Day one, in the aftermath of burning £3,000, through online roulette and the Man United loss to Southampton (argh).
The weird thing is, that I can live with losing that much money because I'd say around half of it was profit I had made through gambling. I can make back the net loss in around a month at work.
The difficulty I have is the weird temptations. One minute you are resolute - I will not do this again, and I can put it in the past. Then I am driving home on my own and the thoughts come back. Deposit £6,000 and put it on a 1/2 and get the £3,000 back. Put £3,000 on black. Get it back, then the feeling of guilt will be gone and will be replaced with relief. That would be lesson learned and move on with a clear conscience.
Then I remind myself how low I am feeling and how much worse it would be if I risked that and lost.
I keep telling myself that if my net loss is around £1,500, that's not a bad price to pay for around six months of "entertainment" and doing something that I enjoyed. People pay more than that a year on other hobbies that I don't do.
The god d**n, dirty b*****d temptations to go back though, they are burning me badly. Get it back, kill this feeling off. But can't, just can't, risk losing another £6,000. That would buy a car.....
Day One.
Well done on day 1 negotiated.
The fact is if you won back the 1500 it wouldn't just be a relief;it would be a buzz,a buzz you would crave more,which would lead to more enivatable losses.
Get of the merry go round;forget about the 1500 it's gone,draw a line under it and move on.
Your on the right path now my friend,stay strong and keep resisting those urges.
All the best trigger
Day 2 🙂
That car will come but only with hard work & determination to stop this nonsense now! You have not been doing this long so you know you don't need it in your life to function like some if us believe @ the start of our journey. As Trigger says, draw a line in the sand now (the money has gone) & move on! You may want to consider professional help, you may be able to break the Time-Money-Location triangle yourself but get on here & get the advice you need to stop this now! It will drag you down further if you don't!
The urges will weaken as you keep fighting them - ODAAT
Thanks for the comments guys. You both know what I have in my head just now which helps!!
Day 2 so far, it's all I have really thought about, getting the money back. Thinking I can replace this awful feeling with one of relief.. Telling myself if I can get it back I will definitely stop. Telling myself to hold off a few months then revisit it when I might be less desperate!!
Have made plans to get out of the house tonight so hope that'll help me to think of something else.. Also worry that I'll be bad company as I will be sitting thinking about this...
Went on a site today and closed it straight away. Hoping these urges will weaken with time like you say!! Worried about Saturday most of all.. Aberdeen v Dundee, £6k on that and I could be out of this..
Day Two..
I know it's hard Mr.Chips but you've got to try to stop thinking like a gambler.
So what if you won your money back on Saturday, would you stop? I very much doubt it.
Think of that 1500 as an investment into making you quit this addiction for good,the best investment you will ever make.
Self exclude,give somebody control of your finances,don't give yourself any opportunity to act upon an urge.
Betting 6 grand is madness,let alone on Scottish football!
As myself and odaat have said draw a line under it,I guarantee you will be a wealthier,healthier,happier chap in the long run.
YOU CAN'T WIN COS YOU CAN'T STOP.
All the best trigger.
6k to try & recover 1 1/2, go figure?!? This amount of money is a crazy consideration & you won't be the 1st person on here to start with manageable debt & within seconds be petrified as to how you will make it through until next payday! You have escalated to betting huge amounts & you will not stop if by some miracle you recover the £1500 because then you will believe your luck has turned & can make more! The only people that win gambling are the Fat Cats behind the establishments that people like us give our money to!
Well done for excluding today, these 1st few days are vile, they really are (I barely made it out of bed) but I can assure you, one more loss (especially @ the stakes you are considering) will be a hell of a lot worse! I hope your evening was a distraction rather than a disappointment!
Keep choosing 'No' - ODAAT
Listen to these guys Mr Chips. There a hell of a lot of sense in the posts. You cannot win!!!! Quit now while you can afford to get yourself out of this.... I d**n well know I am. Stay Strong
Thanks for the comments guys.
Last night was hard - got the idea into my head of starting a notebook with -£3,000 at the top and starting up a gradual betting system to claw it back in small doses, noting the profit each time to hack away at the £3,000...
Very bad idea...
Today has been better! I've an appointment tomorrow with a Financial Advisor to get my savings put away into a locked ISA. Work has been busy so that has kept my mind off it. Also thinking about dipping in and spending a couple hundred pounds on flights to Paris to give to my other half on Valentine's Day - maybe to go away in May so that will give me something to work towards and break the cycle of routine!
Appreciative of the comments on here. Shaking my head thinking about the times I locked myself in the bathroom to take a few spins on online roulette... Urgh.
Day Three.
Well done for staying strong & realising the thoughts for what they were...Bad news trying to lure you back in! The addiction will keep trying, it will get easier to fight though especially once you let your loss go! Flights sound great...A much better use for your hard earned savings 🙂
May you no longer spend anymore time in the loo than you need to! You can do this - ODAAT
Find myself laughing at the loo thing. It's exactly what I used to do. Lol. Other 1/2 thought I needed to see a doctor 🙂 stay strong
That was a bleak day, I think I burned around £150 on live roulette that day and couldn't cope with being down so locked myself in the toilet with the laptop and kept spinning on double columns until I was even!
Seem to remember punting about £100 on black and scattering fivers on a few red numbers....... In the toilet........ To claw back a loss...... Lol!
Oh the joys of Toilet humour.... I remember spending so long with my elbows on my knees in the 'seated position' that I got severe pins and needles. Took me 10 minutes to get down the stairs again ! What on earth were we thinking..... I'm sure it's good to laugh about it but it's a sad state of affairs when it come to that !! :).
Keep fighting Mate. We can do this
Day Five.
Weekend. Treacherous. Staying strong... I don't want this addiction in my life!
Cheers mate.
Day Six, Aberdeen drew 3-3; I didn't bet but if I had done as planned I'd have lost £6,000... This feels good...
Irrespective mr.chips,if they would of won and you did bet and got your 1500 back,would you have stopped for good?
Being a cg I very much doubt it,you would always think in the back if you're head that you can gamble you're way out of trouble.
Great work on a week,you're off the losing;win ,lose, lose.,lose merry go round.
Keep strong.
All the best trigger.
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