As predicted from my last rant, things went from bad to worse and at 40 years old I'm been made redundant on 31/3/17. no doubt i'll end up in a c**P dead end job that will pay peanuts. I may aswell break up with my long time girlfriend as i have no savings, pension, job, mounting depts and we are off together at the moment and cant afford to go anywhere or see anything, all we do is walk about looking for somewhere to sit and eat as i live with my busy nightmare family and she lives with her family so we can't sit about our family homes. My gambing urges have took a back seat as now I spend time urgently looking for a new job. I did have a VERY minor relaps on 3rd of december, I put money in a maching , then got to the menu and printed the reciept and just got the money back out again. My father in law is doing well with his cancer treatment so thats the good news. Other than that christmas will be bleak and I can't face new year. I'd love one day to feel happy about something but the past 23 years have been constant misery. Please God keep me away from slot machines.
A bit good news, apart from a very, very minor blip on 3-12-16, I'm doing well with avoiding slots! I'm currently on the sick as I'm getting made redundant March 31St 2017 as I've lost the will at work and I'm hopeful to get another job in a call centre which pays more and I can walk to save petrol. I've had urges but somehow I'm managing not to go near a foot/slot machine, think it was the back end of October when I had me last disaster so if despite everything else going down the pan, I've stopped the gambling.
Fobt not foot!
Hi positive Panda , thank you for sharing your struggles !
Good to see you are thinking how to improve your situation , you deserve peace of mind !
Keep making good decisions for yourself it will make your life better from day to day .
Gambling does not solve any problems , it creates more of them as the shame and guilt will eat you. The addictive mind tells us we have to fix it all ourselves , but that's a lie !
Best wishes to you and all the people on the forum.
Cheers - I wanna do better. Yesterday hopefully was the first and last relapse of 2017, it will have to be because I'm loosing my job in March.
Well, that's the end of a crazy 3 day gambling spree, just lost £170 in a slot/fobt machine in 50 minutes. I'm now over drawn, 11 days off pay day and feel physically sick, why the f**k do I do this. It stops today, I'm sick if been a mug and lining the pocket of greedy Fat cat bookie owners.
Well. What a complete idiot I am. I was doing well to not be as over drawn and had a day off work for a job interview today - as I'll be redundant in 3 weeks time - and I had free time after my interview and blew 200 or to put it in English my overdraft and 100 I had saved up. I've never felt as miserable as this. Life gets worse and worse. I'm not silly and I'm not suicidal but I can understand why people do kill themselves. I can never see my life improving. It would be great if I could get threw the rest of 2017 without pumping my money in a stupid brain dead gambling fobt machine - I'd love to swing a axe and smash one of the fobt machines to smithereens the people who invented these machines must have mo conscious. I hope to win against the fat cats behind these machines and stop putting my money in them to dent there greedy profits!!
Rather than swing an axe, why don't you self exclude from the places you gamble?
I didn't get the job either, 2017 is miserable as predicted.
Sorry just accidently flagged the above as abusive.
Sorry to hear you never got the job.
2017 doesn't have to be miserable. It's only just begun. There's many months left and with this addiction you know just a few days/weeks off the slots and our mindsets can change so much - for the better!
Come on POSITIVE Panda. You didn't put the positive in your name for nothing..
Pick yourself up, dust yourself down and start again.
Sending you a bucketful of strength and good luck on the job front.
Rhoda's right (post 68, ignored by you).
The job might be outside your control. Taking steps to limit your access to gambling and to get help via counselling and GA, these are things you can do if you choose to do them. You're not a leaf blown about in the wind. Better to take ownership of what you do or don't do.
CW
Hello, been linking my wounds since my last mishap. Touch wood up to now, I've kept away from the slots, I've developed a hatred for them. I'm a bit worried about not finding a job. My last day is the 17th February 2017, unfortunately for me I find having spare time and time on my hands is when I start to stray into the bookies. Thank you for everyone's kind words after my last post x
My last post was i was heading for redundancy, and here i am, almost 7 weeks down the line, unemployed and today my worst fear of relapsing came true. I'm suprised i've managed this long! Anyway, its out my system, I found my relaps today, boring, stupid and pointless, I saw the same old faces , and thought to myself 'what are you doing' i'm unemployed and this is the last thing I want to get sucked back into!! hopefully i'll find a job soon, but finding it hard because of bluming 16-24 year apprenticeships are hooving just about every job i look at, im 40 now so I am pushed ot the job hunt due to old age! anyway, rant over, next time I visit this site i'll have a job so see you in 2 or 3 years time!!!!!
Had a minor hic-up today due to feeling VERY depressed and messed about employees who mess me about in thinking I have a job with them and then either not getting back to me or building my hopes to say i've been unsuccessful . The job centre is next to a betting shop so I extended my despair today by playing the slot machines again. I don't think I'll EVER be happy, my life had been dogged with bad luck and bad habits for 25 years and i'm f**cking sick of it. I really thought i'd got a job yesterday, which would of got me off the streets and away from betting shops but the people above "God? Jesus?" plans for my life is to cause me as much agony and misery as possible................also afflicking my miserable life with a gambling habit!!
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