I am stronger than I thought!

Thanks Irene 4 ur support, it means a lot xx

I managed 2 stay strong 2nite and I am sooo proud of myself... I am on the l8 shift this wk at work and when I got home Maddison was asleep...I felt really down... I really like putting her 2 bed...And I had not really seen her much all day.. I also had a really stressful day, work is so busy and the urges were strong !

It was possible 4 me 2 gamble 2nite also if I wanted 2!

So I decided 2 watch a film 2 take my mind of it... I should not have worried an hr l8tr Maddison woke up and I played with her and her toys 4 a bit... I did not even mind her pressing her singing Santa and Snowman lol

Just seeing her smile when she saw me and giving her a cuddle was enough 2 keep me strong... It is moments like this that I realise y I cannot give up on this roller coaster ride known as this journey!

Still gamble free 🙂

Oh yehhhhh........ I can't wait 4 Christmas... I am soooooo excited 🙂

Nite all xx

Well done on staying strong! You have done so well! Stay focused on your goals and don't let little niggles get in! It is all to easy to gamble!

Do it for a fantastic christmas and your daughter!

Luke

Charlotte, your post made me smile ear to ear. Seems like what the world needs now is a little cuddle to remind us all to be strong. You are a super terrific lady and I am pulling for you. -joanxxxxx

hi char

The doc

HI Char,

Sorry to hear about your recent slip, you keep getting back up and you keep fighting this head on. In time those slips will be a thing of the past each time you slip you will get stronger and that little bit wiser to this addiction.

Keep on going.

Take care

Blondie x

Hey,

I saw you deleted a post from my diary. You really didn't need to I thought it was a brilliant post and I hoped to get chance to re-read it this week and respond to you properly. I have also been feeling a bit low for a few days so I can only apologise for not responding a bit sooner. Hopefully I will catch up with you before the end of the week. Still think we can do a great 2013 thread between us 🙂

Flagg

hi lovely char

the doc

Hi Char

So glad you managed to stave off the urges last night- you should be so proud.

I'm wondering how decimated the poor tree is now.......only 6 sleeps 🙂

Take care

Irene

x

Hey Char,

Hope you and Maddison are well my friend.

Just had a catch up on you diary...sorry to see you had a relapse mate but glad you have managed to pick your self up and go again that is what it's all about, you will get there in time I believe in you!

Iv made a decision to leave gam care and make ago of it alone and try to leave all memory's of my past problems in 2012 and start 2013 a fresh.

I just wanted to thank you for all your help and support you have given me to get me where I am today as I know without that I would be still chasing my tail or worst possible done some very stupid that I had been contemplating for a while.

You are truly one amazing young lady and I hope and pray you can *** this addiction and I have all the faith you will.

I wish there was a way we could keep in contact to keep updated with your success.

I hope you have an amazing Christmas and a happy and gamble free new year.

All the best Shaun x

Afternoon Char,

Thanks for the understanding I do feel like im being a bit selfish by abandoning everyone here who has helped me get where I am.

On that evening where I didn't know what to do run or stand and fight the addiction yourself, apg and Graham showed me the light and gave me the best advice without it god only knows what would have happend.

I would love to keep in contact with you so would be happy for Gam Care to pass my email address onto you.

You really can beat this mate this wasn't my first attempt at quitting its taken me a couple of go's but with determination you will do it, having a relapse is ok it happens that is part of the process of recovery so don't beat your self up about it.

Lets make 2013 a gamble free year for the both of us mate.

When Gam Care send you my details get in touch let me know how your doing.

Best of luck with everything I hope you and your family have an amazing christmas (only 6 more sleeps 🙂 ) xx

Hi

Just a wee quick note b4 bed. I do know kinda what ur going though just now- its not always easy. ( I dont think it is at any age!!) Sounds like you know what u want to do and have a plan- if they're real pals they'll accept that choice.

You have a great attitude and a wise head- helped me enormously.

Thanks Char

Keep strong!

Irene

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Thanks all xx

1 wk gamble free 2day 🙂

I had a falling out with my friends 2day, they wanted 2 go out drinking Christmas eve and that will just end up with them playing the machines and getting in at 4am..When I said I would not be joining them they got really annoyed at me...Apparantly I have changed, I am boring and no longer ne fun... I need 2 stop taking life so seriously... I felt a little sad after this, they just don't understand!

But I have changed, I am not some1 who can party 2 the early hrs of the morning now and not worry about it... I do not want a hangover Christmas morning... I want 2 enjoy my day with Maddison, my bf and my family the ppl I love and care about!

So this time, I stood firm and said No, me and my bf r gonna snuggle up with Maddison Christmas Eve and watch christmas movies.... I am really looking 4ward 2 this and I think this is much more rewarding than a nite where I mess up and spend christmas miserable... So 2day I am proud of myself, 4 not being pressured in2 giving in... This journey has really made me stronger!

6 more sleeps 2 Christmas.... I can't wait 🙂

I hope everyone is ok xx

Charlotte

your title needs changing on Your diary.

I did it again. Something amazing!!!!

I am proud of you,immensely.

Xmas eve 8 pm channel four!!!!the place to be. X

joining you on that countdown !"!!

Inspired

Duncs stepping forward never back

hey char

The doc