Hope

Hi SA, I'm so sorry to read what has happened. You do whatever you need to do at this point....if it means going back home to be safe and looked after then so be it. Keep safe and thinking of you. Russ

So sorry to read that SA,just when i felt you were getting things sorted out (return to employment etc),if going back into the bosom of your family will help then that's what you must do,.....anything to keep you safe:).

Seano.

Hi S.A

So sorry to read your last post..My thoughts are with you at this difficult time.

As Russ has said if going home gives you that support and a bit of breathing space to help you get things back together, then i too think its for the best.

But you really have to do now what you think is best for you my friend. Maybe a change like that will help your current situation. It doesn't have to be forever, just a bit of time to sort things out.

Hang in there S.A.

Now back to your corner and come out fighting.

Wishing you well

S.A

I only started reposting about 6 weeks ago and have found so many of your entries and comments interesting and helpful, I'm gutted for you to hear of your slip but you know that you will bounce back from this

Like so many others on this website I wish you well and hope that you manage to get that support from your family,

take care of yourself

dan

Hi S.A

You are right- family is what matters and the most important thing to them is that you are safe and well. You yourself have been so supportive to other people here, myself included- it is ok for you to get some support from the people around you- don't feel bad about it. The people who care about you will want to be there for you.

You can, and will get through this.

Take care of yourself

hi SA...dunno what too say really ..... you were the one person i thought that wud never slip up what happened??? was it online you lost your money? if so you know what needs too be done!!! i think you need too be back at your mums too help you through it and im sorry you feel so down.... hitting rock bottom as ppl call it is a cry for help!!!! hope u r ok stay safe hun tc shell x

Hi Sa

Really sorry to hear about your slip and it's devastating consequences. As others have said, if going back to the heart of your family helps then I would think that's the best option.

d**n this bast**d addiction to hell and I wish the decision makers within the industry could spend 5 minutes a day reading what their business does to good people like yourself SA. To hell with the lot of them.

Everyone on here is thinking about you SA

Good luck

Deeds

Thanks all.

I just gotta start over. I feel as low as ive ever felt but the worst is over... for the first few hours i was a danger to myself but thats past now. Today I will not gamble

Oh SA,

I just read your thread. (((SA)))

I'm sorry you are going through such a tough time. Make sure you stay safe you hear?

Do you think you need to think about some meds? I'm not sure if you have ever gone down that route. Sounds like you gave yourself a big fright.

You take care,

f x

SA, just caught up with your diary mate and want to say you have my full support. You know what to do SA, youve abstained for long periods before and WILL do it again. Don't dwell on the past, because its the future that counts

One day at a time my friend and I hope the move home (if you choose that route) helps you,

When I read your diary, my hatred for all things gambling grew inside me even more.

Chin up and take care

Blues

s.a youve been there for me my friend.....hopefully as others have said a little time with family may lift your spirits...a wee change of scenery sometimes does you the world of good too..like me you need these diaries mate but most of all these diaries need YOU...chin up my friend,we re all here for you 😉

Hi mate,

I read your post very quickly this morning before I went to work and you have been on my mind a lot during the day.

So, so sorry to hear of your latest setback but like many of us on here, you have our full support and we totally understand your situation.

Yes, please accept any family help that may be offered to you. There is absolutely no shame in doing this my friend as we are all in a very difficult journey and for some, there may unfortunately be rock bottoms to hit. It is sad that it has happened to you but like you said this morning, you have got over the worst of it. It's amazing what a few hours and a few days can do and you will feel much better soon.

I know you far too well (even though we have never met) to believe that you WILL come back from this. You have done it before and you WILL do it again, this time for good. But let's just concentrate on the present and think about one day at a time.

Blocks. Get them in. Whatever you did, online or elsewhere, block them permanently. But you already know this. Nag over.

I won't go too far on how much I really hate this gambling business on here as I will do this on my diary but don't let this hatred get to you. Please look after number one and please take advice or help that you are offered.

Stay very safe and I hope that you have a good evening.

Getting There

Hi SA

I have read through the most of your diary (as much as I could in last few hours)...

You are a real gem mate. One of life's champions. You may not feel it right now but there is so much light flowing through your diary. It's darkness seems overwhelming when it hits you hard - but please try to take in heart in that your dedication to your diary - your helpful and reflective comments have sure helped me along my way (and I'm only just beginning).

You are an asset to the help of this site. You are an asset to anyone trying to rid themselves of this vile curse and you are, quite simply, a class person.

Please try to take heart in the fact that so many people wish you well...and that's no coincidence.

I wish you the very best of health and I'm sure that your recent fall was a mere dropped stitch in life's rich tapestry.

Take care

Matt

Hi SA--so sorry to hear you have felt so low. It is a few years now since I was in a similar situation but I can recall it as if it was yesterday. Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide, nobody else could have felt like me--admitted to hospital for my own safety and put on to strong meds. I was really as low as I can go---but do you know what, I have never been that low again-although my gambling drove me close at times--the thing is if you are absolutely at the bottom, there is only one way to go and that is up.

I still get down quickly and probably a lot more than I should but I now bounce back so much quicker than before. The experience has made me stronger and I am sure that this experience will also make you stronger, hopefully sooner rather than later.

Glad to see that your family are there to listen and offer advice. Returning to the nest is something that can certainly help--my own daughter did it over a year ago.

Keep posting mate as you can see you have a tremendous amount of support on here.

All the very best--keep looking forward

Stumper

SA.................. ZILLIONTH TIME FOLLOWED YOUR DIARY, BUT ONLY 1ST TIME TO SAY HERE AND WILLING YOU ON TOP MAN!!!!!