Hope

ditto to Womble....

and also...congratulations on your new career....Mr.town planner!! lol

This forum really does bring hidden talents to the surface...

I have no idea where that woman is going after she leaves but god help whoever inherits her....Iis she being replaced I wonder?

I reckon another idea is you and Womble setting up your own private centre...what could be better???...If Patch Adams can do it...so can you both..!!

Bluesky thinking on this grey cold day..

R and D xx

Day 67

Ah bless you everyone. First thing i do when i get home is come on here (after putting the kettle on of course).. and its heart warming to read your thoughts and to appreciate that actually when all is said and done I am coping remarkably well.

Today was difficult but am proud of how i conducted myself. I think the most stressful thing about my current work situation is the incredible uncertainty and insecurity that pervades my work place. Every day is like pschological warfare. The c*** boss really has f***** with peoples minds and its almost like... who's gonna break first?? who's going to walk first?? whats going to happen??

What worries me the most is a sudden exodus of certain key players... 2 or 3 of my collegues who along with myself help to keep the clients and the routines of the place ticking over, despite all the unpleasantness that eminates from having a very self-centered boss. There is a very real possibility that everything will just collapse and then suddenly i will be the only experinced staff member left. I am catastrophising but this may happen.

This is why i am very much just taking each day as it comes.. really trying to focus upon the here and now and not looking too much beyond that... and it does work. Doing my best not to worry excessively about the future and just doing my job and not gambling and keeping running and keeping writing and not drinking and chilling out and generally being good to myself.

Thanks for listening. Gym beckons. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Sa

sh#t i met your boss lol, do every year!!

She puts on a white coat and hat and pokes around in the fridges and generally makes our lives a misery!!!!

In my line of work they are the eho !!

I will take your advice my friend and get a red carpet to roll out upon her arrival. Lol!!!

Thanks for sharing!! I shall kip with a monster smile.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hahaha Your last few posts have really made me giggle SA. They say laughter is the best form of medicine and sometimes it can lighten even the shittiest situations.

Your boss sounds like she has snakes coming out of her head and maybe needs a rack for her broomstick as opposed to a parking space.

I believe in Karma, sow the wind, reap the whirlwind and one day my friend.... and with a bit of luck you might just be there to watch.

Its great that you dont let people like her poison you, retain that sense of humour at all times it will serve you well.

Take care

Blondie

Day 68... thanks everyone, I will catch up with your diaries over the weekend.

I have not gambled a penny on anything in the last 68 days. Always good to be clear about these things from time to time i think. Am not one for stopping one form of gambling but carrying on with another (like the lottery). Ive suffered enough. No gambling means no gambling.

Its been fine at work today.. the reason being that boss was not in. Not many clients either so all in all its been quite easy and relaxed, even got off early as well.

Its been a very difficult week overall what with everything thats been going on combined with the snow and ice. But ive come through it and will enjoy the weekend. Am glad the snow will be melting need to do a long road run on sunday. The spring running season fast approaches.

No gambling problems. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

hey SA.

Just a flyer to say hiya...heeeey ..that rhymes..

Go easy on the training....too much can run your immune system down and make you more prone to picking up infections hun..

Does the cold not make your chest sore when running?

OK ..lecture over,.

R and D xx

hey SA

just getting back to your post on mine and how we are both in a way going against our learned programming from childhood...lol

I am a risk taker with my heart becasue ive been an old romantic and am blessed or cursed with imagination.....and we all know what the flip side of a disappointed romanic is...??...a right old cynic.

Had a laugh over the food as I am well known for acting as if i have scarcity issues...which probably is the case..I have to consume and get it Now Now Now or else someone else will get it and i will have nothing...even joked about liquidising my food as its quicker to get down the hatch...lol.

I get so mad if im hhungry and have to wait..wedding receptions being the worst...i have been known to take my own food as a pre curser to the meal as its such a long day..lol...words most commonly uttered in a day by me are "im starving"...literally passing out if i go without food too long..getting hungry now just writitng this..!!!

