Hope

Hiya 🙂

Yes SA, no more 1% we are worth all 100% to ourselves.
life goes on and s hite days passes, we are healthy and earning our living. You will have a little run around before you know it 🙂
..just stay away from M6 lol..maniac ignoring speed limits still about lol lol.. (sorry Rach if you read this 😉 )

Let's do it SA, let's start living again.

S x

Hi SA,

Kick that 1% right into oblivion where it belongs. I feel your sadness in your post, so I am sending you a big cuddle

((((((((S))))))))

Every day we feel different you will feel positive again very soon.

Take care

Suzanne xx

Thanks both 🙂

Happy to report that no gambling since my last post.

It crosses my mind how little fun I have had over my whole adult life. Its no exageration (dodgy speeling) but my typical state of mind over the years has often been depressed and worried because of my gambling meltdowns and/or stressed and worried because of work or not having work (and lack of career for that matter) and/or feeling stressed and lonesome cos of no partner and just a handfull of friends most of whom are just as f****d up as me. Thats the way my life has always been. Ive never really known any different. Maybe there was a brief period in my early twenties (before gambling) when I has a bit happier and did more and was not so weighed down with problems but that was a long long time ago now.

So I guess in a way it was no surprise that I found solace in gambling. Gambling became my fun....a fun way to pass time as the gambling industry would have us believe. But its not fun at all is it?? How can staking ones hard earned money against a computer chip be classed as fun??... its f*****g scary... its living on the edge and thats not fun at all, not really. It really aint fun.... its f*****g scary.

Thanks for listening... S.A

Hi SA,

Well done on continuing to make the right choices, and not gambling. If someone was poking you in the eye and telling you that it was fun, you wouldn't believe them, and that's exactly the myth that gambling companies try to sell to us to get us to gamble.

I know what you mean about the depression too, mine probably started seriously at university, and has never really abated. The question I ask is if the depression triggers the gambling, or do I gamble and then feel depressed. There has to be some link there.

Keep up the good work mate,

Ryan

Hey SA,

Never forget that whatever you did or didn't do in the past, which gives you grief now...you can make changes to turn it all around. Hey man as far as i remember, there is more women than men in a world by population lol..(saying that i learned that quite few years ago at school).plenty of choice out there, go and grab it, no need to waste time on this ugly habit - time to live and enjoy life.

You are worth it.
keep up the good work and keep mounting these days up. It will get better. .

S x

Thanks both and please to say that no gambling since my last post.

Like you say Sandra, gambling really is an ugly habit. In fact its a very nasty vice.

My gambling is not fun. It merely drains my bank account and leads to personal misery and despair.

Onwards... S.A

I am. In big trouble with this illness but with this site I believe I can now overcome this

Hi S.A,

Nope. Gambling is no longer any fun for me either. I become obsessed and lose touch with reality. I don't come out of it until all of the money is gone and then I cry about wanting more money to waste. It is a horrible habit and I too can live without it. I dream about a world without these hell holes in it. ((((S.A))))) -joanxxxx

No gambling since my last post. Thanks Judy and Gingernut

Its been slow going this weekend through choice I guess. I need to spend little money so that I have money for all the exmas expenses to come. I haven't done much except go for a run and have a walk up to Asda.

I find that the most horrible thing about this addiction is that the consequnces just seem to go on for ever. In reality all I did was spend 4 minutes watching reels spin on an online gambling site and yo and behold I have a £100 plus credit card bill. And before that all i did (over the course of 3 months) was spend a few hours watching reels spin on a few gaming machines and yet this cleaned out my savings and took me over drawn. Its sick. Its sick that I do this to myself and sick that society allows the possibility of this to happen in the first place.

Anyway its been two weeks since I drew my line in the sand once more. Thanks for listening... S.A

Hi SA 🙂

Firstly well done on your continued journey, you're doing well. I do agree with you on devastating consequences gambling brings. Few hours of fun eh and months of misery to follow. ..horrible addiction for sure, but all we can do is to pick ourselves up and try again. Relapses are painful but we learn from them also. Better days will come, that line in a sand will not get crossed. I believe in you my friend, all you have to do is believe in yourself.

As of the medication. ..well i am not the one to talk here lol but you shouldn't just quit them, especially if they helped you. For me..well, they just makes me spaced out lol but i guess there are many different ones to chose from (except paying 9.05 for every prescription lol..doctors will send me bankrupt soon).
Maybe get in to see doc again? As we all know this festive season is not too festive for lonely souls like us lol so just do anything to lift that spirit up.

Onwards my friend, keep up the good work 🙂

S x

Hi SA,

Can understand the consequences of gambling keep popping up, and all this for that brief madness that consumes us.

We know the outcome but we can't stop, so we just have to do our very best not to start again.

Very well done on 2 weeks of winning, stay strong and starve the horrible addiction.

Take care

Suzanne xx

Hi SA,

Glad to hear you're continuing to get further away from that line in the sand. You're bang on about the consequences of gambling. The months and years I've worked in the past to pay off my gambling debts only to go and throw it all away once I'm in the black were such a waste. I really want this time to be the one that is different, the time when life gets back in order and I actually start saving for my future, getting things going in the right direction and build a life. You know what you need to do, two weeks may seem like a short time, but its big progress from where you were fifteen days ago.

Keep making that right decision.

Ryan

Hey SA,

Pulling you bk to page one by the collar lol lol (not if I'm violent lol..)just a gentle drag to see how you are doing this week 🙂
Take it easy, stay warm in this weather and keep making the right choice. Another day of winning, and that's really good.

Keep it up!!

S x

Thanks all. No gambling since my last post.

I just paid a bit off my credit card. My credit card that had a nil balance for the last 2 years (for emergencies only ya know!!).... that is until I stupidly decided to gamble with it.

I do feel such an idiot and as "gingernut" describes... "I stop, I start, I binge, I win a little, I loose a lot, I then take a break and say to myself that's me done with gambling by which time I've got myself out of my hole,got a few Bob saved, then bang another crashing fall."

Ive been going round this circle for so many years. It really is utterly pointless. Its utter madness.

Just for today... and thanks for listening... S.A

Hi SA

Sorry I've not been around much recently. Glad to hear that things are improving for you. Your posts are always so honest and ones that often strike a chord with me. Keep up the great effort,

Take care

Irene

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