I am stronger than I thought!

good to see you are doing so well charlottex, everyone on this forum has one thing in common ! we want to be rid forever of this curse and be better people for it, you are so in the zone now ! me and many others will be here supporting you as we know you will support us x keep up the abstinence

Cheers for commenting on me diary charlotte

No gambling means a better life for us charlotte and every person on this forum

Thanks all 4 ur support u r all gr8 ppl..without u all I would never have got this far xx

I thought about not being honest ... but sorry guys it is just not me!

I gambled 2day... I did not see it coming I had a gr8 day with my Mum she told me how proud she was of me... I decided to go 4 a few drinks after with my friends.... Usual story ... lost loads... feel gutted. But no more excuses... I did not have 2 play the machine .... I chose 2... 4 the 1st time in my life I admit defeat.. This is the end of this journey 4 me I just can't do it .... I am a selfish person and a total failure and that is the truth!

Thank u 2 Apg. Graham and Redmanjim 4 ur friendships away from the forum... u guys r gr8... But this is the end 4 me... Take care everyone... I know each and everyone of u can do this.... U r all strong and I wish u all the happiness in the world and the very best 4 the future... Thank u from the bottom of my heart 4 all the support and kindness u have shown 2 me!!

Pls no1 waste ur time commenting on my diary ... I really am worthless and deserve none of ur comments... just stay strong all of u and gamble free!

Take care all xx

Charlotte

sad post to read,i am not wasting my time when posting my friend. My advice is simply never give up giving up.

If i had the strength and courage you have at your age then i would be twenty years better off.

Charlotte you are not alone each day we all fight the same horrific addiction. It knows no bounds,it does not play fair it will for life attempt to destruct all it can.

Take the help you give to others be proud of your honesty.

There is a triangle Time -Mone-Location take one away and you can't have a punt. Resulting in a 100% payrise.

Take care of yourself,that daughter of yours.

One day at a time

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hi charlotte

Please please just look at the big picture and with that u av done amazingly well , the only pressure is that ur putting on urself , for us we can never beat gambling all we can do is make sure gambling doesn't beat us and thats exactly what ur doin , dust urself down get back on track and carry on fighting , its just a slip accept it u can't give upand go back to all that misery , yes u feel low and worthless but that will pass its natural to feel way but u know too much now to go back to that permanent misery all that time ago ur brain won't allow u to do it

The support will always be here for u no one will judge don't do anything hasty just hang in and fight and thats exactly what ur good at

Stay strong think of Maddison and ur boyfriend and the life u know u want with them , this journey is so hard and I can relate to u so much but times like this all we can do is fight and I know u will

Take care thoughts are with u

Castle2

Hi Charlotte, I also had a relapse on 12/12/12. Just totally lost control and lost ££££. Back to square 1!

There is no denying that life is better when we don't gamble so why do we do it?

Let's make this our last day 1!

no words today Charlotte other than take some time out today and come back to the forum when you are ready.

Don't leave hun.Please stay...You must keep close with people on here who understand .

its not about perfection..its about progress and you have made so much progress.You have to look at it on a longer timeline and bigger picture.

It does'nt matter to me why you gambled ..what matters is that in your heart you don't want to.

Keep following your heart because for YOU it's the right way xxx.

Unconditional ....

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R and D xx

Charlotte you are not leaving us you have been my strength and will be again brush yourself off girl and start again wow you relapsed for one day after so many clear days you have done amazing I'm not going to give you a hug but I will say get back on the trail to happiness with us, my mum use to say if you fall off your bike just get back on you have to do the same look forward to your day 1 post!!!

Char,

I really hope that you come back on here.

You need this site....and we all need you!

Only 1 "yummy mummy" on here miss.....thats maddisons mummy!

Sue xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

DONT GIVE UP !!!!

As others have stated put it behind you and keep fighting.

Rome wasn't built in a day.

Get back on your bike and start peddling.

Take care.

Winning Post.

Thank you for your honesty and I really feel for you at the moment. I know how gut wrenching it can feel when you gamble after a period of abstinence and it can knock you for six. Even after gambling yesterday you have still made great steps. please take a bit of time and regroup, I cant think of one person here you hasn't lapsed at some point in there recovery, its likely most have slipped multiple times including myself. Its all about how you move on from here and I I hope you can take a bit of support from everyone here, no judgements.

Hi Charlotte, just read your post... Don't let this get to you. It can happen to any of us regardless of how long we've been on the wagon. Best thing to do is to learn something out of this...slip, understand where you dropped ur guard. Giving up is for cowards and I do NOT look up to cowards. You've been an inspiration for me, always been in my corner . Get back up and start 'punching' this addiction. Best to use that anger against gambling than yourself. Nobody is wasting anything here. We're here unconditional, everyday fighting this addiction like its the first day. Hope to read a more positive post soon

Yo,

I hope you read this , be it today or next week or when you feel ready to start reading and hopefully posting again.

This addiction feeds on low self esteem . It plays with mind to convince you that you are weak , but I know as do all the fine people on this site , that you young lady are not weak, I along with so many believe you are a really strong person who has been through a lot and carried on.

You can do this , you might have the odd slip but who on this site hasn't . One day you will get it right but only if you do not stop trying .

Take the power away from the addiction, believe in yourself , come back fighting honey .

Hugs

Shiny xxxxxxxx

Hi Charlotte

I hope that you do choose to come back. You are a great asset to this site.

You are an admirable woman who, I believe can get through this.

Grab that control back!

Take care

Irene

x

Hi Charlotte,

I truly hope you do come back, by the looks of things you have much love on this site. A slip is a slip, sometimes that thought of gambling takes over anything else, and it just happens. That doesn't mean you're worthless. Fighting an addiction isn't easy and occasionally people do have slips. So I truly hope you come back here.

Take care (and remember you're not worthless )

Nicki xx