I just tell folks i was an orphan and we needed to fight for our gruel...lol

I dont have much trust in there being enough to go round and like your family ..mine was also into money being the thing that gave you pride and standards and values and dignity or moreso how you spent it and what on..

My Dad being the real rags to riches story but with 100 quid he would not buy 10 pairs of shoes...he would buy one pair ..italian leather soled and look after them...God knows where i went wrong.!!

Guess also a generational thing too...my folks were straight out of kitchen sink dramas like "Cider with Rosie" and those black and white films about post war working class made good..floating around in Crombie coats that you wrapped back up in tissue paper after wearing them and brought it out year after year and deciding who was good or bad by the colour of their net curtains!!!

I am a big Tom Courtney ,Rita Tushingham ,Julie Christie fan even now if you know those actors....Watch "Billy Liar" if you have never seen it..classic film...I think my values have come frm this era and that part of the UK.

anyhoo...back to working out figures at the CAB

R and D xx

Please tell me you run in red high heels as well !!!

xxx

Day 69

Thanks Rach... am just scoffing a jam sandwich on impulse.. preparation time... about 10 secs! 😉

Of course I run in red high heels Rainbow.. don't all blokes? 😉

You get some fit f*****s down the gym.. bounding along at 15 km's an hour.. doing 10 km around the 40 min mark.. first class! I did 8km today in a little under 40 mins.

Paid some bills this afternoon. Those electric storage heaters are tooo expensive BUT i had the money cos am not gambling. Ive also signed up for some run races. It gives me a certain satisfaction to be able to pay my way and live relatively normally.

No gambling problems..thanks for listening.. S.A 🙂

Day 70... 10 weeks, not a penny gambled! Even though ive been here a good number of times before, it still feels good to get those first few weeks under ones belt, especially this time of year which historically is when am most likely to f*** up.

The ice and snow has finally gone so i twas up early for a long run. Just over 2 hours in windy conditions.. it was hard work at times but i did it, just over half-marathon distance.

Need to *** on with Nvq today.. deadline approaches again. I don't wanna get chucked off it for being too idle to do it.

Anyway thats me, just getting on with life a day at a time, even though I don't have great enthusiasm for it. I kinda appreciate more now that if am going to reap the benefits of not gambling I need to be really patient..its a very long term project. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Patience is a virtue as they say...keep it in the day SA and you wont go wrong

R and D xx

ps..noticed youre munching on the almonds....good choice as they are high in tryptophan..a precursor to seratonin...so a natural antidepressant..

Turkey,chickpeas (hummus) and milk also high..hence hot milk before bed to make you sleepy.'''..

Try honey in you're green tea?....i drink loads of it but have to pace myself cos it stirs up stagnating liver energy and brings out anger...lol

R and D xx

Day 70 comes to an end.

Thanks Rach... i needed some almonds today for sure. Since my last post my mood dropped so low that i just went to bed. Ive got up now just in time to go back to bed. My flat is a pigsty and ive done nothing constructive since going for my run first thing this morning. My life has very little meaning and very little purpose.. work, run, eat (too much) and sleep. probably tomorrow i will feel differently such is the way of things... but for now am woe is me and miserable. Nothing changes if nothing changes. No gambling and goodnight... S.A

Hi Sa,

Sorry to see your having a bad day, when those dark clouds come its sometimes so hard to see any light, but light always follows dark and it will pass.

Take care of yourself and sod the flat.... Im dont fluffing cushions lol.

Blondie

Day 71

Thanks Blondie.. I don't think ive ever fluffed a cushion in my life lol

Feeling a bit better. Maybe part of my mood drop yesterday was that I was just knackered and i was annoyed with myself for not doing the Nvq stuff i'd told myself i was going to do.

Anyway, today is a new day. Onwards gambling free... S.A

hey you two non fluffers....hope you're feeling better today SA..best place bed to sleep off the blues....

Think I may get into being a fluffer.....and the when i get home I'll perk me cushions up a bit....fnnar fnnar...lol

soooo rude first thing..

R and D xx