HARMONY !

Just wanted to say hello and that you are in my thoughts

Hi Shiny,

Just popping in 2 say I hope u r ok and staying strong 🙂

I am thinking of u 🙂

Have a gr8 nite xxxxxxxxx

Shane! Shane! Come back Shane. Just referring to that old Gary Cooper Western Shiny. Only to emphasise the good and lasting effect you had on us all. I hope you're enjoying wherever you are and you are emotionally strong. If I never hear from you again then I'll be happy because I'll know that you are doing well yet you'll always be part of my thoughts and memories. The shine never fades, just glows peacefully.

Enjoy the moment, keep balanced.

Yo,

To be honest not doing so well . Not gambled so that's good .

But really really sad , am in the slow lane , with cones blocking my way back into the middle .

Recon this has been coming for a couple of weeks , been struggling sleeping , finding it harder and harder to post , reading other posts of relapse and daily struggles just added to it all.

So I appoligise for not getting back to those that have posted, but just not up to it . And do not want to add my sadness into your mix .

It will pass , it always does .

Sometimes the constant battle of fighting one addiction or another just wears you down .

Get on top of your game for a while and then another addiction becomes one you must fight , along with all the minds games , one experiences when convincing yourself that this must stop . The constant arguments with ones self can be very draining .

It becomes hard to accept that this is how your life will be for the rest of your days .

Most of the time I can cope but every now and again it gets the better of me, and I become very deflated and overwhelmed with sadness

No doubt within time a couple of days , a week a month I will push past this and kick the cones out of the way and get myself back into the middle .

🙁

Shiny xxxx

shiny my friend

carl

hey Shiny...

You can add your sadness,happiness up,downs and roundabouts to my mix anytime...as im DJ Rachie and the Dotski crew...

Just want to remind you in case you may have forgotton....

UNCONDITIONAL!!!!!

Hun..if you can't get it all out on here where can you?.you are amongst recovering GC"s and triers like me who truly understand...

Keep close...maybe its your turn to take for a while and let your self be carried by people who know ?..

You never add to my burdens hun..x I do a great job doing that all on my own...No one does on here even if they are having a rubbish time...when we are strong we carry and when we need help we allow ourselves to be carried...right?? ; 0 )

R and D xxx

The wheel will turn shiny, you may feel like you're on the bottom now but slowly and surely you will rise to the top again. You must not feel guilt or despair, those emotions will chew you up and spit you out. You have to be emotionally strong like Castle. Once you shed those feelings the serenity will return again, I know because I've been where you are now many, many times. Black Dog has chased me nearly all my life, when it bites it hurts and at times you never feel like it'll let go. What's worse is the lack of control, will it return, when, why me, the despair. You know the signs I guess, insomnia, lethargy, up and down, emotional. Here's the good news dear Shiny, you are strong because you've beaten this before probably many times before, you'll beat this again and it won't take that long this time I promise. You're wiser, tougher much more able than you think. Whatever happens to you from now on you'll find a way to cope. This is more than just not gambling, the gambling is an escape from it. You are amongst friends here, strong friends who have walked in your shoes, you're never alone, many understand. Try to work through it stage by stage, remember its emotional, post if you want to, be truthful, don't be afraid, everyone on here loves you and cares about you. Get as much rest and fresh air as possible. Take extra special care, you're never alone.

Steve

Hello Shiny,

You once told me to hang on in there as my dark days were fleeting and would pass. I have been wondering lately about whether you're right and it might just be better to be coasting in the middle lane. It's difficult when every high seems to be followed by a big downer. I see you're doing just that in the true Shiny spirit. Hanging on in there!

You have lots of friends and supporters here and I am sure when you have got through this rough patch you will be ready to reclaim your mantle as the Queen of Gamcare. You know I really understand what you're going through at the moment, alas I have the same disease as do many others. It effects us all in different ways and we learn as we go how to keep it under control. As promised I will read your diary. Hoping you feel better soon, take your time out and recover slowly. You taught me a valuable lesson, More Haste, Less speed.

Take care of yourself and best wishes from a loyal friend. x

As you say Shiny it will pass thats a secure thought.

In the mean time just take it as easy as u can and give yourself some treats maybe.

Hope your sleep improves soon!

Take care and God bless

hey shiny

just popping in....no pressure to post or anything....just to let you know im sending you good vibes astrally accross the GC airwaves....

R and D xx stll road building ,.lol x

Oops, just passing on my way to get showered, whilst I'm here I'd better wish you good morning. Hope you are ok and have a nice week. Keep busy, Steve

Hey Shiny one,

Just thought I would pop by to offer my roadsweep /super duper kick the s**t out of cone's machine that I picked up yesteday at the car boot.

You will be cruising back in that middle lane before you know it. Nothing lasts forever right. !

Take care, go easy on yourself, Should you need reminding remember everything that you have achieved so far those positive days will come back.

Chin up

Blondie xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hey Shiny,

I never know what to say. My thoughts get all bottle necked and I wind up just standing there looking like a deer in the head lights. Bottom jaw sort of slack and hanging opened. Not a very pretty image.. I will just say this; you are wise, and brave, and honest, and caring, and strong and you WILL find your middle again. I have no doubt. You dont have to take care of everybody Shiny. Just do whatever you need to do to feel better and know that we are all here together in this. It's always something you know.... MASSIVE HUGS Shiny. -joan

Hi Shiny,

Just wanted 2 say, I am sorry u r feeling down... I hope things get better 4 u soon 🙂

I'm thinking of u 🙂

We r all here if u need us 🙂

Stay strong xxxxxxxx

Hi Shiny... just to say that I relate to your last post. It all feels a bit relentless sometimes I agree. When I feel low my life just feels like a constant battle not to indulge in compulsive and addictive behaviours. But like you say, ones thinking and outlook changes in time. Hope you feel in a better place soon. Regards... S.A 🙂